Love Among the Pizza Boxes

Oh. My. Gawd.
Oh….
Oh.
Holy shiznit.
That smile.
I think that smile is the most perfect thing on the face of this planet.
Thank you, God.
Thank you for making that smile.
I feel a little light-headed.
I don’t know why…
-Oh. That’s right.
I forgot to breathe.
Well that can’t be healthy.
Those little butterflies come back again, flapping their pretty little wings along the walls of my stomach.
Oh my.
The butterflies have a mind of their own…
And my mind has a mind of its own too.
Shut up, you!
I’m not gonna go over and hug him or whatever.
Stupid.
I hate feelings.
No, Shale.
Those are hormones.
You are a stupid, hormonal creature like all the rest of the living things on this planet.
Rawr.
“… So… Do you play baseball?”
Well that wasn’t awkward at all.
Just because he said 'rookie' doesn’t mean that he plays baseball.
Stupid.
Oh, you are such a sweetly stupid child.
“Uh… yeah. I used to, anyways. In high school. I was also on the track team. But I really don’t want to set foot on another track again.”
Oh deary me.
I’m kinda smiling and imagining him in one of those baseball shirts. And his muscles. Rippling. Oh god. It’s hot even in my imagination. And he’s swinging the bat…
Retard.
“That’s cool,” I answer a little too quickly.
Riku nodded. “…Yyup.”
“So!.......”…
I cough a little.
Aw man. Screw my life…
What was I thinking when I asked him out?
This is awkward…
Is it supposed to be awkward?
I wouldn’t know.
I’ve never had a date like this.
“Hey- So… Track, yeah? Why don’t you want to set foot on another track?”
Awesome possum.
“Well… The last track meet we had… Sora thought it would be awesome to pull a prank on me. I don’t know how he did it, but my pants fell down during the last event.” Riku looked at the ground and cleared his throat.
Don’t laugh.
I swear to God- I’ll kill you if you-
I couldn’t help it.
I let out an un-lady like snort.
“That’s awesome, man.” I punch his shoulder.
Oops.
Riku is also trying to hold back laughter.
So he starts laughing too.
And he punches me back.
“What, you think it’s funny, do you?” he asks through his laughter.
“Yes. I do.”
Marriage vows?
Riku laughs a little more. “Okay yeah, now that I look back on it, it is pretty funny.”
“Good. That’s what past embarrassing moments are for. They’re not for dwelling upon, they’re for laughing at.” I grin up at him.
Hey- He looks like he’s opening up.
Like a flower in bloom-
Shut up, Shayla.
That was a ridiculous thought.
If we were in a movie, I would be kissing you now, Riku.
And I want to.
But I’m not.
‘Cause that’s stupid.
And now I’m forcing myself not to look at your lips, Riku. Parted and beautiful and laughing and-
Shut up, you!
No way, José.
No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. NO. NO. NO. NO. NO! NO! NO! NO! NO! maybe… NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
Okay.
All better.
No.
Good.
It’s settled.