I Wish You Would Know

I was walking home when I felt someone staring at me. I looked up at a two story house and on the balcony was a girl. She brushed her curly brown hair out of her eyes.Her eyes were a beautiful icy blue. The girl waved slightly and I waved back smiling shyly.

I continued walking to my house which was a couple of doors away from the girl's house. I could feel her watching me as I walked to my door.

'One day I will tell her 'Hi' I thought to myself.

I walked inside and went to my room. I went and got my iPod and laid down on my bed. I kicked off my black DC's. The first song on my iPod that played was Ima Monster by Blood On The Dance Floor. I sighed and listened to the lyrics. When it finished I looked at what the next song was playing even though I recognized it. It was I Don't Care by Fall Out Boy. I quietly started singing along.

Say my name and his in the same breath
I dare you to say they taste the same
Let the leaves fall off in the summer
And let December glow in flames

Brace myself and let go
Start it over again in Mexico
These friends, they don't love you
They just love the hotel suites now

The next part fit me almost perfectly.

I don't care what you think
As long as it's about me
The best of us can find happiness in misery

I smiled as a sang that part. I finished listening to the song and then listened to the next. It was Maybe by Sick Puppies. I listened to the lyrics.

Maybe I'm a dreamer
Maybe I'm misunderstood
Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should
Maybe I'm crazy
(Maybe I'm crazy)
Maybe I'm the only one
(Maybe I'm the only one)
Maybe I'm just out of touch
Maybe I've just had enough

Maybe it's time to change
And leave it all behind
I've never been one to walk alone
I've always been scared to try
So why does it feel so wrong
To reach for something more
To wanna live a better life
What am I waiting for?
'Cause nothing stays the same
Maybe it's time to change

Maybe it's hopeless
(Maybe it's hopeless)
Maybe I should just give up
(Maybe I should just give up)
What if I can't trust myself?
What if I just need some help?

Maybe it's time to change
And leave it all behind
I've never been one to walk alone
I've always been scared to try
So why does it feel so wrong
To reach for something more
To wanna live a better life
What am I waiting for?
'Cause nothing stays the same
Maybe it's time to change

And maybe it's time to change
And leave it all behind
I've never been one to walk alone
I've always been scared to try

And maybe it's time to change
And leave it all behind
I've never been one to walk alone
I've always been scared to try
So why does it feel so wrong
To reach for something more
To wanna live a better life
What am I waiting for?
'Cause nothing stays the same
Maybe it's time to change
'Cause nothing stays the same
Maybe it's time to change

'Maybe it is time to change.' I thought to myself after the song ended. I went back and listened to the song again. When it finished I told myself out loud that it was time to change.

'First I'm going to get to know that girl and tell her 'Hi'. I told myself and smiled.

Just then my door opened and my smiled turned into a frown. I took out my earphones.

"Fuck my life." I mumbled.

"Say something?" my dad asked me.

"No, sir." I said.

"Good because you know what time it is" He told me then smirked.