All I Wanted Was You

“Get it together! What am I gonna do?"
it didn't take me long to figure out what to do.
I grabbed my bag, shades, and my keys and ran out of my loft.
I ran to where the mob was and checked of he was still there.
I ran to the back of the hotel and checked there were only a small bunch of girls there left, well might as well ask.
"Um. excuse me girl?"
"Huh? Yeah?"
"Did you know where Rob went?"
"Why do you want to know?"
gosh can they be anymore bitchy?
"Because I am his.."
shit what do I say?
"Assistant and I lost him in the mob of annoying screaming girls."
the girl gave me that bitch look.
I really don't have patience for this.
"Well Ms. Assistant he said he had to go met someone, something about flowers I wasn't paying much attention. I just wanted to touch him."
gosh what is it with fan girls only wanting to screw a famous guy?
"Thanks and oh just to let you know you would never screw you so get that delusion out of your head dear."
I turned around and smiled and then ran.
I knew exactly where he was.
breathe remember come on.
I looked back and surprisingly enough none of the crazies were following me.
come on almost there.
I ran until I saw green and then slowed down and started to walk.
and sure enough I could make him out.
he was sitting against my tree.
I didn't say anything and silently sat next to him and didn't look at him.
I heard his sigh.
"Belinda."
I kept picking at the grass.
"Belinda look at me."
I didn't budge.
he got up and kneeled in front of me and lifted my face to look at him.
I was still looking down, I still had my shades on. he carefully pulled them off.
"Please look at me."
I sighed and looked up to meet his eyes.
He took my face in his hands and caressed my cheek.
"Are you okay?"
I became confused.
"What?"
"Sweetie are you okay?"
"Wait..you are asking me if I am okay? After what I did?"
"What did you do?"
"I left you-I left you there alone surrounded by a mob of fan girls."
he chuckled.
"I am use to that. It comes with the join. I was just afraid that they would hurt you. Did they?"
I just stared at this strange and interesting guy in front of me.
"I...well they.."
"What did they do?"
"They just tackled me, and a little stomping but i am fine."
"You sure sweetie?"
"Yes I am fine."
I felt my face getting hotter.
what the hell is he doing to me?
"that's good I would feel horrible if they hurt you."
"It's not your fault."
"I wish you didn't have to go through that."
"Its fine. happens whenever someone relatively famous comes into town."
"either way I am sorry."
"You don't have to-"
"Just please say you forgive me."
"You don't need to-"
"Belinda."
"Fine I forgive you."
he stayed in front of me and with his hands still holding my face.
I never noticed how rough they were before.
They are a tad less rough than mine.
I play guitar that's why I wonder if he does.
I have to ask him about that.
he started to get closer.
"So do you want to head back to my place?"
he stopped and pulled away.
"Yeah lets go."
he stood up and helped me up and I stumbled a little and fell into his arms.
"I got you."
my hair covered my face and he brushed it back.
"thanks."
"Anytime."
we walked to my place and sat on the couch.
"Can I ask you something Belinda?"
"Uh sure."
"why are you no good with people?"
give me the short answer.
"Because people, well the world took everything I cared about away from me."
"Like?"
"Don't. Don't ask anything more please. I really don't want to lose it."
"Alright. Can I ask something else?"
"Yeah."
"Do you play those guitars and the piano you have in the other room?"
"Yes I do."
"How long have you been playing?"
"I can't remember my mom taught me how to play the piano and my dad the guitar."
"Wow so they taught you everything?"
"Basically?"
"Will you say no if I ask you to do something for me?"
"Depends, what is it?"
"Will you play something for me?"
"Okay come on."
I decided piano because I was gonna sing Cordy's song.
I sat at the bench and Rob sat on the love seat facing it.
I lifted the lib covering the keys.
"I haven't played or sang this song in a while. I wrote it for Cordelia, it helped her through a lot."
he smiled and waited.
I played the keys

"I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you "

I looked down at the keys and then at Rob.
he just stared at me in complete awe.
"Her dad left her?"
"yeah when she was young and that did so much to her. It made her a bit afraid to take let people in or any guy. Her mother just crumbled a little and she in some ways matured faster but lost a little faith in people."
"Wow."
"I realized what she had went through and I wrote this for her. It made her believe that not everyone is going to leave her and made her say yes to Dan. Because she would always turn him down whenever he asked her to be his girlfriend."
"That's amazing. How a song can do that."
"Its music. It gets into your soul and never goes away. it can leave a lasting impression on someone. It can save your life, and make you open your eyes."
he looked at me and just smiled.
"What?"
"Nothing."
"Tell me."
"You are the most amazing person i have ever met Belinda."
I smiled.