Please...Try to Live on Without Me

@--}-- October ,a week later in Eli’s pov

Its been a week since I promised Nat that I would try to move on and leave what’s happened in the past. Leaving Annalise in the past seems so….wrong. I cant just move on and go on living when she never had that chance. She wasn’t given the chance to go on living, she wasn’t even given the chance to finish high school. Laughing and having fun while she’s…dead just seems so wrong. I try to think of different things, I’m trying so hard but… I’m tired of feeling a hole in my heart, tired of watching happy couples go by and knowing I cant have that with Anna anymore.

A lonely tear slid down my cheek as I lay my head in my hands and hugged my knees to my chest. It seems that letting go…is harder than holding on sometimes. My heart broke and all the tape my friends are putting on it doesn’t seem to be holding it together. I don’t think I can continue living like this for much longer. I don’t want to do anything that’d hurt the people I love, but if I don’t fix myself…I’m going to be visiting Anna and this time I wont let her go.