Regrets A Waste Of Time

I honestly didn't know how to answer Liz's question, I didn't know what we were going to do. Someone had my journal, someone wasn't going to stop until my entire life was up on the blog and not just about my love for Zack but my deepest secret that no one knows, that I could never tell anyone. I looked over to Zack, who was sitting on the arm of my chair beside Liz, he gave me a half smile but the smile looked more like pity to me. I am sure he did pity me, here I was so gay dude in love with him and he liked girls. Alex was right, I am stupid. The front door opened and Alex walked in holding a box of doughnuts from the best bakery in town. I couldn't help but wonder why he wasn't in class, I looked at the watch over the fireplace it was only 10am, 3rd period.

"Alex, what are you doing here?" I asked, he smiled and opened the box to reveal chocolate covered doughnuts, my favorite.

"I brought gifts and once I found out you were not in school, which by the way, I had to ride the bus. I decided to come here and cheer you up, but I see Zack and Liz are already here" said Alex with a hint of jealousy in his voice.

"We came over to talk to David about the blog, trying to find out who is doing it" said Liz, eying Alex curiously.

"Plus, Zack knows now" I said, not making eye contact to anyone.

"I see and did Zack come here to make you feel like shit?" asked Alex arching his brow.

"No, I came here to see if he was ok. I just found out about this blog last night, I think it's real shitty for someone to do this to David" said Zack, I could feel him looking at me but I didn't look up from the floor to meet his gaze.

"I am so sure you won't go tell all your friends how you think it's disgusting and make fun of David behind his back" said Alex, I looked up at Alex he was glaring at Zack.

"Listen up, Gaskarth. I am not going to go talk about Zack to my friends. I do not think David is disgusting. The only think I think about David is that he is my friend. So do not sit here and accuse me of anything, got it" said Zack sounding one inch away from punching my best friend in the face.

"Guys stop it! I am going back to bed, you two can go scrap in my yard or something" I said, walking out of the room, I walked up the stairs to my room and slammed the door. I wasn't even mad, I just felt like my world was crashing in on me and I couldn't stop it. I sat down on my bed and just stared at the wall, until there was a knock on my door, it slowly opened to reveal Zack standing there, i was expecting Alex.

"Hey, I just wanted to come check on you" said Zack, I nodded.

"I will be ok, hell, maybe this blogger did me a favor" I said, Zack looked confused.

"What do you mean?"

"I mean, maybe know I can get over my crush on you and move on with my life"

"I don't want to stop being friends, I don't care that you are gay" said Zack, I eyed him.

"Why would you want to be friends with me. I am practically in love with you" I said, Zack shrugged.

"Which flatters me. You and I were becoming friends since before my party. I do not want that to end now just because of this blog. We all have our secrets, why should I hate you for yours?"

"Because mine involves you?" I suggested, he rolled his eyes.

"Well, I am not going to hate you and I still think of us as friends, that isn't going to stop because of some asshole on the school blog." said Zack, I couldn't help but smile.

"Thanks, Zack" I said, he nodded.

"Liz and I are going to go back to her place now, you get some rest and we will see you tomorrow" said Zack with a smile before leaving my door. I fell back onto my bed and looked up at the ceiling. That was until my laptop made a buzzing sound, indicating I had a new email. I got off my bed and walked over to check it. It was from iknoweverything@gmail.com. I opened it and read.

So, the first person that had your journal wasn't doing a very good job. They should know better than to just leave it lying around their room. I can't believe you didn't figure out who it was, when it was so easy for me. You trust to easily, David. I am sure that is what got you in trouble last year, but know one knows about that do they? Lucky for me, you wrote all the sordid details in your queer little diary. I won't tell you who started all this, that will be for you to figure out on your own with the clues I leave you in each blog post I start doing. I am thinking the first should be about your other little crush, I always wondered how you made such good grades in French class, now I know and soon the entire school will as well. Do you think Zack will get jealous once he finds out? He has his secrets too.

I was in shock, someone new had my journal and they weren't just going to ruin my life with the Zack thing, they were going to tell everyone my biggest secret ever. Now I had to figure out two people, the one who started this blog shit and the one who was going to end it. Every part of me was screaming, and that is just what I did. I screamed until tears were streaming from my eyes, until Alex ran to my room and engulfed me into a hug, and until I fell asleep praying to God to take me from this world.