Status: Depends; hopefully active
Don't Go Away
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I got off the plane and went inside the airport to retrieve my luggage and find my mom, Jamie. I searched for the quiet woman but when I finally caught sight of her sitting in one of the plastic waiting chairs, I shuddered. This was the first time I had seen her since the divorce, and I had forgotten how similar she looked to my finally deceased uncle.
I shuttered again as I thought of him. Bile rose in my throat but I swallowed it and smiled half-heartedly as I watched Jamie walk over to me.
“Star!!” She took me into a hug that I gladly didn’t return due to the luggage in both my hands.
“Hey mom.” I forced out tightly while suppressing, yet, another shudder.
“How has my Star been?”
“Good.”
“That’s good. C’mon, let’s go.”
I gave a tight smile before following this God forsaken woman. I couldn’t help but grimace to her back. She had been the one to defend my uncle when he had done such a thing to me only four years ago. I still felt dirty, outside and inside.
I put my stuff in the backseat of her blue, rusted, piece-of-crap car before getting into the passenger seat. I slipped my iPod out of my pocket to listen to music so I wouldn’t have to talk to this wretched woman. Yet before I could put my headphones in my ears, she spoke, “I love you very much, honey. Thank you so much for finally coming to see me.”
I gave a nod before giving a small smile to her. Call me heartless, but I absolutely would NOT tell her I love her. I bit my tongue too, so I wouldn’t tell her that I only came because my dad practically forced me to. There was a lot of yelling and annoyance on his part but the worst thing he did was send Jamie hopeful e-mails.
I swear I could punch him sometimes.
I turned my music as loud as I dared before laying my head back. Even though music blared into my ears, I couldn’t help but think of all the bad times I had with Jamie when she was still married to my dad.
I could strongly remember when I was younger and how Jamie had dropped hints about my weight. See, I was pretty overweight for my age and Jamie would always drop hints about it when we went school shopping, but when I had turned twelve, she would flat out tell me I was fat. So, I tried to loose my weight by becoming bulimic and anorexic. I tried to make her proud by how much I wasn’t eating and how much I was exercising but she just told me to quite using drugs.
It took me two years after that to start eating healthy and minimizing my exercise time.
The worst memory of all the other numerous ones was how she defended her brother when I had tried to tell her that he was touching me inappropriately. After she had screamed her head at me and called me a whore, I was scared to tell anyone about my uncle, Blake. Up until Blake started beating me, I had warily told my dad, expecting the same outcome as Jamie, but instead he had fixed everything for me.
After the divorce, Jamie had come to live in Forks, Washington, so that she could be in the same town as her brother. Now I was finally seeing her only because he had overdosed and died two years ago. Best news ever in my entire 17 years of living.
A light tap on my forearm made me snap my eyes open and jerk my arm away. Jamie looked at me pointedly before looking back at her shack of a house. I turned off my iPod and climbed out of the car to get my things before I went inside
The house had once been a type of yellow, from what I could tell from the chipping and fading paint. I could see that some of the boards on the front porch badly needed to be replaced. Same went for the cracking cement and the broken window on the second floor. Now I dreaded to see the inside.
I cautiously stepped through the front door and was pleasantly surprised with what I saw. The inside, from what I could tell, was lavishly decorated similar to a mansion. The wood floors were a polished chestnut and the walls were bright colors that reminded me of the summer. Expensive pictures hung here and there along with knick-knacks placed on shelves.
Dark colored rugs were placed in all the right places in the house. There was also a large rug that the couch and recliner sat on facing the pretty modern television. A pine wood coffee table sat in between the two living room objects making more like an average living room.
We turned down a hallway that was brightly lit and at the end there was a door on the right that obviously led into the room that I would be staying in for a full month. In the room, there was a twin size bed with a wooden frame along the far wall that faced the window seat that over-looked the back lawn. The biggest thing I noticed about the window seat, though, was the HUGE window that opened up. I figured that it would be big enough for me to squeeze out of.
I set my things on my blue jean comforter that I remembered getting from my grandma when I was younger. That’s where that went… I thought darkly.
I looked around to see two more doors that I assumed to lead to a closet and the bathroom. Otherwise it was pretty bare except for another rug, a nightstand with a lamp, and a desk with a wooden chair.
“Ja-Mom?” I corrected myself quickly.
“Yah, Star?” She raised an eyebrow at me from her place by the door.
“Where do you work again?”
“I’m a doctor, silly, for Forks. But I was a doctor in Seattle.”
“Oh…” I answered not really interested anymore but more confused.
“Don’t be disappointed,” Jamie obviously took my ‘oh’ the wrong way, “I know it’s summer and that I won’t be here often, but one of the doctors I work with asked one of his daughter’s to hang out with you and she agreed.”
At least I’ll be able to hang out with someone…
Jamie left me to unpack while she made dinner. I left most of my clothes in my suitcases and put it under my bed. I left my backpack on my bed so a could retrieve my chargers, laptop, and feminine products right away if needed to.
Right now, I just took my iPhone out and sat down on my bed so I could think. I couldn’t figure out why Jamie suddenly took a sudden interest in me when she never cared about me before. I could have jumped off a bridge and she wouldn’t of cared. It confused me and I soon became frustrated. I just tucked my phone into my pocket and made my way into the living room to watch TV.
“Star?” Jamie’s voice echoed from the kitchen.
“What?” Annoyance was already starting to gnaw at me.
“We’re going to have to eat out because the hospital just called me and I have to stop in.”
“Okay.”
Another thing confused me as I went to get my purse from my backpack. How had my mom gotten a job caring for the hurt when she never cared about her own (ex)family? Whatever…
I got my purse and followed Jamie to her car to leave. She turned on the main road in the direction, I assumed, of the hospital. Unfamiliar buildings and trees flew by on our way. We were at the hospital sooner than I expected. When we got out of the car, Jamie never waited for me in this unfamiliar place. I practically had to run after her and my resentment and anger towards her grew to a point where my head was pounding.
I followed Jamie in a haste so I didn’t loose her but when she immediately stopped, I nearly ran into her. I looked to see her smiling up at an insanely gorgeous doctor. (I especially loved his odd butterscotch eyes and pale skin.) He smiled at me when he saw me staring at him. Jamie didn’t hesitating in introducing me, “This is my daughter, Star.” She stepped aside so I could shake his hand.
It felt like he had been sticking it into a bag of ice all day…
“I’m doctor Carlisle Cullen. Nice to meat you Miss Martin.” He shook my hand once while he called me by Jamie’s last name.
I grimaced before correcting him, “It’s actually Star Fitzgerald. I take my dad’s last name.” I saw from the corner of my eye, Jamie glaring at me.
“Sorry for the mistake.” He apologized politely, before turning to Jamie, not even looking awkward, “My daughter Alice is here.”
“Oh, where?” Jamie looked around him in hopes of seeing her.
“Actually I have all my daughters here and they are in the wing that have the ill children.” He smiled before turning around to show us, I mean, me where it was.
I felt my heart thump wildly in anticipation. I really hoped these girls weren’t snotty and mean like the ones at the school I went too…
I twisted my ring on my middle finger as we walked down the halls and took an elevator to the next floor. I took a deep breath trying to calm myself. Doctor Cullen smiled at me reassuringly as we stepped out into the white hallway and started walking again.
We soon came to two doors that opened up to a large room that was separating multiple children from each other but a lot of the curtains had been pulled aside. I saw as kids and worried parents watch three girls doing flips over each other and balancing on objects. They stopped when Dr. Cullen cleared his throat.
I looked at them with wide eyes. Wow…
I shuttered again as I thought of him. Bile rose in my throat but I swallowed it and smiled half-heartedly as I watched Jamie walk over to me.
“Star!!” She took me into a hug that I gladly didn’t return due to the luggage in both my hands.
“Hey mom.” I forced out tightly while suppressing, yet, another shudder.
“How has my Star been?”
“Good.”
“That’s good. C’mon, let’s go.”
I gave a tight smile before following this God forsaken woman. I couldn’t help but grimace to her back. She had been the one to defend my uncle when he had done such a thing to me only four years ago. I still felt dirty, outside and inside.
I put my stuff in the backseat of her blue, rusted, piece-of-crap car before getting into the passenger seat. I slipped my iPod out of my pocket to listen to music so I wouldn’t have to talk to this wretched woman. Yet before I could put my headphones in my ears, she spoke, “I love you very much, honey. Thank you so much for finally coming to see me.”
I gave a nod before giving a small smile to her. Call me heartless, but I absolutely would NOT tell her I love her. I bit my tongue too, so I wouldn’t tell her that I only came because my dad practically forced me to. There was a lot of yelling and annoyance on his part but the worst thing he did was send Jamie hopeful e-mails.
I swear I could punch him sometimes.
I turned my music as loud as I dared before laying my head back. Even though music blared into my ears, I couldn’t help but think of all the bad times I had with Jamie when she was still married to my dad.
I could strongly remember when I was younger and how Jamie had dropped hints about my weight. See, I was pretty overweight for my age and Jamie would always drop hints about it when we went school shopping, but when I had turned twelve, she would flat out tell me I was fat. So, I tried to loose my weight by becoming bulimic and anorexic. I tried to make her proud by how much I wasn’t eating and how much I was exercising but she just told me to quite using drugs.
It took me two years after that to start eating healthy and minimizing my exercise time.
The worst memory of all the other numerous ones was how she defended her brother when I had tried to tell her that he was touching me inappropriately. After she had screamed her head at me and called me a whore, I was scared to tell anyone about my uncle, Blake. Up until Blake started beating me, I had warily told my dad, expecting the same outcome as Jamie, but instead he had fixed everything for me.
After the divorce, Jamie had come to live in Forks, Washington, so that she could be in the same town as her brother. Now I was finally seeing her only because he had overdosed and died two years ago. Best news ever in my entire 17 years of living.
A light tap on my forearm made me snap my eyes open and jerk my arm away. Jamie looked at me pointedly before looking back at her shack of a house. I turned off my iPod and climbed out of the car to get my things before I went inside
The house had once been a type of yellow, from what I could tell from the chipping and fading paint. I could see that some of the boards on the front porch badly needed to be replaced. Same went for the cracking cement and the broken window on the second floor. Now I dreaded to see the inside.
I cautiously stepped through the front door and was pleasantly surprised with what I saw. The inside, from what I could tell, was lavishly decorated similar to a mansion. The wood floors were a polished chestnut and the walls were bright colors that reminded me of the summer. Expensive pictures hung here and there along with knick-knacks placed on shelves.
Dark colored rugs were placed in all the right places in the house. There was also a large rug that the couch and recliner sat on facing the pretty modern television. A pine wood coffee table sat in between the two living room objects making more like an average living room.
We turned down a hallway that was brightly lit and at the end there was a door on the right that obviously led into the room that I would be staying in for a full month. In the room, there was a twin size bed with a wooden frame along the far wall that faced the window seat that over-looked the back lawn. The biggest thing I noticed about the window seat, though, was the HUGE window that opened up. I figured that it would be big enough for me to squeeze out of.
I set my things on my blue jean comforter that I remembered getting from my grandma when I was younger. That’s where that went… I thought darkly.
I looked around to see two more doors that I assumed to lead to a closet and the bathroom. Otherwise it was pretty bare except for another rug, a nightstand with a lamp, and a desk with a wooden chair.
“Ja-Mom?” I corrected myself quickly.
“Yah, Star?” She raised an eyebrow at me from her place by the door.
“Where do you work again?”
“I’m a doctor, silly, for Forks. But I was a doctor in Seattle.”
“Oh…” I answered not really interested anymore but more confused.
“Don’t be disappointed,” Jamie obviously took my ‘oh’ the wrong way, “I know it’s summer and that I won’t be here often, but one of the doctors I work with asked one of his daughter’s to hang out with you and she agreed.”
At least I’ll be able to hang out with someone…
Jamie left me to unpack while she made dinner. I left most of my clothes in my suitcases and put it under my bed. I left my backpack on my bed so a could retrieve my chargers, laptop, and feminine products right away if needed to.
Right now, I just took my iPhone out and sat down on my bed so I could think. I couldn’t figure out why Jamie suddenly took a sudden interest in me when she never cared about me before. I could have jumped off a bridge and she wouldn’t of cared. It confused me and I soon became frustrated. I just tucked my phone into my pocket and made my way into the living room to watch TV.
“Star?” Jamie’s voice echoed from the kitchen.
“What?” Annoyance was already starting to gnaw at me.
“We’re going to have to eat out because the hospital just called me and I have to stop in.”
“Okay.”
Another thing confused me as I went to get my purse from my backpack. How had my mom gotten a job caring for the hurt when she never cared about her own (ex)family? Whatever…
I got my purse and followed Jamie to her car to leave. She turned on the main road in the direction, I assumed, of the hospital. Unfamiliar buildings and trees flew by on our way. We were at the hospital sooner than I expected. When we got out of the car, Jamie never waited for me in this unfamiliar place. I practically had to run after her and my resentment and anger towards her grew to a point where my head was pounding.
I followed Jamie in a haste so I didn’t loose her but when she immediately stopped, I nearly ran into her. I looked to see her smiling up at an insanely gorgeous doctor. (I especially loved his odd butterscotch eyes and pale skin.) He smiled at me when he saw me staring at him. Jamie didn’t hesitating in introducing me, “This is my daughter, Star.” She stepped aside so I could shake his hand.
It felt like he had been sticking it into a bag of ice all day…
“I’m doctor Carlisle Cullen. Nice to meat you Miss Martin.” He shook my hand once while he called me by Jamie’s last name.
I grimaced before correcting him, “It’s actually Star Fitzgerald. I take my dad’s last name.” I saw from the corner of my eye, Jamie glaring at me.
“Sorry for the mistake.” He apologized politely, before turning to Jamie, not even looking awkward, “My daughter Alice is here.”
“Oh, where?” Jamie looked around him in hopes of seeing her.
“Actually I have all my daughters here and they are in the wing that have the ill children.” He smiled before turning around to show us, I mean, me where it was.
I felt my heart thump wildly in anticipation. I really hoped these girls weren’t snotty and mean like the ones at the school I went too…
I twisted my ring on my middle finger as we walked down the halls and took an elevator to the next floor. I took a deep breath trying to calm myself. Doctor Cullen smiled at me reassuringly as we stepped out into the white hallway and started walking again.
We soon came to two doors that opened up to a large room that was separating multiple children from each other but a lot of the curtains had been pulled aside. I saw as kids and worried parents watch three girls doing flips over each other and balancing on objects. They stopped when Dr. Cullen cleared his throat.
I looked at them with wide eyes. Wow…