All I Wanted Was You

I found him.
you know the one your mother tells you to wait for?
the one you know compliments your personality?
He is it.
this is it.

he was still holding me after I told him my tale.
"I never thought someone could ever go through so much and still be here. Alive."
"yeah I shut off, it was the only way I keep from going down that road. It was the only way for me to still be here."
his eyes looked to me then back down.
"Have you ever thought about it?"
"I would be lying if I said no. After I started being somewhat normal i did think about it and then my parents faces popped into my head and then I said no. It wouldn't be right. it would be like slapping them in the face in a way."
he was making circles on my bare feet just staying quiet. He seemed to lost in his own thoughts.
"I knew this would happen."
"What?"
"I can see it plastered all over your face Hun."
"See what?"
"You see it in me...that damaged part of me is all you are thinking about isn't?"
"yes and no."
"Elaborate please."
"I see it but not in the way you think. I just...I never thought someone could come back from that. its inspiring in a way, that you are still here. it makes my break seem like a small fracture."
I wonder...
"You will tell me when you are ready."
"I will I promise."
"I love you Belinda."
"I know Rob."
we spend the rest of the day on the couch in the living room watching movies, just spending our day carefree until he brought up something that well to be honest made me want to puke on the spot.
"There is something I need to tell you."
"as long it doesn't involve you being away from me I will live."
"Well..."
"You are going back to work?"
"No and yes at the same time."
"What is it?"
"Movie premiere."
"Oh."
"Yeah I was wondering maybe if you like to accompany me?"
"What?"
"Be with me when I walk down the carpet."
"As in a whole bunch cameras going off, people screaming at you, fans wanting to grab you, and me off to the side? I....no."
"Please I wouldn't be able to get through all of it without you."
"Don't guilt trip me Mr. Pattinson."
"Please?"
"No."
"I will give you a new old book."
damn him.
"I.."
"Yes! thank you thank you!"
"Yeah yeah yeah. gosh worst fear come to life. being in the middle of attention."
"Don't worry love. I will help you."
"If I pass out or have a anxiety attack just leave me there to die."
"Oh no that is not going to happen."
"I wouldn't be so sure if I was you."
he kissed the top of my head.
"Oh do you have a dress for the premiere? If not we could go get you some."
"definitely not. I have some so don't worry."
"Alright then."
"When do we leave?"
"We leave in 2 days."
"2?"
"I have to find a tux and remember the designer's name and everything."
"hahaha okay."
"love you can do this."
darn him and his confidence in me.