Snap!

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“Hello?” Kiro mumbled groggily into the phone. He rubbed the sleep out of his eyes, attempting to wake himself up. He glanced at the clock by his bed and almost cried. “Ugh! It's barely five in the fucking morning, Yu! What the fuck do you want?” he snapped. He really wasn't a morning person.

“I'm a dad, Kiro.” was all he said.

Immediately, Kiro was wide awake. “What?”

Yu chuckled into the receiver. “You heard me. I'm a daddy. Bill had the twins. We're at the hospital right now.”

“And why the fuck didn't you call me when he was in labor!? Hello!? Moral support anyone!?”

“He went into labor at home. He had the first baby in his room, and the second in the ambulance. For fuck's sake, I'm not even wearing pants. I'm wearing a hospital gown.”

Kiro couldn't help but giggle.

“Uhm...Kiro?”

“Yeah?”

“Could you...uh...can you come to the hospital? I um...-”

“Say no more. I'll there in half an hour with a pair of pants and some coffee.”

“You're a lifesaver, Kiro.” Yu grinned.

“And don't you forget it, Phoenix.”

“Wouldn't dream of it. See you soon.”

Kiro smiled dimly as he hung up, setting his cell phone down by his alarm clock. He stood to his feet and made his way across the room towards his dresser, but stopped in his tracks when he caught his reflection in his mirror out of the corner of his eye.

His brows furrowed and a frown adorned his lips. “Fuck...I look like shit.” he muttered. He shook his head and grabbed two pairs of jeans, a pair of boxers, and a T-shirt.

~

Strify gently stroked Bill's hand, smiling at the half asleep teen. “You did great, Billa.” he whispered.

Bill smiled tiredly. “It hurt like hell.” he croaked.

“I know. Well...I don't know...but you still did a great job. You made it. They're here.”

Bill let out a sad laugh and ran a hand down his face, which was completely smudged with make-up and sweat. “Yeah. They're here in a cold world, counting on me to keep them alive.”

Strify frowned. “Bill-”

“I just...I feel so empty now. My babies aren't inside me anymore. I can't protect them anymore.”

“You can, just in a different way. Plus, now you can hug them, and kiss them, and see them smile. Aren't you excited?”

“Excited and scared.”

“That's normal. So what are you gonna name them?”

Bill sighed loudly, pouting so that the air escaping his mouth blew his bangs up. “I dunno. I kinda like the name Keegan. Maybe...Keegan Camden de Buhr?”

“de Buhr?”

Bill nodded. “That's Yu's real last name. Yu Phoenix was just his nickname at first, but when he turned eighteen he got it legalized. He always hated his name. Never told me why, though.”

“You don't wanna give them your last name?”

“I think I'll leave up to them when they're older. For now they'll be Trumper-de Buhr's.”

Strify pursed his lips but nodded, faking a smile.

Bill noticed the fake smile immediately. “What's wrong?”

“Nothing. I just...I wanted to be there for you and...Yu took part more than me.”

“You were there for me. But I needed Yu there too. I just needed him to be there to tell me it was gonna be okay. Strify...you don't need to worry about Yu and I. We're over. Done with. Kaput.” Bill paused, squeezing Strify's hand. “I love you. And nothing is going to change that, okay?”

Strify smiled and pressed a kiss to his boyfriend's lips. “So what other name are you gonna pick?”

“I'm gonna have to think about it. But...while I do...I wanna ask you something. You don't have to answer me, but...I really feel like I should know.”

“Alright...shoot.”

Bill's face became serious, the hospital's atmosphere only making things more intense. “Strify...will you tell me what happened two years ago? I...I wanna know why you cut. I just...I need to know why you're so depressed.”

An indescribable look enveloped Strify's face. His grip on Bill's hand tightened, as did most of the muscles in his body. He sighed heavily, almost fearfully with a shaky breath.

“You don't have to tell me. I was just curious...” Bill mumbled, picking at the tape that held down the needle in his hand.

Strify swallowed hard. “I lost everything.” he muttered after several moments of silence.

Bill looked up, brows furrowed in confusion.

“I lost my friends...all my family except for Luminor and Jeffree...I just...I couldn't take the pain. So I started cutting. I hoped it would replace the emotional pain, with physical.”

“Who did you lose?”

Strify bit his tongue hard. “My boyfriend...” he stated. “...and my son.”

Bill's eyes widened. “...son?” Bill couldn't help but be shocked. Strify was a father?

The brunette nodded. “I should have told you sooner...but I didn't know how. I'm sorry. Fuck...please don't hate me.”

“What are their names?”

“Shin...and Kaylor.”

Bill pursed his lips. “What happened to them?”

Strify stood up and turned his back to Bill, approaching the window, and staring out of the glass with a pained look in his eyes. He bowed his head and reached one arm over his chest, allowing his hand to rest on his shoulder blade. “They died.” he whispered.

Bill opened his mouth to reply, but Strify continued.

“Shin was only thirteen.” He let out a sob before speaking again. “Kaylor was three hours old. Three fucking hours. That's all he got. I never got the chance to hear him say 'daddy', or see him take his first steps. We never got to take a family picture. He never got a birthday party. I never got to celebrate Father's Day.”

Strify had collapsed to his knees by the time he'd finished, tears streaming down his cheeks as he watched birds fly outside of the window. “Everything went wrong.”

Bill didn't even think for a second before yanking out his IV and pulling down his blankets. His face contorted in pain as he silently slipped out of his bed. Using the wall for support, he slowly made his way towards his boyfriend. His legs gave out just as he got to Strify, making him yelp as he fell to the floor.

Strify caught him by some miracle, holding on to the boy desperately. “Fuck! Bill, I need to get you back in the-”

“Shin wouldn't want this.” Bill stated.

Strify froze. “...w-what?”

Bill looked at his boyfriend, staring deep into his teary blue eyes. He cupped the boy's cheek in his hand and placed the other on his thigh. “Shin and Kaylor wouldn't want this. They wouldn't want you to hurt yourself. They'd want you to be happy. If being with me reminds you too much of them...then you should be with someone else. I don't want to be the cause of your unhappiness.”

“What?” Strify gasped. “Bill...you don't make me unhappy. You do the opposite. Yeah...you do remind me of Shin, and twins will always remind me of Kaylor...but in a good way. When I first met you, all I saw was Shin. I remembered back when he was pregnant. He was so scared...but so excited at the same time. He was always so happy and shy...just like you. If anything, you help me go on. You remind me of all the good times. But don't think I only care for you, because you remind me of them. I love you for you. It's just hard sometimes.”

“I can't sit by and let your hurt yourself anymore. And I know that if Shin was here, he'd probably claw your eyes out for even thinking about it, because I know I wanted to fucking kill you when I found out!”

“I'll stop. I promise. I...I haven't in several weeks...”

Bill smiled, tears leaking from his eyes. “I know. And I'm so proud of you. I love you, Strify. So much.”

“I love you too. Now come on. We need to get you back in bed. You need fluids.”

The two boys grunted as they stood, mainly Strify considering he was completely supporting Bill's body weight. “Strify?” Bill asked.

“Yeah?”

He winced as they made their way to the bed. “I think...I think I know what I wanna name my other baby.”

“Really? What?”

“Kaylor. Kaylor Jesse de Buhr. If...that's okay...”

Strify froze once again. He looked at Bill, eyes clouding over with tears. “Really?”

Bill nodded. His eyes widened and he let out a gasp as his boyfriend hugged him tight, sniffling quietly into his neck. “You are...the single most amazing person I have ever met. You have absolutely no idea how much this means to me, Bill. I love you. Fuck I love you.”

~

“So how are you holding up?”

Yu sipped his coffee, letting out a content moan as the liquid slid down his throat. He shrugged. “Okay...I guess. I think I'm sorta in shock still. I mean...I'm a dad. I just can't believe it. I'm happy that I don't have to worry about Bill's pregnancy anymore...but now things are only gonna get all the more complicated. I mean...what if I fuck something up?”

Kiro smiled and patted his friend's cheek. “You won't. I have faith in you.”

Yu scoffed. “You're one of the few that do.”

“You're going to be a great dad. The twins are lucky to have you and Bill as parents.”

“I'm just praying I don't screw anything up.”

Kiro chuckled, wrapping his arms tighter around himself as he shivered.

Yu took immediate notice. “You cold?”

The blonde nodded.

“It's spring.” Yu replied, quirking a brow.

“Well I'm sorry I don't have all the muscle you do to keep me warm.” Kiro said, sticking out his tongue and poking his friend's abs.

Yu smiled and opened his arms. “Come here, pipsqueak.” he sighed over dramatically. Kiro rushed into Yu's arms, getting an 'oof!' from the boy as their chests collided. He smiled to himself when he felt Yu's arms wrap around him in a loving embrace, Yu's body heat warming him up within seconds.

“I'm gonna go check on Bill. You wanna come?”

Kiro shook his head, but smiled. “No. I think you guys need some family time. I'm not part of that.” he explained, pulling out of Yu's grasp.

He let out a squeak when Yu kissed him, stroking his jaw tenderly. “You're my family, Kiro. We'll always have each other to turn to. Don't ever forget that, okay?”

Kiro shivered once again, but this time because of the tickling sensation Yu's breath brought upon his lips. “I won't.” he whispered back, eagerly accepting another chaste kiss before Yu turned away and left to find Bill's room.

He pursed his lips as Yu turned down a hall, exiting his view. “I wish you'd look at me the way you look at him.” he thought sadly.

~

“If you even think about getting up again, I will restrain you.” Dr. Phillips stated, a playful glare adorning her face as she taped down Bill's IV.

Bill gave her an innocent smile. “I had to pee.”

“Mhmm.” It was obvious the doctor didn't believe him, but he merely played innocent.

“Surprise?”

Bill and Dr. Phillips turned to the doorway, both smiling when they saw Yu, half of his body hidden behind a bouquet of balloons.

“You're such a dork.” Bill stated.

“Fine then. I guess someone doesn't get their 'get-well-soon' candy.” Yu replied, holding the bag of treats just out of Bill's reach.

“...I hate you.” Bill glared, reaching desperately for the bag.

Yu chuckled and handed him the bag, tying the balloons to the back of the bed. “How are you feeling?”

Bill shrugged, popping a gummy worm into his mouth. “Sore considering two not-at-all-tiny humans just came out of hole I was most certainly not born with.”

Yu smiled sheepishly. “Uhm...so have you thought about names?” he asked, feeling the need to change the subject.

Bill nodded. “I think I've decided. But...only if you like them.”

“Tell me.”

“First born: Keegan Camden de Buhr. Second: Kaylor Jesse de Buhr. What do you think?”

“Keegan and Kaylor...it has a nice ring to it. But...why my last name?”

“You're their father. I think it's fair. They can choose which name they'd prefer when they're older, but for now...they're de Buhr's.”

Just moments later, two nurses came into the room, wheeling in two carts that each held a twin wrapped in blue. Bill happily accepted Kaylor, who looking up at him with squinted gray eyes. Yu was handed Keegan, who almost immediately became distracted with Yu's bracelet.

Bill's eyes became wet with happy tears as he looked down at his son. He couldn't believe something so beautiful had come from inside him. He ducked down and pressed a kiss to the infant's forehead, a smile gracing his lips.

Yu stared at Keegan with a questioning look in his eyes. He gently rocked the child, lulling him slowly to sleep. “I'll do whatever it takes to keep you and your brother safe, Keegan. I promise.” he whispered.

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