Into My Arms

Rachael’s POV

I took a deep breath and took in the moment. Standing outside, up on the stage in front of the thousands (possibly even millions) of fans, screaming my name…cheering their heads off, clapping and whistling. It was pretty hot outside and I was in shorts and a tank. I smiled lightly and gripped onto the microphone stand in front of me and set the microphone in place.

“This next one…is pretty new…and it’s for all of you out there…who need help finding the way to the right road…who need inspiration to get you moving on from whatever…or whoever…here’s a hint…it starts with good bye,” I introduced and I felt like I was going deaf.

I was sitting on my doorstep,
I hung up the phone and it fell out of my hand,
But I knew I had to do it,
And he wouldn't understand,

I pushed my hair back with one and gripped onto it, as I held my other hand up slightly and closed my eyes.

So hard to see myself without him,
I felt a piece of my heart break,

I put a fist up to my chest and gripped onto the microphone with my other hand.

But when you're standing at a crossroad,
There's a choice you gotta make.

I opened my eyes and began to sing with so much power and emotion.

I guess it's gonna have to hurt,
I guess I'm gonna have to cry,
And let go of some things I've loved,
To get to the other side,
I guess it's gonna break me down,
Like falling when you try to fly,
It's sad, but sometimes moving on with the rest of your life,
Starts with goodbye.

I took the mic into my hand and began to walk to one side of the stage.

I know there's a blue horizon,
Somewhere up ahead, just waiting for me,
Getting there means leaving things behind,
Sometimes life's so bitter sweet.

I started walking to the other side of the stage and I sang with a voice…that shocked me.

I guess it's gonna have to hurt,
I guess I'm gonna have to cry,
And let go of some things I've loved,
To get to the other side,

I began to walk back to the middle.

I guess it's gonna break me down,
Like falling when you try to fly,
It's sad, but sometimes moving on with the rest of your life,
Starts with goodbye.

I started to walk down the catwalk as flashes were going off in every direction of me and my emotional moment.

Time heals,
The wounds that you feel,
Somehow, right now.

Then the music stopped and I took a dramatic pause as I hung my head and the cheers and screams got loud but I also heard a few awes as they realized I now had tear streaks. The music started out soft as I gripped the mic with both hands, looked up again and continued.

I guess it's gonna have to hurt,
I guess I'm gonna have to cry,
And let go of some things I've loved,
To get to the other side,

I started bending my legs more and bouncing as it was now louder and everyone else got louder as well as they were swaying their arms in the air to the beat.

I guess it's gonna break me down,
Like falling when you try to fly,
It's sad, but sometimes moving on with the rest of your life,
Starts with goodbye,

I held out the note as my backup singers began to sing.

I guess I'm gonna have to cry,
And let go of some things I've loved,
To get to the other side,

I started to sing again.

Starts with goodbye,
The only way you try to find,
Moving on with the rest of your life,
Starts with goodbye,
Na na na na na na na

It was about him…I wonder who else caught onto that. I wrote this song and a few others the day after the breakup…and the day after that. I had to get all of this emotion inside me out…and putting it into my lyrics and music is the only way I know how. I loved him…I always will…but this will be good for us. All of what was happening with us…wasn’t helping us in the slightest…and it was time…right? I had to end it. Anna even said I couldn’t keep it up…I couldn’t handle more drama with us…and the whole thing just wasn’t right. If what I did was the right thing to do…why do I feel like I’m being ripped apart?