Girl I Know

Chapter 27
(Mercury PoV)

I was standing in the lot with the boys as they were talking with MCR and Disturbed. My phone buzzed in my pocket.

Get over here. I read as a new message came from the restricted number. I knew it was Ronnie. My heart jumped in my chest. I hated getting texts from him, they made me so scared.

No, why. I replied popping my gum loudly. I hadn’t spoken much to anyone since I had split with Brian. I didn’t know how to anymore.

M I said get your ass over here. Don’t make me come over there. I read and I sighed. I zipped up Zacky’s hoodie and I threw the hood over my head. I walked away from the guys without question. I knew they were worried about me with the way I’ve been acting, maybe minus Brian.

I walked through the lot until I saw the Escape the Fate bus. I’d learned to hate that place…I loved Bobert, Max, and Bry, don’t get me wrong. But I don’t even know how they could just be so oblivious to what he’s doing. I stepped onto the bus and I was almost tackled by Bobert and his crazy slash hair.

“Hey! What’s up?”

“Nothing much Radke.” Max smirked. I felt my stomach turn wildly at the sound of me being referred to as that. Not in the good way either. Ronnie had told the guys that he had asked me out, and I was his girlfriend. Did he mention that it was completely non-consensual?

“My name is M, thanks.” I said giving him an uneasy smile and he just put his hands up in defense.

“Yo, is that M?!” I heard a loud voice yell and I laughed.

“Yo is that B Money?!” I called out and Bryan came out from the back with his crazy blonde hair and hugged me tightly. From the corner of my eye I saw Ronnie emerge from the back with an indifferent look on his face, before he saw me. His cold eyes locked with mine and a chill shot down my spine and made me go rigid. I let go of Bryan… …Brian…my Brian… Memories of his face flashed in my mind and I almost started tearing up.

“Aww, what’s the matter baby?” Ronnie asked, snaking his skinny ass arms around me. He gave me this look that shook me to the core, and I don’t get that scared by much.

“N-nothing…Just happy to see you.” I lied, with a counterfeit smile. That answer seemed to satisfy him. He pressed a kiss against my lips and It made my stomachs contents want to crawl up my throat. I had to fake it, I kissed him back.

“So what are you two love birds doing?” Max asked wiggling his eyebrows and I tried not to let the hurt surface. I didn’t want to be here, I had to go…

“Ronnie, babe I have to go. The guys are going out and I don’t want them leaving without me.” I lied, hoping to hide the truth from him. He gave me a scrutinizing glare before he let go of me.

“I’ll see you later.” He said eerily and I waved goodbye to them. As soon as I got off the bus I ran back to the guys. It was the only place I ever felt safe. I bumped into someone and It nearly knocked me back. I cowered back seeing Brian turn around to look down at me.

“Sorry.” I mumbled looking away from him and crossing my arms. He just turned back around and tried to half ass a conversation with the rest of the guys. I tugged on Zacky’s shirt sleeve, and for some reason it reminded me of when I was really little and I would do that to get his attention. He turned around and his eyes softened when they set down on my identical ones.

“What’s wrong?” He asked and I felt so bad because all that ever came out of my mouth was lies these days.

“I just wanted to know if you guys were going anywhere.”

“No.” He said shaking his head and I nodded weakly. He gave me one more strange glance. Shit, if Ronnie found out that I lied I’d be dead…Thinking about Ronnie made me furious somewhere inside. If I could, I would have punched that fucker out so long ago. There was a pain in my chest that hurt and longed for something at the same time. I was longing for Brian; I missed him so fucking much it made me sick. And I hated how Ronnie used Brian to hurt me. My emotions were in frenzy at this point and I just needed to forget everything.

I was spiraling the fuck out of control and I couldn’t stop myself. I didn’t know what to do without Brian in my life, I didn’t know how to deal with this situation with Ronnie, I wanted to ask for help, but my fear far outweighed that want.

I couldn’t be around the guys right now, and I’m pretty sure they knew something was up with me. They took it seriously when I didn’t even want to talk to Brian. I left them silently and went back onto the bus. I walked back to the bunk area and a familiar scent hit me…it was Brian’s. I pushed the curtains back to the bunk and I climbed inside. The softness and his smell engulfed me and for the first time in a while, a smile crossed my face. I snuggled into his sheets and closed my eyes.

I don’t even remember how much time has passed but I just know that the curtains were pulled back quickly and light flooded in. I cracked my eyes open to see Brian staring down at me in half shock and half of an unreadable expression. I felt bad instantly, I don’t even think he wanted me near him and then I just had the nerve to sleep in his bed…

His face turned unreadable and his eyes just stared dully down at me.

“I’m sorry…I’ll get up…” I said timidly and I tried to unwrap myself from the blanket cocoon I made for myself.

“No…you can stay.” He said climbing in next to me, and I wanted to lay my head on his shoulder. I knew he was going to say something to me.

“Mercury what’s wrong with you?” He asked genuinely concerned. I could see that he knew something was up, that something was bothering me.

“Nothing…” I replied meekly.

“See that’s how I know something is up. You are being so quiet and submissive, not to mention you barely even speak to any one of us, and you avoid eye contact with me just like you are right now.” He said threading his fingers through my hair and rubbing my scalp.

“And I don’t know why you decided to break up with me…but I know that it’s not because you don’t love me…” He said and tears were slipping down my face.

“I can’t have this conversation with you Brian. I’m happy that you still care about me, and believe me if I could tell you I would have. But it’s too late now. It’s for your own good that things remain they are until I figure out what to do.” I said not wanting to bring him into this.

“M, you aren’t okay. You need help, I can tell that whatever is going on is too much for you to handle. You can’t do this alone…”

“This would be so much easier if you could just be mad at me for what I’ve done. At least I’d get the punishment.” I murmured.

“I am mad at you. I’m fucking pissed actually, but that’s not going to stop me from helping you. I obviously know you are hiding something, and it’s destroying you. I’m not going to sit there and watch you take that all by yourself.” He said and I was feeling terribly. I just remained silent just hoping he would eventually drop it.

“Alright, whatever…Just remember that I did try to help you…Now if you wouldn’t mind, I’d like to get some sleep.” He said, and irritated look crossing his face as he lay back and closed his eyes.

“Was that code to the fuck out?” I asked knowing he was trying not to get too pissed at me…at least he tried.

“Yes.” He said nearly snapping at me. I untangled myself from his sheets and I felt cold as the warmth left me. I had to climb over Brian to get out, and for a brief moment I was straddling his lap, and one of my hands rested on his chest. His lip twitched as if a moan was about to escape and I climbed off and closed the curtain.

I heard someone bang on the door and Zacky got up to get it.

“Hey man, what are you doing here?”

“Oh I just texted M just now. The guys wanted to spend the day with her, so I told her I was coming to get her.” He said smiling and Zacky smirked and let him in…shit. I saw Ronnie standing in the bus with an innocent look on his face, but a dark look slithered into his eyes when he saw me.

“Hey M, did you get my text?” He asked and I flipped open my phone and opened the message.

Play along…or else It read and I quickly deleted it.

“You ass.” I said like I was joking.

“Okay Zacky, I’ll probably be on the Escape bus all day so just text me if you need me.” I said cheerfully. It disgusted me how I had adapted to lying so quickly. I walked off the bus and Ronnie took me over to Escape the fate’s bus. I expected to see Bobert, Max and Bryan again, but the bus was dead silent.

“Ronnie where are th-“ I started but before I knew it, he had me slammed up against the wall of the bus, and his face was too close to mine.

“I thought it would be better if we spent some time alone together…” He murmured, his stale breath fanning against my lips. My eyes locked with his dark insane ones as they silently begged for him to stop doing this to me.

“I don’t think that’s such a good idea.” I shakily whispered and he reached up to caress my face.

“It wasn’t a good idea to lie to me either sugar. You’re so cute when you are scared of me.” He said smiling as if he had said something sweet. Yeah if I was cute now, I was about to be fucking adorable. He pushed his lips onto mine hungrily and he tried to get his tongue past my lips.

“C’mon baby don’t play hard to get…” He mumbled against my lips. I was easily persuaded however when I felt the cold steel of a blade pressing dangerously against my stomach. I opened my mouth to him, and his tongue happily darted around and wrestled with mine. He started to get way too comfortable as his hands, started moving down slowly. They glided over the curvature of my breasts and onto my flat stomach, and traveling back up under my shirt. Ronnie’s hands abandoned my torso and went straight for the button and zipper of my ripped jeans. I tried to pull away from the kiss but I was already against the wall.

“R-Ronnie stop…” I said as he took the opportunity to kiss down my jaw line, and bite and nibble on my neck.

“I’m sorry babe, but I just can’t do that…” he said as his hands worked to further push down my jeans. He was teasing me and he knew it, as he felt me up. I was on the verge of tears and the heavy feelings of sadness, disappointment, and dirtiness had already sunken in.

His hand dipped into my panties and slowly brushed against my entrance. Fear built up inside of me, overpowering the small amount of pleasure that my hormones released.

“I’ll show you how good I can make you feel. I know you aren’t ready for me yet, so take this as a gift.” He said lovingly with a sneer towards the end. Well at least he had a fraction of his heart left…sarcasm. His finger teased me, starting to push in but not even.

“Please…don’t. Ronnie!” I yelped his name at the end as he roughly pushed two fingers into me.

“Baby that sounded so good, coming from your perfect lips…” He said grabbing my face in his hand. I tried to make the sadness and pain go away. I tried to go back to the times when I was once happy.

Brian PoV

For the brief moment that I felt her body up against mine, there was that nostalgic feeling of when we were still together. That’s the part that I don’t fucking understand though! Why would she break up with me when everything was next to perfect? I had honestly never felt so happy in my life then when I was with M, even before we dated. The way she’s been acting so strange lately even adds on to it! She rarely talks to us, she seems to cower whenever I’m around, and she’s always getting these texts constantly. I would never read her phone because I’m pretty sure she would flip a shit at me.

Is she seeing someone else? Did she break it off with me to be with this person she’s been texting? I’m pretty sure it’s that Jake motherfucker. To think I would teach him a lesson with the first as kicking. I pulled the curtain from my bunk and stepped out of it, I decided I was going to go for a smoke. I saw all of the guys in the lounge and they seemed to be discussing something important. They all looked torn and concerned, especially Zacky.

“What’s going on here?” I asked and their eyes all cast up at me.

“We just don’t know what’s wrong with M… The other day she was perfectly fine at our concert. But I don’t know what happened to her to make her change like that…” Zacky said staring at one spot on the floor in deep thought.

“Did you two fight or something?” Jimmy asked and I shook my head no. Does her breaking up with me for no fucking reason count?

“No, she just cut me off.” I said and they sighed.

“She hasn’t talked to any of us in days except for a few questions here and there. Anytime else I just either see her on the couch curled up, in Zacky’s bunk, and mainly Brian’s bunk.” Jimmy said and I shoved my hands in my pockets.

“Yeah, she was just there. But she just up and left with Ronnie. She hangs out with them way more than she does with us now…” I said running my fingers through my hair.

“I just miss her; I really don’t need some shit happening to my sister right now.” Zacky snapped and the room went quiet.

“I’m going to go for a smoke.” I said pulling out a pack of Marlboros out of my pocket and a Zippo as I walked out of the door. I stuck the cigarette between my lips and lit it up, inhaling the toxic cloud and I let it relax me. I just started walking and taking drags of my cigarette. I let my mind wander out to her.

What was going on with her…she used to tell me everything, and now she’s just a stranger in my bunk. Ironically I passed in front of the Escape the Fate tour bus. I rolled my eyes and took another drag of my cigarette. I heard a few sounds from that bus that I only thought I imagined. I stepped closer to it and I had to stop breathing to catch the noise again.

“Ronnie!” I heard a female voice moan. M was the only chick on their bus… But still I guess it could be a girlfriend, Ronnie did say the guys wanted to see her.

Stop fucking playing yourself dude

I heard the moans again, and I knew those moans from anywhere. It was her…
I knew she had to have been seeing someone else. It wouldn’t make any sense for her to break up with me like that for any other reason than guilt. Ronnie of all people…what does that fucker have that I don’t…What makes M want him so bad? This was just like Michelle all fucking over again. That bitch just thinks she can screw me over and fuck around with other guys? That is not happening again, I’m done with all of this bullshit.

“That bitch can go to hell.” I growled blowing out smoke, and I turned the other way.