Don't Go Away

[wow…]

“Star, these are my three adopted daughters.” Dr. Cullen informed me. “Girls, this is Star Fitzgerald.” He spoke with a slight smile tainting his lips.

One of the girls had dark pixie cut hair. She was small but looked as graceful as a gazelle just by the way she stood, looking at me with enthusiasm glowing in her eyes. On the other hand, the girl standing on her right, had golden blonde hair with fierce eyes. She reminded me of the goddess Aphrodite but seemed so much more beautiful and majestic.

Lastly, there stood the dark brunette. Her eyes, unlike the other two, were gentle and understanding as she gazed at me. I couldn’t help but think of her as a painting done by some unknown artists with the capable hand of an angel.

Oddly enough, all these girls seemed so similar yet so different, and I felt so…drawn to them. It almost felt like I needed to be with them…

Cold arms wrapped around me, sharply breaking out of my reverie. The pixie was hugging me and I immediately hugged her back. “I’m Alice! I’ve heard so much about you!”

I tried to hide my confusion. I knew that Jamie hardly knew anything about me…unless she made up stuff. I actually wouldn’t doubt it if she made me sound like the perfect daughter! Yet, I smiled at Alice none-the-less. “Yep! I’m the famous Star!”

Alice gave a quick laugh that sounded similar to distant flutes. “I love your style by the way!” An emotion flickered in her eyes before I could see what it was.

“Thanks…” I replied shyly.

Alice was suddenly butted out of the way. I saw the blonde goddess smiling at me but there was still that fierce gleam in her eyes. “I’m Rosalie but you can just call me Rose.”

I nodded before stretching my hand out to her. She looked at it momentarily before pushing it out of the way and hugging me. I noticed the brunette angel giving us a shocked glance but it quickly melted away to relief.

“And I’m Bella.” Bella came up to me before slowly giving me an inviting hug, “You’ll probably only see me every once in a while.”

“Bella comes to visit when she’s not at college.” Dr. Cullen briefly explained.

I nodded before looking away to see my surroundings as nonchalantly as I could manage.

“So we’re going shopping in Seattle and were wondering if you would like to join us.” Alice gave me an expecting look.

I didn’t even glance at Jamie as I nodded my head. Before I even had time to gather my thoughts, Alice was dragging me away from Dr. Cullen and Jamie. I blindly followed her out of the hospital. I was pushed into a yellow Porsche before I even had time to realize what had just happened. Then, Alice was sitting on my lap and shutting the door before I could protest against riding in this vehicle.

“This is Jasper.” Alice motioned to the man sitting in the driver’s seat.

Jasper turned to us to give me a tight smile before he turned his attention back to pulling out of the hospital parking space. I noticed myself still staring at Jasper even when we were speeding down the highway. Embarrassment hit me like a ton of bricks so I just immediately turned away from him and stared out the window.

I spaced out when I got over my embarrassment. Then I caught myself thinking about Jasper. I mean I was fantasizing about him already and we hadn’t even said two words to each other. He probably has a really HOT girlfriend. I seriously disgust myself for even thinking about his gorgeous body with that silky looking hair and those eyes…

STOP! Jeez! I’m a horrible person!!!!!!!!

“So, Star…Why haven’t I seen you around here?” Alice asked, breaking me out of my own world.

Sick humor and overwhelming hate and sadness came over me. “Because I chose to stay with my father when the divorce was final.” I answered darkly.

“Didn’t you miss your mom?”

Hardly. “Sometimes.” I lied.

“Oh. Well, where does your father live?” Alice asked enthusiastically.

Her enthusiasm was starting to wear on my nerves. “In Minnesota, near the Wisconsin border.” Out of the corner of my eyes, I noticed Jasper take Alice’s hand.

Sadness overwhelmed any emotion that I was feeling at that moment. I should have known two people as beautiful as gods would be together. I shouldn’t have even thought of any chances I could have had with Jasper. No one could have ever felt like more of an idiot that me at that moment.

* * * * * *

“So what do you think?” I asked Rosalie while turning around to show off the purple dress I tried on.

Please say no! Please say no!!

“It’s pretty for a wedding.” Rosalie turned around to grab a black dress that was lying on a waiting chair, and handed it to me. “This one would be way better on you.”

I took it from her and went back into the dressing room.

We all (Including Jasper) had been in Seattle for two hours already and the entire time, I’ve been hanging out with Bella and Rosalie. I couldn’t help but stay away from Alice and Jasper just because it hurt to see them together. My heart gave a little squeeze when I saw them together and emotion always choked off my words.

Every time this happened though, Jasper would always give me a sideways glance of confusion. I couldn’t help but feel that he somehow sensed how I felt. And every time I look at them, I would always squelch my feelings, and occupy myself with something dumb.

I strutted out of the dressing room and twirled for Rose. She looked at me with her hand on her hip and shook her head at my legs. I looked down to see that I was still wearing my socks. Blushing, I slipped them off and looked back up at Rose.

“Sit down.” She ordered and I obeyed.

Rosalie slipped my feet into black high heels. She then pulled me to my feet. I swayed from the added height but gained my balance swiftly.

Rosalie pulled me to the mirrors where I was able to get a better view of myself. I liked how the dress showed off my pale legs but hid most of the scars on my thighs. The back of the dress dipped to mid-back but it didn’t entirely hide some of the scars there.

As I looked at the scars again, I couldn’t help my eyes from watering at the sight. Taking in a shaky breathe, I walked away from the mirrors with my head slightly down to go search for Bella in the dress store. I found her over by the hats with Alice and Jasper.

I tried to ignore them as I walked up to them but suddenly Jasper’s eyes met mine. His were clouded with confusion and concern. I couldn’t look away either. I couldn’t help but yearn for his arms to be wrapped around me; to hear his sensuous voice telling me not to worry anymore.

Just then, Bella look at me and smiled. “Wow. You look beautiful! Hey, you’re as tall as Jasper in those death shoes!”

“They aren’t that bad.” I half-heartedly defended the feet killing shoes. “I’ve had to walk in shoes like this before for a wedding and a few other special events.”

Alice stared at me, shocked, but then overwhelming excitement lit up her eyes. For a moment I was truly terrified what she would do to me. I looked at Bella, “Should I be scared?” I asked motioning over at Alice.

“Yes. Be very afraid.” She answered with a laugh.

“No way, Alice! Star is all mine this time! You got to have Bella!” Rosalie protested.

“Only because you practically hated her!” Alice retorted.

“I had my reasons and now I’m over them!”

“Okay, seriously?” I asked in disbelief, “Fine. Rose can have me one day and Alice can have me next! But I’m only going to be here until the eighth of July.”

“Why?” Jasper asked me.

I nearly fainted…

“B-Because, I’m only staying with Ja-my mom for a month. Then I’m going back to good ol’Minnesota.” I answered quickly before turning away to go change.

Then I heard that gasp. Great! Someone noticed one of my scars! Beautiful…

“Star…What happened to your back?” It was Jasper who asked.