Scars

~ Blaze P.O.V. ~

Well it's been a while since i've seen anyone, even my kids. All I could think about was if I hadn't left maybe Brian would still be his normal self. So carefree and full of life. Now all I see when I look into his eyes is confusion and emptiness it's like someone took the real Brian and replaced him with a life sized doll.

I've been in this void of thought just wondering what if this and what if that. In all I think its my fault that Brian is the way he is now. If I had tried to work things out from the begining we won't be in this mess.

Right about now i'm just staring at my guitar thinking of the mess that I call my life when a lyrics and melody started to come to me.

******* Fast Forward To The Consert **********

" Ummm we'd like to introduce this new song to all of you. I ummmm wrote it for someone who has been through a lot and I would like to detacate this to him." I said into the mic later that night while shyly looking back to the side of the stage were all the Avenged men managers and the kids.

I spotted Brian with the twins in his arms smiling at me as I gave an akward wave. " Hope you like it." I spoke again into the mic and took a deep breath. I cleared everything from my mind and began to sing the song i've been working on all week.

It's true, we're all a little insane.
But it's so clear,
Now that I'm unchained.

Fear is only in our minds,
Taking over all the time.
Fear is only in our minds but it's taking over all the time.

You poor sweet innocent thing.
Dry your eyes and testify.
You know you live to break me. Don't deny.
Sweet sacrifice.

One day I'm gonna forget your name,
And one sweet day, you're gonna drown in my lost pain.

Fear is only in our minds,
Taking over all the time.
Fear is only in our minds but it's taking over all the time.

You poor sweet innocent thing.
Dry your eyes and testify.
And oh you love to hate me don't you, honey?
I'm your sacrifice.

(I dream in darkness
I sleep to die,
Erase the silence,
Erase my life,
Our burning ashes
Blacken the day,
A world of nothingness,
Blow me away.)

Do you wonder why you hate?
Are you still too weak to survive your mistakes?

You poor sweet innocent thing.
Dry your eyes and testify.
You know you live to break me.
Don't deny.
Sweet sacrifice

I looked over to the side again to see Brian almost in tears and everyone else teary-eyed with sad looks.

" But that's not the new song, wrote it a while back and needed to get all those emotions out before I sing the new song. Hope you enjoy this." I whispered causing some chaos in the crowd. I smiled over at my family before starting the song, for real this time.

You're the direction I follow to get home
When I feel like I can't go on you tell me to go
And it's like I can't feel a thing without you around
And don't mind me if I get weak in the knees
Cause you have that effect on me
You do

Everything you say
Every time we kiss I can't think straight
But I'm okay
And I can't think of anybody else
Who I hate to miss as much as I hate missing you

Months going strong now and no goodbye
Unconditional
Unoriginal
Always by my side
Meant to be together
Meant for no one but each other
You love me
I love you harder so

Everything you say
Every time we kiss I can't think straight
But I'm okay
And I can't think of anybody else
Who I hate to miss as much as I hate missing you

So please give me your hand
So please give me a lesson on how to steal
Steal the heart
As fast as you stole mine
As you stole mine yeah

Oh and everything you say
Every time we kiss I can't think straight
But I'm okay
And I can't think of anybody else
Who I hate to miss as much as I hate missing you

So please give me your hand
So please just take my hand

I finished off the song with a smile towards my family and the crowd before disappering into the trap door underneath me.