The Life of a Teenager

I Miss You

It's been a year since you've been gone
All that's right feels so wrong
There's a hole in my heart
Where you belong
Memories of you bring me tears
And yet I still keep them near
Making the pain come in forcfull brusts
Feeling like a punch hitting me, full force

I don't want to remember
Yet I don't want to forget
And everytime I hear my name
I think it's you calling me again
Though I know it's my mind playing tricks
Just to play with my hearts strings
I guess it doesn't help I'm in denial
When I act as if your here, even for only a while

I find myself wishing you hadn't left so soon
But then I realize your no longer doomed
To live a life, with no memories of who you are
Or of your family, who love you, even if your with the stars
But time is taking far to long, to heal my wounded heart
And I think soon I'll just fall completely apart
A hug and kiss, goodnight, I love you and see you in the morning
That's what we'd always say before going to bed
At least we got tell you one last time
But now I find myself replay that in my head

I miss your smile and your warm hugs
Long story short, I love and miss you so much

♠ ♠ ♠

This is a poem I have on my profile, but as I re-read it, and I thought it would also fit here. I wrote this about my grandma who had died in a Nursing Home, with no memories of her family, friends or anyone she had met before. She had gotten Gang-Green and lost half of her foot, she also had either Dementia or Alzheimer's. It really hurt and still does even though she's been gone for a year, but things like that don't heal over night and actually never fully heal do they?

If this shouldn't be here feel free to delet it.