Love Is Our Destiny

I woke up 5 in the morning after a weird dream about sex.. with Alex? I rub my eyes groaning, what is happening to me? I have a boyfriend, still my heart pound when that English dude nears me. I sigh getting out of bed and grab my diary. Like any other girl, I have a diary, it contains my thoughts and secretly stuff, last time I wrote in it was yesterday, I wrote about making out with Alex.

I sigh then opens it protectively then grab my pencil from the table beside my bed. I lay back down in the bed turning the pages in my diary till I get to a blank page. I gulps looking at it, then put the pencil down and writes “Dear Diary..” I stop again then gulps looking at it. It'll make my head better if I come out with it. I sigh then put my hand with the pencil down again and starts writing again.

“Something weird is happening to me.. it's like this thing has opened my eyes, I mean he has, Alex that is. Last night we made out (as you know already) and I liked it (as you know already) but now I can't stop thinking about him! And I've just woken up from this weird dream of me and him having sex. Again I liked it. I dunno, I can't stop thinking about him, it's so weird. Maybe I'm falling in love with him?! Can't be.. I have Bam! Sigh I know he's an ass hole, and Alex is so..sweet and caring and HOLY SHIT, I'm falling in love ):
if you could talk Diary.. what would you tell me to do? Drop Bam and take Alex, or keep staying with Bam?
I think I need some time alone from both of them. This is so weird for me, I really like Alex, and Bam is my boyfriend. But after all, the Attention I get with Bam, is nothing I like, I mean, it's cool but again, there's some music I can't listen to, some clothes I can't walk in. it's like being a slave..
well I better go..
talk later xXx”

I put the pencil down sighing, then my alarm goes off, I turn it off, then get up walking over to my closet. I find some pants, a top and my favourite belt. I do my make up and hair, then grab my bag running down the stairs. My mom has just woken up and look like something the cat has dragged with it inside. I giggle slightly then grabs a bread and walk down the hall finding some pumps getting them on and walk out.

As I walk down the road, I seem to see Alex anywhere, my mind is fucking so bad with me. I sigh rubbing my head then adjust my clothes and keep on walking. I need to figure this out soon. And I need to keep away from Alex and Bam.