Girl I Know

Chapter 26
(Mercury PoV)

“WHEE!” I yelled as I buzzed around backstage making myself seem like an airplane.

“IM AN AIRPLANE!” I yelled loudly as the band and techies were staring at me.

“JB!” I yelled to him as he was teching the instruments.

“M!” He yelled back down and I went over to where he was.

“What’s up JB Jizz?” I laughed and he gave me a playful glare.

“Nothing much, just really busy getting ready for Avenged’s show. And your hair looks awesome,”

“Yeah, wait till you see my brothers and Brian’s.” I smirked.

“Well aren’t you in charge of the stage effects and what not?” I asked and he grinned.

“Well yes, yes I am.”

“And don’t you like messing with the boys?”

“Oh boy do I!” He laughed and I grinned.?

“What if I became a stage effect?” I asked and he smirked so mischeviously. I was definitely on the same page.

“What do you mean by that?”

“Let’s take a walk, shall we Jason?” I said putting my arm around his shoulder and grinning.

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The lights and pyro cannons went off loudly on stage as the lights flashed, and smoke covered the floors. The deathbat emblem was burned onto a black backdrop and the gys were at the peak of their performance. They were in the middle of the song trashed and scattered.

“Are you sure you want to do this?” Matt asked me and I nodded and gave the harness a tug. I felt myself being lifted up in the air and my laughter echoed under the loud music. The rig went forwards and I sailed across the stage in the middle of their song. The crowd went wild with laughter and the pit got even more intense. Matt saw me and nearly messed up. The rev was laughing wildly, still keeping up the beat, and Syn Johnny and Zacky missed a note because they were so shocked. I love how I keep taking over their shows. Its so funny!

I just kept darting from one side of the stage to the other as they played their song.

“Yo M?! You gonna scream?!” Matt yelled during Syn’s solo.

“No.” I yelled down, and Matty laughed.

Zacky was looking up at me and I waved at him.

“Hi hi Zacky Pie.” I cooed at him and he glared. I laughed at him and blew him a kiss. I spent the rest of the song literally dangling from a rig over my brother and his band. It was pretty fucking funny, since whenever Syn and Zacky went back to back I just looked unimpressed. I crossed my legs and made it look like I was meditating, and I just hung out…literally. It was fun watching them from up here, it made me feel awesome.

“THANK YOU CANADA! YOU GUYS FUCKING ROCKED TONIGHT!” Matt yelled into the microphone. He was about to walk off of the stage before he remembered I was there.

“Mercury Baker come down from there.” He said and I shook my head.

“Nuh uh!” I whined.

“M.” He warned jokingly.

“Keep talking Shadows, and I’ll let everyone know that you don’t have a dick.” I yelled and all of the girls screamed in protest. Many ‘no’s’ were echoed.

“You know M, I would show you but it’s just to big for your virgin eyes.” He said cockily…haha. The girls screamed loudly, and I even heard a few guys.

“MATTY STOP TALKING DIRTY!”

“I’ll stop talking dirty if you come down.”

“Will you catch me?” I asked and he shrugged.

“No promises.” He laughed before Jason berry yelled in the back and before I knew It I was falling down. I landed straight into Matt’s arms and the crowd cheered one more time.

“Okay! Goodnight Canada! I love you!” I said into the microphone and Matt hauled me off stage as I tried blowing kisses. Pfsh, they loved me.

“That was the funniest shit I’ve ever seen!” Johnny said when he saw me and I jumped onto him, hugging him tight.

“Thank you shorty!”

“ Did you guys enjoy my spectacular entrance?” I asked and they just laughed.

“I have to admit, it was funny as hell.”

“I felt like a real airplane guys.” I said cutely and Zacky picked me up.

“Yay! I like it when you hold me, no incest!” I yelled and he laughed.

“What? Zacky never holds me anymore! But now he is!” I squealed, I felt all giggly and giddy and excited.

“I love you ZJ!” I said to him just to see if he would say it back.

“I love you too Curie.” He said back and I yelled in excitement.

“YES!”

“Who wants to profess their undying love for me? Any takers.

“I love you Mercury.” Sunshine yelled and I gave him a high five.

“I love you mom.” Matt said and I laughed.

“I love you short shit!’ Johnny added and I flipped him off, laughing all the same.

“I love you M.” Brian laughed and I looked at him deadpanned.

“Kiss my Sass, Haner.” I said as Zacky put me down.

“I’m bringing sassy back! And everything that you thought you can’t forget ‘cause y’all know nothing but my name! And I don’t wanna hear about people I don’t know. Not you, not him, not her, No!” I sang, reminding me of Kiss my Sass by Cobra Starship. I danced around and shook my hips, grabbing Mattie B to shake his hips with me.

“You know hanging from a rig and shaking my ass with roadies makes me thirsty. Can anyone point me inthe direction of the nearest food table. I know you fairies like it when people set the food out for you . Zacky likes to see everything he can possibly eat
Before he eats it.” I said and Matt scoped out the surroundings before he told me how to get there.

“Thank you!” I chirped as I skipped away in search of the food and drink I was promised. I went where Matt told me but I ended up getting lost…that dumbfuck not knowing where he’s going. I tried going past the lounge door but out of knowehere someone grabbed my wrist and pulled me down a hallway before pushing me up agat the wall.

“Ronnie what the fuck are you doing?!” I hissed and he smirked.

“I came to see you baby.” He said and I felt bile churning in my stomach.

“Did you break up with him like I told you?” He asked and my eyes widened. I had completely forgot. Brian and I were being so normal I forgot about Ronnie, I forgot that my life was going to turn to shit. Well could you blame me? Anyone wouldn’t want to have that hanging in their minds…

My thoughts were cut off abruptly when i felt a heavy force crash down on my ribcage. I started to scream and tears stung my eyes but his hand clamped down on my mouth.

“Shh…Now listen sweetheart, I want you to fucking do it now. I don’t care what happens, I just want you to end it.” He growled.

“R-ronnie, don’t you think if you loved me, wouldn’t you want what I want?” I tried to weasel my way out of it.

“You don’t know what you want.” He told me before he let go, and disappeared for me to fend for myself. My ribs hurt like fuck, but I don’t think any were broken. I was sure to have a bruise by the end of the night. I had to do it, I loved Brian too much to do that to him…

I swallowed my pain and put on a front.

“Matthew! There weren’t any snacks!” I yelled and he smiled sheepishly.

“Sorry honey, I thought it was there.” I smiled a small smile before I took a deep breath and went to face Brian.

“Brian…c-can we talk?” I asked and he nodded and we quietly slipped away from the crowd. I felt like such a fucking bitch for doing this to him at his own concert. Tears started slipping from my eyes, and he pulled me in for a hug. I wrapped my arms around his waist.

“What’s wrong?” He asked softly.

“B-bri…I-i…w-we…c-cant…be together…anymore.” I cried, as I tried to control my sobs. My eyes were burning with the salty tears as they overflowed.

“What? What the hell are you talking about Mercury? Why are you saying that?” He asked with such a pained look in his eyes. I felt like I had just stabbed him.

“Im saying th-that we need to break up.” I said looking down. He gently rheld my face in his hands and I wanted to melt into his touch. He made my glassy green eyes look into his.

“What makes you say this?”

“Be-because…I don’t…I don’t want to be with you anymore.” I murmured staring deep into his eyes, and I heard his heart shatter into a million pieces. Mine was already broken beyond repair. He searched my eyes for any kind of lie but I didn’t let him find one. I hid them with my tears.

“Im sorry…I really am, but I cant do it…” I said softly, and he let go of me. He released me like I was some foreign creature. He dropped me like I was hot.

“Really? I want you to look me in the eyes and tell me that you don’t love me.” He said lowly, his intense gaze burning me up. I hesitated, I really did love him…

“You cant say it can yo-“

“I don’t…love you…Brian.” I said gritting my teeth, trying not to completely break down in front of him.

His big brown eyes pierced mine. He pressed a soft kiss to my lips and I tried my best not to enjoy it, not when I was seeing bursts of color behind my eyes.

“Are you sure you didn’t feel that?”

“I don’t feel it anymore….” I said blinking once, and returning my hard look to him. I had to make him take it and accept it. I had to keep him safe, even if it meant keeping him away from me. He seemed like he was taking it so much better than he really was. I knew he was dying, I was too. Then he enclosed himself in his outer shell, I could no longer see Brian, but Synyster. His brown eyes weren’t as chocolaty and clear as they usually were. They looked dark and angry. He was gone from me, he’d closed off.

“I cant believe you…” He spat before he turned away from me and left me all alone.

I’ve lost the feeling in my heart tonight. When I was holding you I think I died. Your touch your kiss it’s killing me so slowly I think, I;ve lost the feeling in my heart tonight…

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It was late and Brian still wasn’t back yet. I was sitting up on the couch, with my earphones in my ears waiting for him. I was extremely worried. But I had some nerve, how could I just break up with him and then wait for him to come back to me on the bus. I think this whole thing made me realize that I am an idiot. I don’t even know how I could have possibly twisted myself into this situation. I mean I know how, but I don’t even know how I could have possibly been that fucking stupid!

I mean look at me, im sitting on a couch in a tourbus at two in the morning waiting for my ex-boyfriend that I still loved. I had gotten texts from Ronnie and he even called me a few times but I refused to answer him. I let my ipod play on shuffle and Truth and Consequence by Eighteen Visions came on. I remember when Matt and Val were in the video for I let go, we are actually such good friends with them.

You've cut it down,down to the bone. You begin to spite yourself and all that still surrounds. You've been deceived now, by what you've sold. Truth gave way to consequence and left you all alone.
I’ve lost the feeling in my heart tonight. When I was holding you I think I died. Your touch your kiss it’s killing me so slowly I think, I;ve lost the feeling in my heart tonight…
These streets seem empty, not a ghost in sight. You walk alone now while you beocme one with night. Black cold and heartless, you'll reap what you sew. Truth gave way to consequence and left you all alone…

Came through the speakers, and I couldn’t help but feel that this song was about me. Im all alone…The door burst open revealing a piss-drunk Brian stumbling onto the bus, and he closed the door behind him. I was shocked as hell, I could smell the alcohol on him from here.
He locked eyes with me and they held a heavy glare on me. I was doing this to him…

“You…” He said suddenly looking at me like I was a hell spawned creature.

“Stay away from me…I-I thought you loved me…but you lied…” He slurred and I felt like crying.

“Brian…go to bed.” Was all I could say. I wasn’t bunking with him tonight, but I didn’t want to stay on the couch.

“I don’t have to listen to you…fucking bitch…” He slurred stumbling back to the bunk area. I decided to suck it up and sleep with Zacky…not like that. I followed him a few minutes later to get to my brother. I found myself pinned against the wall with Brian’s hands squeezing tight on my arms. His eyes peered widely into mine as If he were begging with his eyes. I could see they were such a light beautiful brown, but they were drowned in alcohol.

"You do when you are wasted." i said and he just scanned my face. His eyes started flooding with wetness.

“M…why? Why don’ you love me ‘nymore?” He asked me and I put my hands on his chest.

“Brian stop…”

“Answer me!” He yelled, and his voice sounded like he was in pain.

“I’ll tell you when you are sober.” I said sighing and he just peered at me for a moment, and in that moment I got lost In his eyes. He leaned down to kiss me but I turned and he caught my cheek. Kissing him would only make this harder on the both of us. I just hoped it would blow over quickly.

“Goodnight Bri.” I murmured and he let go of my arms. He left his handprints in a blueish bruise.

“Im so sorry…” He said in almost a monotone before he walked back to his bunk. I found Zacky’s and I opened the curtains. I poked his shoulder multiple times before he stirred.
His eyes cracked open a bit and he looked so confused.

“….uhh…M…what the fuck do you want.”

“Can I sleep here.”

“Why…aren’t you…fuck…whatever…” He mumbled before he moved over and made space for me. I climbed in and scooted under his arm.

“Thank you, goodnight.”

“Yeah…now shut up.” He mumbled and I closed my eyes and let sleep take over