I'm Lost in Confusion

I sat down outside I called JR and sofa. The are members of the group I’m in, VLH, or Viva inc. I had to talk to them, they might know where she went. I’m mean it is her sister and cousin.

JR: what do you want Marsha

Jenn: look Reba have you heard anything from her?

Jr and sofa: NO the both screamed.

Jenn: ok no need to yell. Are we three way calling here?

Sofa: Yes. Its not like you’re here to talk to.

Jenn: I think we need a meeting here. We need to go over things now that she’s gone. People are going to wonder, what happen.

JR: ok you come tomorrow nina. Now be safe don’t beat Brian up, and Jesus loves you.

I always loved how they keep there cool with everything. I know inside there worried that she didn’t walk down the isle and just never showed, never said a word after she left. Poof she’s gone. Like a horrible magic trick. I walked back into the house to find Brian sleeping on the couch. I felt like being my old self again. I wanted to be the same, not this hella stressed, frustrated and pissed off person. I need a good laugh. I walked into the kitchen grabbed the whip cream, and a Sharpe. I love doing this. I walked over to Brian, who was sound asleep. I shook the can , and slowly drew cloths on him. I can him a nice dress, with some cool looking shoes. I even did his hair. To top it all off, I gave him a stash, and nice looking eye liner. I don’t know he’s going to react but I feel good. I took a few pictures. He could sleep threw world war III and he wouldn’t know. I walked upstairs to sleep, its was about midnight and I needed to go see JR and sofa in LA., and that’s an all day trip.

I woke up to my I-home turning on, yeah I’m not like Brian. I wake up to anything. I got dressed quickly. I walked down stairs to see that princess must have gotten up, cause he was gone. I saw the light on in the bathroom, I didn’t want him to know I was awake, so I quietly walked to the garage to leave. I closed the door, hit the key to unlock my car, and I heard the door close behind me. I stood there, like if I didn’t move he wouldn’t know I was there. Yeah I think like that.

Brian: NOT NICE! He yelled.

I couldn’t help but laugh, it was funny as shit.

Jenn: I don’t know what your talking about. I said with my back still turned to him.

Brian: I don’t thinks so. He came over and stood in front of me.

I couldn’t help but laugh. I smirked.

Brian: No NO NOT FUNNY!

Jenn: it is too. I smiled and pushed him away to get in my car. He grabbed the door,

Brian: why?

Jenn: well you feel asleep, and its was a great time to do it. You know you don’t wake up for shit. it’s a shame though. You look great as a women. I would go lesbo for you know. I said giving him a nudge to get to my car.

Brian: Well thank you . I thought so too. Where you going to? He asked flaunting his stuff.

Jenn: well I have to go to LA. I have to do some work, you know that real people do.

Brian: oh so you're saying I don’t work.
And I just sit here all day.

Jenn: yes. I put my sunglasses on and smiled.

Brian: I think your full of shit. I'm gone half time on tour.

Jenn: ok Brian look at me here, I said pointing to my sunglasses. I’m not dumb just cause my hair has blonde in it doesn't mean I'm stupid. We all know you don't do shit. I said as I got in my car.

Brian: I’m so confused.

Jenn: you should be. Now maybe you should clean up cause I'm leaving. I don’t want to look at a women when i come home. So bye. I gave him a cheesy smile and backed my slick black BMW.

I drove down the local streets. All the familiar buildings, restaurants, clubs, little stores. I drove a little farther down and noticed a white dodge charger sitting at
The hurricane bar. I knew it was him. I parked my car and went in. I kept my sunglasses on, like I was some spy. I sat next to him. He was talking to some white trash slut. So not cool.

Jenn: matt what are you doing.

He jumped a little.

Matt: I didn't know you were here.

Jenn: who is this bitch whore. I pointed to the girl on the other side of him.

Matt: uh.... She's not ok, this is holly.

Holly: just to let you know I'm not a bitch whore. I'm here to comfort him in this time.

Jenn: yeah I'm sure you are. You know you really don't belong here. He doesn't need you. What he needs to do is go find Brian. I said grabbing him by the arm.

Matt: hey I wasn't done talking to her.

Jenn: listen to me.... I know your upset and heart broken but come on her stop thinking with your dick and think with your heart. I'm so disappointed in you. It's like she didn't even excise. And what about Chad. You forget about him too. We walked out side. It was only 11am and he's drinking.

I called Brian.

Brian : hey there's my bitch.

Jenn: you need to come get your friend who's talking to a fucking slut, and who might be a little drunk.

Brian: uh Johnny?

Jenn: no matt. Were at the hurricane. So be here in 5 or I'll beat the shit out of him. And I hung up.

I sat him down on the curb. I stood there waiting for Brian.

Jenn: you know how much I want to beat the shit out of you?

Matt: I don't know why your so mad. I was just talking to her.

Jenn: I don't believe you at all. I crossed my arms.

Matt: you should.

Jenn: I don't.

I heard some tires screech. It was Brian. He parked and ran over to us.

Brian : you guys ok?

Jenn: I suggest you talk to him before I do. I don't want to deal with this asshole. And I'm late for something. I said walking passed Brian and getting in my car and leaving. I will so be kicking his ass later.

I drove down the HPC it's was a bit relaxing to see the ocean and how warm it was. Think this was the best move we ever made. I'm mean we could go far in Seattle but we both new other places would take us farther.

I was receiving a call thought my Bluetooth on my stereo. I hit the talk button on my steering wheel.

Jenn: hey hey what's going on?

Jr: where are you!

Jenn: I'm on my way I'll be there in 20 minutes.

Sofa: well get here now!

Jenn: I'm working on it.

Jr: well hurry.

I hung up. Conversation going no where. I drove as fast as I could with out getting a ticket. I finally arrived at there house. I walked up to the door for some reason I knew things weren't right. They were hiding.... But where. I stood there and waited.

Jenn: guys I know your hiding.

Jr: god fucking damn you

Sofa: what a waist.

Jenn: we need to talk.

We walked in and sat in the living room. All these pictures of our success plastered every where. Magazine covers, photo shoots, and album covers. We are amazing at what we do. I love it.

Jenn: have you heard anything.

Jr : nothing.

Sofa: nothing. I don't know what to do.

Jenn: same here. Everything has been put on hold.

Jr: we need to start filming again we have a new season coming up, new album and lots of promoting.

Sofa: but it's weird with out her.

Jenn: we can't start unless she's here.

Jr: how long that might be awhile.

Jenn: give it two weeks tops. I have hope. She will think about chad and him being away from his father.

Sofa: I wouldn't be so sure.

Jr: you never no with her.

Jenn: well we need to look for her some how. Anyway we can.

We talked more about what we should do to find her and about the up coming events. I had a lot on my trey. Finding her, a new album, new season of Viva Inc, I'm sure new album will lead to tour, and my wedding. My wedding was now on the back burner. I wanted to get started as soon as possible. But I don’t think it's going to happen. She was my rock to keep my mind clear. Keep me some what stress free cause we all know Brian was only good for something’s. It was very late when I left. I didn't get home until 2 or so. I walked upstairs quietly and jumped into bed.

Brian: oh fuck!! What the hell.

Jenn: hey women.

Brian: I'm no women now.

Jenn: you talk with matt

Brian: yes. He says he was just trying to get out of the house and gets some air.

Jenn: please tell me that you don't believe him

Brian: well yeah cause he was.

Jenn: wow! Ok so you think being at a bar at 11 am ,being slightly drunk and talking to that whore. Yeah I would call that getting out of the house alright.

Brian: well your right about the bar. But what's wrong with him talking to a girl.

Jenn: that's no way to get over what happens to him. He's not thinking. He's forgotten about Chad.

Brian: no he hasn't.

Jenn: he's hopeless and so are you.

Brian: I'm not you just don't understand.

Jenn; I will kick your ass if you don't shut up. You don't get it.

Brian: I do.

Jenn: whatever I'm done talking about it.

I rolled over and closed my eyes how could he think like that. He sounds like matt. I think I'm going to check on zacky tomorrow. Somthing get out of this house.