I'm Feeling Things Are About to Change
What About Jimmy?
Kirstie and I hadn’t talked for a few days. It wasn’t because I was mad… really. I was just… slightly upset that she now didn’t like Luke. Whateva. I like him… a lot and she just doesn’t like him because of one night of drunkenness. That’s not a big deal!
Today, we were going to go shopping for a few baby things… which may be kind of hard since she doesn’t know what she’s having yet, but… she called and asked. And I wasn’t about to decline to make this situation worse.
But it may be… Luke and I sort of… went out again the night before… and got a little crazy. I woke up late…and hung over. And then Luke wanted to be all clingy. It was cute, so I gave into him. And of course, Kirstie had to come a little early. I made Luke go down and stall here… He whined about it, but I just smacked his cute little butt to get him going.
I rushed to finish getting ready, trying to lay on the eye make up heavily to hide how red and puffy they were… it wasn’t working. I eventually gave up and shoved sunglasses over my eyes before running down the stairs. Before going into the living room, I bolted to the kitchen to get an aspirin and an energy drink.
“Ok, baby, I’ll be back later. You behave,” I teased as I walked into the living room to kiss my little Aussie goodbye.
He smiled before he pressed his lips against mine, leaving me with a soft kiss before Kirstie and I walked out the door. It took her a while to say anything though. I know she doesn’t like Luke, but… does she really have to take it out on me. It’s not like him and I are the same person!
“Ky, there’s something I really want to talk to you about,” she started as we were roaming through our first baby store.
“If it’s Luke, then you can keep it to yourself,” I couldn’t help but blurt out.I’m hung over! What do you expect?
“Well, it’s not… really. It’s just… You act differently now that you’re with him. You’re such a nice person. Why would you change who you are?” she asked in a much softer tone than what she was speaking before.
“I’m not changing who I am,” I sighed while running my hand through my hair.
“Kylee, you’ve never partied before… EVER! I can’t even remember the last time you were ever even buzzed from drinking… but then you met Luke and it’s… a complete 180… and I don’t like it,” she pushed out. “And I don’t like him!” she quickly added.
“I’m not a different person because of Luke. He doesn’t make me do anything…” I said softly, trying to keep my cool right now.
“What about… Jimmy?” she asked reluctantly while putting a few things in her arms.
“What about him?” I kind of… snapped.
“Are you… over him?” she went on.
I sighed and pushed my sunglasses up over my eyes to pinch the bridge of my nose. How do I answer this when I’m not even sure?
“I… I don’t know,” I sighed.
“Have you talked to him?” she questioned.
“I have nothing to say to him.”
“Maybe you guys should though. I mean… you guys kind of left things… not closed right. You just… walked away from each other,” she explained.
“It seemed like that’s what he wanted though,” I sighed.
“I’m sure he doesn’t though. You may not like him right now, but we both know Jimmy’s a good guy. He just has a hard time showing his feelings… especially to you.”
I nodded my head and let my eyes travel to the floor. “He came to my house the other day… it was… weird. And I thought Luke was going to beat him down. I’m not even kidding,” I couldn’t hold in my giggles.
“That makes me like the guy so much more,” she laughed, making me roll my eyes playfully.
“I promise he’s a good guy, Kirstie. It’s just the off season for him and he’s just enjoying it,” I tried defending him.
“I don’t know… I know Jimmy liked to have a good time, but he never drug you into anything,” she countered.
I wanted to argue, but… she was right. Jimmy liked to have a few drinks every now and then… and go to a few parties, but… I never got as wasted as I do with Luke. What makes him so different?
“Do you miss Jimmy?” she came out and asked… and I knew she would. It was only a matter of time before she did.
“Yeah… but he was like my best friend. He was the only one that was there for me when Jeremy died. We have this… relationship that no one really understands… or we used to have it anyway,” I shrugged.
“Have you talked to… him… about Jeremy?” she asked, obviously referring to Luke.
“No… I thought about it, but I don’t want to freak him out or scare him off,” I replied.
She nodded her head as we went to pay for the things she found. I sighed and stepped outside to wait for her. I needed air. That got really heavy. I haven’t talked about Jimmy since… it would have to be Kirstie and Josh’s wedding party. Gosh, that seems so long ago.
But I shook that thought aside once Kirstie came out with a few bags in her hand. Once she stepped next to me, I took the ones that were in her hands closest to me. She sent me a smile as we continued to walk.
“Kirstie, I know he’s not your favorite person, but… you’ll like Luke. He’s a really nice guy. I promise. You just have to… get to know him a little more. His personality’s a little different than any other guy I’ve dated. He’s caring, and treats me right… and he’s cute… and Australian,” I couldn’t help but smile towards the end, making Kirstie too, but she rolled her eyes teasingly.
“We’ll see… I just think you should at least talk to Jimmy. I think you two need closure to your boyfriend/girlfriend relationship so you can still have your close friendship,” she said.
I nodded my head, knowing she was right. I just wasn’t sure if and when it should happen… or if Luke would be approving. But I’m not going to let that bother me now. Kirstie and I still have shopping to do… and I’m not going to let my boy drama bother me. I’m happy with my Aussie…even if he likes to party a little too much.
Today, we were going to go shopping for a few baby things… which may be kind of hard since she doesn’t know what she’s having yet, but… she called and asked. And I wasn’t about to decline to make this situation worse.
But it may be… Luke and I sort of… went out again the night before… and got a little crazy. I woke up late…and hung over. And then Luke wanted to be all clingy. It was cute, so I gave into him. And of course, Kirstie had to come a little early. I made Luke go down and stall here… He whined about it, but I just smacked his cute little butt to get him going.
I rushed to finish getting ready, trying to lay on the eye make up heavily to hide how red and puffy they were… it wasn’t working. I eventually gave up and shoved sunglasses over my eyes before running down the stairs. Before going into the living room, I bolted to the kitchen to get an aspirin and an energy drink.
“Ok, baby, I’ll be back later. You behave,” I teased as I walked into the living room to kiss my little Aussie goodbye.
He smiled before he pressed his lips against mine, leaving me with a soft kiss before Kirstie and I walked out the door. It took her a while to say anything though. I know she doesn’t like Luke, but… does she really have to take it out on me. It’s not like him and I are the same person!
“Ky, there’s something I really want to talk to you about,” she started as we were roaming through our first baby store.
“If it’s Luke, then you can keep it to yourself,” I couldn’t help but blurt out.I’m hung over! What do you expect?
“Well, it’s not… really. It’s just… You act differently now that you’re with him. You’re such a nice person. Why would you change who you are?” she asked in a much softer tone than what she was speaking before.
“I’m not changing who I am,” I sighed while running my hand through my hair.
“Kylee, you’ve never partied before… EVER! I can’t even remember the last time you were ever even buzzed from drinking… but then you met Luke and it’s… a complete 180… and I don’t like it,” she pushed out. “And I don’t like him!” she quickly added.
“I’m not a different person because of Luke. He doesn’t make me do anything…” I said softly, trying to keep my cool right now.
“What about… Jimmy?” she asked reluctantly while putting a few things in her arms.
“What about him?” I kind of… snapped.
“Are you… over him?” she went on.
I sighed and pushed my sunglasses up over my eyes to pinch the bridge of my nose. How do I answer this when I’m not even sure?
“I… I don’t know,” I sighed.
“Have you talked to him?” she questioned.
“I have nothing to say to him.”
“Maybe you guys should though. I mean… you guys kind of left things… not closed right. You just… walked away from each other,” she explained.
“It seemed like that’s what he wanted though,” I sighed.
“I’m sure he doesn’t though. You may not like him right now, but we both know Jimmy’s a good guy. He just has a hard time showing his feelings… especially to you.”
I nodded my head and let my eyes travel to the floor. “He came to my house the other day… it was… weird. And I thought Luke was going to beat him down. I’m not even kidding,” I couldn’t hold in my giggles.
“That makes me like the guy so much more,” she laughed, making me roll my eyes playfully.
“I promise he’s a good guy, Kirstie. It’s just the off season for him and he’s just enjoying it,” I tried defending him.
“I don’t know… I know Jimmy liked to have a good time, but he never drug you into anything,” she countered.
I wanted to argue, but… she was right. Jimmy liked to have a few drinks every now and then… and go to a few parties, but… I never got as wasted as I do with Luke. What makes him so different?
“Do you miss Jimmy?” she came out and asked… and I knew she would. It was only a matter of time before she did.
“Yeah… but he was like my best friend. He was the only one that was there for me when Jeremy died. We have this… relationship that no one really understands… or we used to have it anyway,” I shrugged.
“Have you talked to… him… about Jeremy?” she asked, obviously referring to Luke.
“No… I thought about it, but I don’t want to freak him out or scare him off,” I replied.
She nodded her head as we went to pay for the things she found. I sighed and stepped outside to wait for her. I needed air. That got really heavy. I haven’t talked about Jimmy since… it would have to be Kirstie and Josh’s wedding party. Gosh, that seems so long ago.
But I shook that thought aside once Kirstie came out with a few bags in her hand. Once she stepped next to me, I took the ones that were in her hands closest to me. She sent me a smile as we continued to walk.
“Kirstie, I know he’s not your favorite person, but… you’ll like Luke. He’s a really nice guy. I promise. You just have to… get to know him a little more. His personality’s a little different than any other guy I’ve dated. He’s caring, and treats me right… and he’s cute… and Australian,” I couldn’t help but smile towards the end, making Kirstie too, but she rolled her eyes teasingly.
“We’ll see… I just think you should at least talk to Jimmy. I think you two need closure to your boyfriend/girlfriend relationship so you can still have your close friendship,” she said.
I nodded my head, knowing she was right. I just wasn’t sure if and when it should happen… or if Luke would be approving. But I’m not going to let that bother me now. Kirstie and I still have shopping to do… and I’m not going to let my boy drama bother me. I’m happy with my Aussie…even if he likes to party a little too much.