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Between a Little Piece of Heaven and the Danger Line
Awkward...
Zacky looked so sad. I don’t think I had ever seen him looking that miserable. He really believed he was fat, and nothing I could say would stop him from thinking those horrible thoughts. It didn’t matter if I said he was perfect, he wouldn’t listen. We had fallen silent, avoiding repeating our feelings about his weight, but I knew we’d have to talk about it again later. I just couldn’t let him continue to think like that. After Jimmy’s passing, the last thing he, or I, needed was him becoming even further depressed about his weight. The only thing I could think of doing now, though, was distracting him from thinking about that. And it just so happened that he had tried (and succeeded) to distract me earlier by kissing me. I guess that would work for him too.
“I believe somebody was trying to distract me before we were interrupted,” I said with a naughty grin, knowing it would get heated now that we were alone and no one would be walking in. My words instantly got a smile from Zacky, making me feel a lot better. I had already distracted him from his bizarre thoughts. I leaned down on him and slowly gave him tiny little pecks all over his face, loving every spot I kissed him on. His skin was so smooth and I loved showing him I adored him, especially now that I was allowed to.
“Babe...” Zacky whined, a tiny giggle escaping his lips at the same time. Oh he was so cute! “Stop teasing me...” I couldn’t help but chuckle at his words, considering I only ever dreamed of him saying that to me, yet here he was actually saying it, and meaning it, in real life. Tilting his head, I moved in to behind his ear where he had his ‘A’ tattoo. I paused as I remembered about how I lost the bet and was meant to get that tattoo, then finally placed a long kiss on it. The feeling I got when Zacky shuddered underneath me was insane. I was soon overcome by a desire to make him shudder more with pleasure he got from me, which only got stronger when Zacky shifted us so he was on top.
Somehow he must have sensed what I was feeling because he smirked before he started to kiss me. It felt like he was trying to be sweet and romantic about it at first, but that vibe was soon changed into a more demanding passionate one with him biting gently on my bottom lip. Oh he had no idea how much that turned me on... I opened my mouth, more than eager to deepen the kiss. Thank God he was sitting on my waist and not directly on my hips... I was getting far too excited about this, but I couldn’t help it. His tongue was amazing and I loved him. Me and Zacky together romantically was the best thing that had happened to me for years. There was no way anyone could deny this connection. I just felt the urge to make love to him to show him how much I loved him. That thought just made me want him even more and I brought my arms up to push him down further on my body. I didn’t know how he was going to react to that, since he had been straight his whole life, but it was worth a shot.
Just as I was about to gently ease him down to my hips, I heard a cough that clearly was not mine or Zacky’s. I guess I was wrong about everyone knocking today. From the shock, we both broke apart and spun around to look at who it was.
“Oh shit, I uh, I forgot my wallet,” Matt said from the door, pointing at the wallet that was sitting on the coffee table that was situated in front of the couch Zacky and I were making out on. As he was saying that, Zacky lost his balance on the couch and he fell off the couch onto the ground. I guess him not being on top of me made things slightly less awkward anyway. As I sat up, I caught a look at my pants and noticed I had a problem with my tighter than usual jeans. I quickly grabbed the nearest cushion and shoved it there, not caring that Matt would know why I was doing that. I’d rather he looked at a pillow and not the amount of excitement Zacky had been giving me moments before. Zacky and I both just sat there nervously as Matt quickly walked to the coffee table. This was the most awkward situation I had ever been in, and I swear my cheeks were bright red from my embarrassment. Matt grabbed his wallet off the table and paused, towering over us both as he just stood there staring at us. “Is there something you guys wanna tell me?” I glanced down at Zacky who was staring at my carpet, not daring to look up. Hell, why not. Matt was one of my best friends.
“Ummm... I’m gay...” I started and Matt raised his eyebrows at me. I was seriously about to shit myself; he was so intimidating right now.
“Zack?” Matt wanted his say on things too.
“I’m confused,” Zacky whispered, making me feel slightly hurt. He had said he had sorted his feelings out and that he knew our relationship wasn’t because of Jimmy’s death or anything else, that it was real. “But I think I’m gay too.” Zacky managed to look up at Matt as I relaxed, knowing he wasn’t simply ‘confused’.
“Wow... Okay... Um...” Matt started blubbering, not knowing what to say. I guess he really had no idea how to take that news.
“Wanna sit down and talk?” I suggested, only imagining the amount of questions that were spinning around in his head right now. Matt looked at me, then down at the cushion I was using to shield my package, then back at my eyes with a questioning look. “On the other couch...” Matt decided that was a better option and sat down while Zacky got up off the ground and sat down next to me.
“How long have you two...?” Matt asked as he fiddled with the seams of his wallet, clearly uncomfortable.
“A few days,” I answered and Matt nodded.
“How long have you known for?”
“Since I was a teenager. Before I met you guys,” I replied and Matt nodded before turning to Zacky for his answer.
“A few years. It was Brian’s fault, too,” Zack said and I looked up at him even though he was looking at his hands.
“My fault?” I questioned, confused.
“Yeah... I started liking you first, then realised I was interested in both sexes,” he said and I reached out to hold his hand for comfort. Luckily, he didn’t move away from me, and Matt didn’t react either.
“But what about Michelle? And Gena?” Matt asked loudly, probably more interested in that since Michelle was his lover’s twin.
“Well, Michelle was a way to keep you guys thinking I was straight...” I replied and then looked at Zacky so he could explain Gena. He paused and thought about it for a few seconds.
“I dunno how to explain it... I liked her a lot and all, but like I said, I’m interested in men too...” Zacky had difficulty in finding the right words to explain how he felt. “Besides, Gena is mental, I swear.”
“I think they were both in love with our rock star characters, not the real us anyway,” I added, remembering back to how Gena was stalking Zacky when we were at his house. We all fell silent as Matt processed what was happening with two of his best friends.
“I don’t know what to say...” he eventually said, looking up from his wallet to us.
“Do you support us or hate us?” I managed to ask, knowing I would be heartbroken if my best friend was going to shut me out of his life just because I was attracted to men.
“Do I- What a stupid question! I could never hate either of you!” he exclaimed with a small smile. Both Zacky and I let out a sigh as we felt relieved. That was such good news. “I’ll completely support both of you. I love you guys... As friends.” We all awkwardly laughed and I tightened my grip on Zacky’s hand. Matt’s phone then started ringing and he searched for it in his pockets.
“Let me guess, Val?” Zacky said as Matt found his phone, then nodded at Zack before answering it.
“Yeah? I’m at Brian’s still... Yes, I’m coming home right now... Okay... Be there soon. Love you, bye,” Matt said into the phone. He hung up and then looked at us. “Thanks for talking, both of you. I’m glad I know.”
“Thanks for listening,” I quickly said as he stood up to leave. I knew how people sometimes responded when I came out and said I was gay. Some just didn’t accept me and it hurt so bad. They only had to listen to me, but they never did. At least Matt did.
“I’ll talk to you guys later about the album, okay?” Matt asked as he walked over to the door. We nodded in response and then he left. As soon as he had driven away, I rushed up to the door and locked it. That way, if anyone else decided to pop around to visit me, they’d have to knock and they wouldn’t accidentally walk in on me and Zacky again. I walked back to Zacky who remained on the couch, staring at the cushion that I had had pressed against my crotch earlier.
“Did you...?” he asked, his voice fading away as he thought about it. I bit my lip. I had no idea how he was going to react to the truth. I mean, he’d never experienced that before... That I know of, anyway.
“Yeah... I did...” I answered shyly, looking down at the ground. Zack avoided my eyes and I had no idea what he was thinking. Did I just, accidentally, move too fast?
“I believe somebody was trying to distract me before we were interrupted,” I said with a naughty grin, knowing it would get heated now that we were alone and no one would be walking in. My words instantly got a smile from Zacky, making me feel a lot better. I had already distracted him from his bizarre thoughts. I leaned down on him and slowly gave him tiny little pecks all over his face, loving every spot I kissed him on. His skin was so smooth and I loved showing him I adored him, especially now that I was allowed to.
“Babe...” Zacky whined, a tiny giggle escaping his lips at the same time. Oh he was so cute! “Stop teasing me...” I couldn’t help but chuckle at his words, considering I only ever dreamed of him saying that to me, yet here he was actually saying it, and meaning it, in real life. Tilting his head, I moved in to behind his ear where he had his ‘A’ tattoo. I paused as I remembered about how I lost the bet and was meant to get that tattoo, then finally placed a long kiss on it. The feeling I got when Zacky shuddered underneath me was insane. I was soon overcome by a desire to make him shudder more with pleasure he got from me, which only got stronger when Zacky shifted us so he was on top.
Somehow he must have sensed what I was feeling because he smirked before he started to kiss me. It felt like he was trying to be sweet and romantic about it at first, but that vibe was soon changed into a more demanding passionate one with him biting gently on my bottom lip. Oh he had no idea how much that turned me on... I opened my mouth, more than eager to deepen the kiss. Thank God he was sitting on my waist and not directly on my hips... I was getting far too excited about this, but I couldn’t help it. His tongue was amazing and I loved him. Me and Zacky together romantically was the best thing that had happened to me for years. There was no way anyone could deny this connection. I just felt the urge to make love to him to show him how much I loved him. That thought just made me want him even more and I brought my arms up to push him down further on my body. I didn’t know how he was going to react to that, since he had been straight his whole life, but it was worth a shot.
Just as I was about to gently ease him down to my hips, I heard a cough that clearly was not mine or Zacky’s. I guess I was wrong about everyone knocking today. From the shock, we both broke apart and spun around to look at who it was.
“Oh shit, I uh, I forgot my wallet,” Matt said from the door, pointing at the wallet that was sitting on the coffee table that was situated in front of the couch Zacky and I were making out on. As he was saying that, Zacky lost his balance on the couch and he fell off the couch onto the ground. I guess him not being on top of me made things slightly less awkward anyway. As I sat up, I caught a look at my pants and noticed I had a problem with my tighter than usual jeans. I quickly grabbed the nearest cushion and shoved it there, not caring that Matt would know why I was doing that. I’d rather he looked at a pillow and not the amount of excitement Zacky had been giving me moments before. Zacky and I both just sat there nervously as Matt quickly walked to the coffee table. This was the most awkward situation I had ever been in, and I swear my cheeks were bright red from my embarrassment. Matt grabbed his wallet off the table and paused, towering over us both as he just stood there staring at us. “Is there something you guys wanna tell me?” I glanced down at Zacky who was staring at my carpet, not daring to look up. Hell, why not. Matt was one of my best friends.
“Ummm... I’m gay...” I started and Matt raised his eyebrows at me. I was seriously about to shit myself; he was so intimidating right now.
“Zack?” Matt wanted his say on things too.
“I’m confused,” Zacky whispered, making me feel slightly hurt. He had said he had sorted his feelings out and that he knew our relationship wasn’t because of Jimmy’s death or anything else, that it was real. “But I think I’m gay too.” Zacky managed to look up at Matt as I relaxed, knowing he wasn’t simply ‘confused’.
“Wow... Okay... Um...” Matt started blubbering, not knowing what to say. I guess he really had no idea how to take that news.
“Wanna sit down and talk?” I suggested, only imagining the amount of questions that were spinning around in his head right now. Matt looked at me, then down at the cushion I was using to shield my package, then back at my eyes with a questioning look. “On the other couch...” Matt decided that was a better option and sat down while Zacky got up off the ground and sat down next to me.
“How long have you two...?” Matt asked as he fiddled with the seams of his wallet, clearly uncomfortable.
“A few days,” I answered and Matt nodded.
“How long have you known for?”
“Since I was a teenager. Before I met you guys,” I replied and Matt nodded before turning to Zacky for his answer.
“A few years. It was Brian’s fault, too,” Zack said and I looked up at him even though he was looking at his hands.
“My fault?” I questioned, confused.
“Yeah... I started liking you first, then realised I was interested in both sexes,” he said and I reached out to hold his hand for comfort. Luckily, he didn’t move away from me, and Matt didn’t react either.
“But what about Michelle? And Gena?” Matt asked loudly, probably more interested in that since Michelle was his lover’s twin.
“Well, Michelle was a way to keep you guys thinking I was straight...” I replied and then looked at Zacky so he could explain Gena. He paused and thought about it for a few seconds.
“I dunno how to explain it... I liked her a lot and all, but like I said, I’m interested in men too...” Zacky had difficulty in finding the right words to explain how he felt. “Besides, Gena is mental, I swear.”
“I think they were both in love with our rock star characters, not the real us anyway,” I added, remembering back to how Gena was stalking Zacky when we were at his house. We all fell silent as Matt processed what was happening with two of his best friends.
“I don’t know what to say...” he eventually said, looking up from his wallet to us.
“Do you support us or hate us?” I managed to ask, knowing I would be heartbroken if my best friend was going to shut me out of his life just because I was attracted to men.
“Do I- What a stupid question! I could never hate either of you!” he exclaimed with a small smile. Both Zacky and I let out a sigh as we felt relieved. That was such good news. “I’ll completely support both of you. I love you guys... As friends.” We all awkwardly laughed and I tightened my grip on Zacky’s hand. Matt’s phone then started ringing and he searched for it in his pockets.
“Let me guess, Val?” Zacky said as Matt found his phone, then nodded at Zack before answering it.
“Yeah? I’m at Brian’s still... Yes, I’m coming home right now... Okay... Be there soon. Love you, bye,” Matt said into the phone. He hung up and then looked at us. “Thanks for talking, both of you. I’m glad I know.”
“Thanks for listening,” I quickly said as he stood up to leave. I knew how people sometimes responded when I came out and said I was gay. Some just didn’t accept me and it hurt so bad. They only had to listen to me, but they never did. At least Matt did.
“I’ll talk to you guys later about the album, okay?” Matt asked as he walked over to the door. We nodded in response and then he left. As soon as he had driven away, I rushed up to the door and locked it. That way, if anyone else decided to pop around to visit me, they’d have to knock and they wouldn’t accidentally walk in on me and Zacky again. I walked back to Zacky who remained on the couch, staring at the cushion that I had had pressed against my crotch earlier.
“Did you...?” he asked, his voice fading away as he thought about it. I bit my lip. I had no idea how he was going to react to the truth. I mean, he’d never experienced that before... That I know of, anyway.
“Yeah... I did...” I answered shyly, looking down at the ground. Zack avoided my eyes and I had no idea what he was thinking. Did I just, accidentally, move too fast?
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