Status: Complete :')
Note to Self: Just Breathe
Aidan
I had been here roughly a week. I was now eating a slice of toast and a bit of soup each day. I was often on the computer at the hospital because I didn’t kick up a huge fuss anymore although I did refuse to eat a lot of food.
There was visiting hours every day, half an hour long. Most of the time my father visited me, but Aidan had done twice. I was awaiting my next visitor, sat in my uncomfortable bed and bored out of my mind.
While I was waiting I couldn’t help but think if there was a God. Because if there was a God then he wasn’t doing a very good job at being a “saviour”. If there was a God then he must dislike me a lot. I mean my life was pretty bad at the moment, but there were people whose lives were a lot worse, and I couldn’t help but think if it was because we deserved it. But then it couldn’t be. What did I do wrong? Was it because of the whole sex before marriage situation, or because I was unfaithful to Blake by saying yes to Cohen? But then how did the poor, malnourished babies in Africa have such a difficult and painful life? In the end I just figured that it was luck of the draw. Perhaps it was because before the whole rape incident I had been so happy. Perhaps we couldn’t be happy all our lives.
“What are you thinking about?” a voice asked. It made my jump and my head snapped up to see Diana stood in the doorway.
I shrugged my shoulders. “Okay Willow. I have your visitor here. May I present the handsome Aidan Harrison,” she said in a posh voice.
Diana and I got on loads. She was kind of my surrogate mother whilst I was here. I would miss her when I go.
“Aidan!” I exclaimed.
“The one and only,” he joked.
He came up to me and hugged my small frame.
“How are you?” he asked. His voice laced with concern.
“I’m fine,” I told him.
He sat down in a chair next to my bed and we sat in a comfortable silence for about 5 minutes.
“Everyone hates yours guts,” he told me bluntly.
“Can’t say I blame them,” I told him. Aidan knew the whole story of what went on that night, and he looked at me disbelieving.
“Don’t say that Li-Li. They just don’t know the whole story,” he explained.
“And they never well,” I told him, staring at him firmly. “Seriously, Aidan. They must never know.”
“Fine,” he answered, exasperated. “You better be eating Willow,” he said to me menacingly.
“I am!” I told him, fed up of his protective ways.
“Just checking woman,” he retorted.
“Woman?!” I asked incredulously.
“Yup. I’m going all gangster today,” he told me, easing the tension.
I burst out laughing; the first time I had laughed in such a long time. Aidan joined in and after a while we both calmed down. I glanced at Aidan to see her staring at me, a look of love on his face.
“I missed that,” he said to me softly.
I gave him a small smile and Aidan got up to sit beside me on the bed. He smoothed his finger over my lips, lifting the sides up so I would be smiling. I let him and he smiled at me, before pulling me into a hug, crushing me to him.
“I love you,” I told him in his ear.
“Ditto,” he answered.
There was visiting hours every day, half an hour long. Most of the time my father visited me, but Aidan had done twice. I was awaiting my next visitor, sat in my uncomfortable bed and bored out of my mind.
While I was waiting I couldn’t help but think if there was a God. Because if there was a God then he wasn’t doing a very good job at being a “saviour”. If there was a God then he must dislike me a lot. I mean my life was pretty bad at the moment, but there were people whose lives were a lot worse, and I couldn’t help but think if it was because we deserved it. But then it couldn’t be. What did I do wrong? Was it because of the whole sex before marriage situation, or because I was unfaithful to Blake by saying yes to Cohen? But then how did the poor, malnourished babies in Africa have such a difficult and painful life? In the end I just figured that it was luck of the draw. Perhaps it was because before the whole rape incident I had been so happy. Perhaps we couldn’t be happy all our lives.
“What are you thinking about?” a voice asked. It made my jump and my head snapped up to see Diana stood in the doorway.
I shrugged my shoulders. “Okay Willow. I have your visitor here. May I present the handsome Aidan Harrison,” she said in a posh voice.
Diana and I got on loads. She was kind of my surrogate mother whilst I was here. I would miss her when I go.
“Aidan!” I exclaimed.
“The one and only,” he joked.
He came up to me and hugged my small frame.
“How are you?” he asked. His voice laced with concern.
“I’m fine,” I told him.
He sat down in a chair next to my bed and we sat in a comfortable silence for about 5 minutes.
“Everyone hates yours guts,” he told me bluntly.
“Can’t say I blame them,” I told him. Aidan knew the whole story of what went on that night, and he looked at me disbelieving.
“Don’t say that Li-Li. They just don’t know the whole story,” he explained.
“And they never well,” I told him, staring at him firmly. “Seriously, Aidan. They must never know.”
“Fine,” he answered, exasperated. “You better be eating Willow,” he said to me menacingly.
“I am!” I told him, fed up of his protective ways.
“Just checking woman,” he retorted.
“Woman?!” I asked incredulously.
“Yup. I’m going all gangster today,” he told me, easing the tension.
I burst out laughing; the first time I had laughed in such a long time. Aidan joined in and after a while we both calmed down. I glanced at Aidan to see her staring at me, a look of love on his face.
“I missed that,” he said to me softly.
I gave him a small smile and Aidan got up to sit beside me on the bed. He smoothed his finger over my lips, lifting the sides up so I would be smiling. I let him and he smiled at me, before pulling me into a hug, crushing me to him.
“I love you,” I told him in his ear.
“Ditto,” he answered.