A Deal's a Deal...

Jays POV

I tapped my fingers lightly against the steering wheel with Pantera's 'Walk' blaring through my car speakers. I got up this morning with Brian's arms around my waist and his face tucked into the crook of my neck. After about an hour of laying there in his arms, running my fingers through his hair, hoping he would wake soon, my tummy growled and I decided I was hungry.

I got up as quietly as possibly to let Bri sleep off his drinking game he lost last night between Matt, A, and him since he would have a horrible headache this morning. I creeped to the kitchen after getting dressed and found there to be no food in the kitchen. So I left Bri a note, some water, and a few Tylenol's on the kitchen table and making my way back from getting some breakfast.

As I had the time to myself to think of all that's happened, I couldn't help but think of all the memories that Bri and I have shared with our cluster fuck of friends.

I smiled as the song changed to "Seize The Day" by the boys and I couldn't help but to sing along to Matt's voice echoing through the speakers. I could pick out every seperate thing about all the guys. Brian's riffs and solos to Zee's rythem guitar from Johnnys bass slaps to Jimmys unbelieveable drum beats.

As I heard Bri start on his solo, I couldn't help but imagine those long fingers easily grazing over the frets on the neck of the guitar. Cold chills erupted on my skin. A smile spread across my face just thinking about the man I'm so deeply in love with.

Right as Matt's voice came back on, my phone started to go off playing "Girl I know" and I turned the volume down to 8. I saw Brian's name flashing on my screen with a picture of me kissing his cheek. I smiled, grabbed my phone, and hit the answer button, holding it up to my ear.

"Hello." I said sweetly. "Hey baby. Where you at?" I heard the love of my life ask in concern with a tired voice and a yawn afterwards. I giggled a little. "Getting breakfast because you have no food in your house!" I heard his amazing chuckle at my statement, causing me to chuckle as well. "Well, why didn't you wake me? I would have tagged along." He asked with a slightly strained voice. I frowned at the pain in his voice.

"Because your in pain now arn't you? I figured if you slept longer you wouldn't have such a killer headache. And I was thinking about suprising you with breakfast in bed buttt....." I mumbled slightly as he chuckled on the other line causing a smile to appear on my face. "Oh. Well. I'll go back to bed and pretend I know nothing of this glorious suprise. Maybe I can even get a sexy outfit with it?" He said with I'm sure a smirk spread across his face.

"Nope. You already know so I can't do it now. Expecially the sexy outfit. Thanks babe. Ruin...everything." I said in a teasing tone and he groaned but I could tell he was still smiling. He laughed and then we both became silent.

"I love you Jaylen." I heard his voice say to me and all I could do was smile. "I love yo..." I started to say before I was rearended into a crossroad causing me to jerk forward, dropping the phone from my hand with my eyes closing, grasping the wheel with both in panic. I opened my eyes back up to see another car coming head on to me, not being able to stop in time. I tightened my grip and closed my eyes, waiting for the hit and when it did, it hurt like hell.

I could feel the whole car move back and my front crunching together like a sling. Once I looked up again for the last time and I thought it was offcially over I took my hands off the wheel and let a breath I'd been holding out. I was okay. I was okay. I looked over to my left, looking through the window before my eyes went wide. A van came straight on into my side as I screamed in panic. The air bag went off smashing my body back, causing my head to hit around everywhere.

I felt a sharp pain in my neck and my chest along with a numb feeling going through my left leg. I tried to look down with my blurry vision where I saw my knee twisted to an uncomfortable formation. Blood coated that jean covered leg. I felt salty tears leaking from my blurry eyes.

I heard s faint "Jaylen" said and I looked around for my phone, but I couldn't see anything and I couldn't move very much. I felt around with my free right arm since the left was locked up in the crushed door. Once I felt it on the floor, I brought up to my right ear. "Jaylen?! Jaylen?! baby! What's happeneing?!" I started sobbing harder. I couldn't hold on anymore. It hurt too bad.

"Bri...an." I said softly, trying to get my voice to say something. "Baby! Whats wrong?" I started fading in and out as the black abyss was slowly taking over my eyes "I'm...." I said silently, my voice losing all strength I had left to hold on. I kept thinking of everyone's faces. Brian, Matt, A's, Zacky, Gena, Jonny, Lacey, Jimmy, Leana....everyone. I just....I couldn't hold on. It hurt to bad and all I could do was fade into the numb feeling going through my heart.

Was this the end of me?

Brians POV

"Jaylen?! Baby! Talk to me!" I kept screaming in the phone. I heard a bunch of crashing and heard her scream. Everything sounded so terrifying. I didn't know what to do. "Baby! Answer me please! You scaring me!" I said in desperation! It was silent but the call was never dismissed. "Fuck! Jaylen baby, if you can here me! Hold on for me please!" I said as I felt fear stretch across my chest. I was in total fear and didn't know what to do.

"Hello?" I heard on the other line, but it wasn't Jaylen's voice. "Hello?"! I asked back, hoping to figure out what happened "Sir. She's unconcious at the moment. She's been a horrible accident. She's still breathing, but we need to get her to the hospital now." He said and I hung up, rushing out of bed, throwing on a shirt, grabbing the keys, and racing to the hospital before they even got there.

Once I made it there, I had already called Matt and A but no one answered! I called everyone..but I got voicemails. Everyone was probably still knocked out from last night. I waited around at the ambulance entrance and there they we're bringing several people out. I saw a woman that was beaten up pretty bad, but she didn't look breathing. She looked like she'd already given up the fight. She was gone. The nerves in my stomach went even more crazy. What if Jaylen was like her? I shook my head away from the thoughts.

I looked around as two more bodies were moved out of the same ambulance, but they were smaller than the woman. I saw a small hand hanging from the side of the cover. I covered my mouth, feeling the viel acids trying to make its way up my throat. This couldn't be happening. Two kids? Maybe that was there mom earlier. I finally couldn't hold it down. I stood outside beside the ambulane and finally upchucked all the alcohol consumed last night. Once I was finished, one of the hospital nurses I guess camed to check on me.

"Excuse me sir, are you alright?" she asked a little concerned. I nodded slightly. "Just tell me, are there anymore people that just came from the accident in the intersection?" She looked around with wide eyes and complete guilt washed over her. "Are you family with the young girl or the mother and two kids?" I felt the acid slowly making its way back up again. It was a mother and kids.

"Where's the girl?" I asked and she pointed to another ambulance pulling out a body, rushing the patient in. I looked over and saw Jaylen's beautiful face. Tubes erupting from her mouth and nose. Blood soaked her everywhere and I couldn't help but look away from her knee. It was distraught looking, giving me chills to the pain she would go through.

"We're losing her!" One of the men shouted. I rushed over, running back with the other nurses and doctors. This could not be happening. "Jaylen baby! Stay with me! You gotta stay with me okay?" I said, yelling with tears finally making there way down my face. "Sir. You have to go! You can't be in here!" The doctor said. I felt arms wrap around me and the male nurse was dragging me out. "No! Jaylen!" I yelled in desperation. "No! I have to make sure she's okay! I can't leave her! I promised!" I yelled before the male nurse finally pulled me out. I gave up the fight when we we're in the waiting area outside of the surgical area. I pushed him off and through my fist against the wall with my head against the wall.

I yelled in agony, pushing my back against the wall, sliding down the wall bring my head in my hands. I can't lose her. I cannot lose one of the best things in my life. I won't make it. I can't handle it. I felt a vibrate in my pocket. I pulled out my cell phone and saw A's name flashing on my screen. I couldn't answer it. I felt guilty for this happeneing. If I would have gotten up this morning, she wouldn't have been alone. I'm suppose to be in there with her. I should have woken up and told her to stay. Something.

I hit the ignore buttong, throwing my phone on the ground. I couldn't talk to A. I couldn't do it. She would blame me for this. Everyone would. The guilt finally struck me and I sat there, blanked out from the world. If I lose her, I don't know what I'll do. The tears started falling again. I couldn't handle this alone.