Don't Want to Start a Fight

So it has nearly been a week since Caleb told me how Kyle feels for me. It’s been quite strange really. Kyle and I have hung out practically every day, not really doing much apart from playing video games, watching movies, and exchanging shy smiles. I mean, I know why I’m smiling shyly, but he doesn’t know that I know he likes me. Caleb swears he hasn’t told Kyle, and I know when Caleb is lying so I believe him. All the guys tell me we’ve been flirting a lot, but I don’t think laughing and talking to each other is flirting, right? I mean, when he has his head on my shoulder and his body pressed against my side, I’ve found myself tracing patterns into his hip without realizing (not that he’s protested). And if I’m lying with my head in his lap on the sofa, then he plays with my hair (not that I’m protesting).

I don’t know what they’re talking about. Kyle and I are close, and always have been. He always sits in my lap. He always kisses my cheek in greeting. I always kiss the top of his head when he says something cute. We always have separate conversations if the guys are talking about something we’re not involved in. It’s nothing extra than normal. I don’t think. But what if Kyle thinks it is? What if he thinks I’m ‘flirting’ with him for fun, and not actually because I’m serious about liking him? He wouldn’t like that. He would run for the hills if he thought that was true. I can’t handle that. I can’t handle him backing away from me again.

No, stop Jack. Calm down. Kyle and I are fine. We’re getting along better than ever, and I won’t let anything ruin that.

Today we’re chilling at my house. Yesterday was Zack’s and the day before was Alex’s. We’re not really doing much at the moment, just eating pizza and chilling, with Pat and Rian competing on Mario Kart. I swear, Rian is the most competitive guy I’ve ever met – and Pat is just scarily good at this game. They could be there for a while. Alex is sitting in an armchair next to the sofa that Kyle and I are sitting on, with Rian and Pat on the floor in front of the TV and Zack and Caleb on the last sofa. Kyle’s sitting in my lap, curled up in his usual kitten way, and we’re talking to ourselves quietly, whispering almost.

“Jack?” Kyle said quietly.

“Yeah?” I smiled, looking down at him.

“Your eyes are really pretty, do you know that?” he said sweetly, his eyes so big and innocent.

I chuckled and pressed a kiss to the top of his head without even thinking. Told you I did it when he does something cute.

“No I didn’t know that. But I’m glad you think so,” I replied, making Kyle giggle.

“Alright, that’s it. Can’t you two just get it on already? We all know that’s the only thing going through your minds,” Zack grumbled, staring accusingly at me and Kyle.

Where did that come from?! I blushed deeply, and nervously glanced at Kyle. How would he react to this?! I couldn’t help but chuckle though at the sight of a beet-red Kyle and his mouth opening and closing like a fish.

“Zack!” Caleb hissed, elbowing him in the ribs.

That’s when it twigged. Caleb had told Zack about our mutual feelings. Caleb had probably told the others too. Wonderful. I glared at Caleb and he smiled apologetically, making me shake my head. I know Caleb doesn’t mean to gossip – he just can’t help himself!

“W-What is he talking about, Jacky?” Kyle asked quietly, looking up at me.

I bit my bottom lip before taking a deep breath.

“Come with me,” I said reassuringly.

I nervously took his hand and stood up, leading him upstairs, ignoring the catcalls from our obnoxious friends. I didn’t look at Kyle until we were in my bedroom, not knowing if I would back out of what I needed to tell him or not. I locked my door to make sure no-one would barge in before taking Kyle to my bed. I sat down and smiled as I patted the space next to me. Kyle looked like he was going to pass out as he sat down next to me, and he took his hand out of mine, his hands wringing together nervously.

“W-What was Zack talking about?” Kyle practically whispered, not looking at me.

Do I tell him?
Do I tell Kyle that I know of his feelings for me?
Do I tell Kyle of my feelings for him?
Or do I just lie?

“It’s about something Caleb told me a few days ago,” I said softly.

Kyle looked up at me with confusion in his eyes. Wonderful, he doesn’t know what I’m talking about. With a sigh I placed my hand on his thigh, rubbing my thumb back and forth to soothe us both.

“Caleb told me you’ve liked me since you first saw me in Freshman year,” I finally said.

Kyle’s eyes immediately filled up with tears and he quickly stood to his feet. Shit.

“Where are you going?” I demanded.

“I-I don’t know. Fucking hell, why did Caleb have to go and tell?! I trusted him with my secret!” Kyle wailed, pacing up and down my bedroom.

I grabbed him by the shoulders to pull him to a stop in front of me, staring into his eyes to keep his attention.

“Caleb was trying to explain why you did what you did at that party,”

“It doesn’t mean he had to tell though! Now everything’s fucked up like it was before! I’ve lost you all over again and now I have nothing! Everything’s fucked up and…”

I cut him off by molding my lips to his. Kyle whimpered but clutched at my hair, kissing me almost desperately as my hands grasped onto his hips. I slipped my tongue past his lips, gently massaging his own enough to encourage a small moan to tear from his throat. When Kyle had calmed down, the kiss slowed down, ending with a couple of pecks before I pulled away. I didn’t move my hands from his hips so Kyle kept his arms around my neck, although he looked even more confused than ever.

“What was that, Jack?” Kyle asked nervously.

I sighed and rested my chin on his shoulder, pressing a gentle kiss to his neck. I guess I’ve got to tell him how I feel now, right?

“Zack said what he said because Caleb’s told everyone about my feelings for you,” I murmured in his ear.

Kyle squeaked, making me smile weakly and lift my head again. He just looked scared now, which made me wince internally, but I knew I couldn’t stop. I have to tell him how I feel!

“I l-love you Kyle. I have done for over a year. I was working myself up to tell you the week you got together with John Ohh. I never even contemplated that you might feel the same for me, but I understand if you don’t want me to feel this way. I understand, Kyle,” I said sadly.

“Y-You love me?” Kyle asked in a tone I couldn’t recognise.

I bit my bottom lip and nodded, trying to ignore the tears that were springing to my eyes. I never thought telling Kyle my feelings would hurt so much. Especially with him just standing there silent.

“I should go,” I whispered.

Kyle immediately shook his head and held onto me tighter. What is he doing? I thought his silence meant he didn’t want me here any more!

“I’m not letting you go anywhere. Not now that I know you love me too,” Kyle said shyly, smiling at me.

I choked a laugh, sniffing my tears away. Kyle grinned and started pressing butterfly kisses all over my face, making me laugh. He pressed a final peck to my lips before leaning his head back and smiling.

“I’ve loved you for years Jack. Years and years and fucking years,” Kyle said with the cutest smile I’ve ever seen.

“Fuck, I never thought I’d hear you say that,” I chuckled, squeezing his hips.

“I never thought I’d get to say that. Fuck Jack, with all the shit that’s happened recently, I thought I’d lost you for good. I don’t know what I would’ve done if I’d lost you forever,” Kyle said sadly.

“Hey,” I murmured, lifting one of my hands to cup his face, “I’m not going anywhere. Not now we know how each other feel,”

“You mean that?” Kyle asked with a soft blush.

Of course I fucking do.

“Yeah,” I smiled, nodding.

Kyle bit his bottom lip and looked down at my chest, running his fingers through my hair as he seemed to think about something. Mm that feels nice. After a minute or so, Kyle lifted his head, looking at me unsurely. What’s wrong?

“Would it be too soon to ask you to be my boyfriend?” Kyle said softly.

My jaw dropped slightly as I stood still in stunned silence W-What? Fuck, I didn’t expect those words to come from his mouth, that’s for sure.

“J-Jack? Did I say something wrong?” Kyle asked nervously.

“Of course not. I just didn’t expect it, that’s all,” I said honestly.

“I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have asked. It was a stupid idea. Fuck, I’m…”

I pressed a finger to his lips to stop his ramble, causing him to blush slightly as I smiled.

“I would love nothing more than to be your boyfriend, as long as you’ll be mine,” I said firmly, moving my finger away from his mouth.

Kyle squealed and jumped up so his legs were around my waist. I laughed as he started pressing kisses all over my face again, but held him tightly. I’m not letting him go for anything. These last few minutes have been really fucking cheesy, but I just can’t help it around Kyle. He brings out the cliché in me.

“Mm Jacky, I haven’t felt this happy in so long!” Kyle said with a sigh, stopping his kisses but keeping his legs around my waist.

“Kyle, you were dating John Ohh less than two weeks ago – how can you even say that?” I chuckled, holding onto his thighs.

“Because you make me happier than he could possibly have ever made me. And I’m not just being all sappy and saying that. You’re perfect, Jack,” Kyle grinned.

I blushed deeply and pressed a hard fast kiss to his lips before moving him around so he was on my back.

“What are you doing?” Kyle asked, kissing the side of my neck after.

“Well I figured you didn’t want to get down any time soon, and I really want to tell the guys our news,” I shrugged.

It’s true – he’s practically a monkey the way he’s always climbing on people and hugging like he does. But I don’t mind. Now he’s my monkey. Fuck, I can’t believe I can actually say that now!

“You know they’re going to embarrass us, right?” Kyle giggled.

“Mm, I know. But that’s just because they’ll be happy for us. And jealous of how hot we look together,”

Kyle giggled again and started pressing kisses to my neck, making me moan. Shit, I’d better go now before I’m too tempted to keep Kyle in this bedroom all day! Somehow under the torture that Kyle was giving my neck, I managed to unlock the door and walk us downstairs, and back into the living room where our friends were.

“So…?” Alex asked hopefully.

I scanned over our friends faces, desperately trying to ignore how Kyle was still kissing my neck. Zack, Rian and Caleb all had raised eyebrows, whereas Alex and Pat were smiling widely. Here goes nothing.

“Although I think it’s a little obvious thanks to Kyle’s lips being attached to my neck, we’re…together,” I grinned.

“ALRIGHT!” Zack whooped, high fiving Rian.

Kyle giggled and hopped off my back, pressing a quick kiss to my lips before going to sit between Zack and Caleb. I smiled and walked over to Alex, sitting in his lap as he hugged me tightly.

“I’m so happy you two finally got it together. I was a bit shocked when Caleb told us all, but I guess it worked out for the best, right?” Alex laughed.

I looked over at Kyle, only to see he was looking at me. I smiled and winked at him, laughing softly as he blushed.

“Yeah, it did work out for the best,” I smiled.

I can only hope it stays that way.