Torn In Two

A few days passed, It felt like weeks. The guys kept treating me like a bad little kid that had ADHD.

"Hey Bam?"
"Yeah Viv?"
"Do you still have those guitars and such downstairs?"
"Yeah why?"
"I'm just gonna go play for a bit. Just call me up if you want anything."
"Yeah sure."

I walked down to Bam's sound proof room in the basement.
I took out my papers. Yes i do write songs, i don't think they are pretty good but my English teacher told me that i was brilliant with writing so i decided to write some songs. And this is my most recent one so why not make music for it.

So that's exactly what i wanted to do. I grabbed the guitar and started playing for a tune.
Once i found it i started writing down the cords. Once i finished that i decided what the heck minus well find a beat for the drums.

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About an hour later i walked upstairs.
"What were you playing down there? I never heard it before?" Bam said.
"Oh i was uhm, playing my own song, trying to find the music for it."

"Did you?" Raab said.
"Yeah."
"PLAY IT!" they yelled at me.
"I'm not really comfortable singing infron--"
"Who are you kidding you use to sing all the time"

"But that was different when, they weren't songs i wrote."
"You wrote it too! SWEET!" Knoxville said "Lets go hear it!" he said grabbing my hand dragging me to the basement.

"Fine. i'll sing it with the guitar."
"WOO!"

I sat down with the guitar and started singing.

'Give me any reason to believe
'Cause I swear I'm done here
'Cause I've seen a bigger picture
And I'm looking for some answers

Tell me that it's worth it
'Cause I'm doing all I can to fight it
And I've never been this scared
And my moment's finally here

Time's racing (Please slow down)
I got to find my way out
I'm hopeless (But hoping)
My lungs won't fail me now
'Cause I'm still breathing

It's hard to be a girl
But I'm doing all I can
I'm ready to give this all I have
I'm ready to be amazed
'Cause I'm standing here alone
Trying to make this life my own
And nothing will keep this heart from beating
I'm still breathing

Promise me some dignity
If I were to stand and die here
'Cause my heart is somewhere else
It's a pain I've never felt

Time's racing (Please slow down)
I got to find my way out
I'm hopeless (But hoping)
My lungs won't fail me now
'Cause I'm still breathing

It's hard to be a girl
But I'm doing all I can
I'm ready to give this all I have
I'm ready to be amazed
'Cause I'm standing here alone
Trying to make this life my own
And nothing will keep this heart from beating
I'm still breathing

Where do we all find love?
Where do we all find love?

It's hard to be a girl
But I'm doing all I can
I'm ready to give this all I have
I'm ready to be amazed
'Cause I'm standing here alone
Trying to make this life my own
And nothing will keep this heart from beating
I'm still breathing '

i finished, biting my lip getting nervous, the guys clapped.
"You wrote that?"
"yeah." i said blushing.
"So what is that one about?"
"well the first stanza is about you assholes treating me like i'm a bad five year old."
"Oh.."
They were quite for a while.

"Do you have anymore?" Dunn asked.
"Uhm yeah."
"Sing it.!" Steve-O said
"Uhm okay." i thought about all the songs i wrote "this one i wrote when i was 15" i said blushing remember the memory of why i wrote it.

i started playing and singing.
'I swear that you don't have to go
I thought we could wait for the fireworks
I thought we could wait for the snow
To wash over PA and kill the hurt
I thought I could live in your arms
And spend every moment I had with you
Stay up all night with the stars
Confess all the faith that I had in you (i had in you)

Too late, I'm sure and lonely
Another night, another dream wasted on you
Just be here now against me
You know the words so sing along for me baby

For heaven's sake I know you're sorry
But you won't stop crying
This anniversary may never be the same
Inside I hope you know I'm dying
With my heart beside me
In shattered pieces that may never be replaced
And if I died right now you'd never be the same

I thought with a month of apart
Together would find us an opening
And moonlight would provide the spark
And that I would stumble across the key
Or break down the door to your heart
Forever could see 'us', not 'you and me'
And you'd help me out of the dark
And I'd give my heart as an offering (an offering)

Too late, I'm sure and lonely
Another night, another dream wasted on you
Just be here now against me
You know the words so sing along for me baby

For heaven's sake I know you're sorry
But you won't stop crying
This anniversary may never be the same
Inside I hope you know I'm dying
With my heart beside me
In shattered pieces that may never be replaced
And if I died right now you'd never be the same

And I will always remember you as you are right now to me
And I will always remember you now
Remember you now

So sleep alone tonight with no one here just by your side
Sleep alone tonight.

How does she feel, how does she kiss
(So sleep alone tonight.)
How does she taste while she's on your lips.
(With no one here just by your side)
How does she feel, how does she kiss
(Sleep alone tonight.)
[x3]

I can't forget you
I know you want me to want you I want to
But I can't forgive you
So when this is over don't blow your composure baby
I can't forget you
I know you want me to want you I want to
But I can't forgive you
So when this is over don't blow your composure
I can't forget you
I know you want me to want you I want to'

"you should like start a band or something" Raab said.
"Yeah with my shitty songs about a kid i liked." i said laughing nervously.
"Well i think they are good. No matter what they are about. i like your voice" Raab said making me blush even more because the song was about him.

"Uhm, Vivian your face is red." Bam said laughing.
i stood up and laughed. "No it's not, you're imagining things."