My Heart Beats Only For You

Frankie’s POV still…

I sat on my bed thinking about what went down today and still couldn’t believe Gerard kissed me. I smiled at the thought then quickly frowned again realizing I didn’t want to be happy. Yea you do! What the hell? I asked myself looking around to see who spoke. Over here dim wit. I turned to the voice to see someone sitting in my desk chair, but I didn’t recognize the person.

“And who are you?”

Never mind who I am it’s why I’m here. I’m here to help you Frank Iero.

“Do I know you mystery person? And how the hell did you get in my house?!”

Call me Steve. And I’m an angel, sort of. I’m here to help you with your ‘problem’.

“I have a problem?”

Your conscience and common sense called and said you don’t listen so they needed help.

“Wait what? My conscience and common sense? They are real people?!”

No. They are inside of you, but you refuse to hear them and I’m out here so I can help, but only if you’ll let me help.

“Help with what though?”

Damn kid! You ask too many damn questions, I’m here to make you realize your true feeling, for that boy.

“Gerard?”

That’s the kid. So do you want help or not?

“Uh, I don’t think I can turn down an angel, so yea I guess.”

Great! Now get up, we have a party to go to, Steve said with a smile.

“We? Other people can see you?”

Yes, but you can’t say I’m an angel, we don’t want anyone thinking you are crazy.

“I probably am,” I mumbled.

You’re not and you won’t act it especially in front of that one boy.

“Gerard.”

That’s him. Now go get ready, I’ll meet ya at the party. Gerard doesn’t need to see you with another guy, might upset him and he’ll look pretty stupid hitting an angel.



Gerard’s POV

I sat there the whole car ride home answering Mikey’s questions that I couldn’t even answer for myself. He giggled some more then asked again.

“Okay so why did you kiss him?”

“Michael for the last time I DON’T KNOW! I just did and it was all too fast to stop myself.”

“Okay so then you’re not in love with my best friend and you’re not going to steal him from me?”

“I’m sorry he belongs to you?” I said, but Mikey took it defensive instead of jokingly.

“Geez lover boy I didn’t know you wanted him that bad, no I don’t own him you can go ahead and have him,” he said pouting.

“Mikey you know I didn’t mean it like that, I was joking around. No I’m not in love with Frank.” At least I don’t think I am.

“Okay Gee. So can we still go to Ray’s party? I really want to go.”

“Why?”

“No reason,” he said nonchalant putting his feet up. I swapped his feet down and spoke.

“Don’t put your feet up in my car and seriously why?”

“So why didn’t you tell me you were gay?”

“Don’t change the subject, I want an answer.”

“I just want to know Gee, I feel hurt that you couldn’t share with me, but you had kiss my best friend for me to know.”

“Mikey I’m not gay! Bisexual maybe, but not gay! I kissed Frank for, I don’t know reasons, but I really don’t like him like that. At least I don’t think so because I guess I’m confused, Mikey you know I don’t want to keep secrets from you, but I don’t want to tell you something then take it back. You know now because I know I’m bisexual now because I-,” I cut off real quick before I could admit I enjoyed kissing Frank.

“You what?” he asked with a questioning look on his face. I figured it wouldn’t hurt to tell him so I did after 5 minutes of silence.

“Well, because I- I enjoyed it,” I said smiling at the thought of hearing it out loud and being glad I enjoyed it. I looked at Mikey and he smiled at me. “What?”

“Nothing.”

“Mikey! Tell me please,” I whined.

“You enjoyed it. That’s just a funny thought.”

“Why?”

“What do you think, is Frank a good kisser?”

“I can’t answer that.”

“I’ll give you my opinion after.”

“Mikey I just ca- wait! Your opinion? What do you mean you’ll give me your opinion?”

“You didn’t know? I was Frank’s first kiss and he was mine.”

“You’ve kissed him!?”

“Yea, I thought I told you. Oops guess not,” he said smiling. I don’t know why, but I felt like murdering my brother. I glared at him as he smiled then turned my attention back to the road gripping the wheel tight. I thought about how both me and my brother have kissed the same guy and how wrong it truly sounded. He chuckled at my expression, but I just sped up.

I finally pulled into our driveway and jumped out realizing I only had 1 hour to continue getting ready, for some reason I wanted to look really, really nice tonight. I walk into my room and there’s this girl sitting on my bed brushing her hair with my brush.

“Hey, who the hell are you?!” She looked up at me with a smile and put the brush on my dresser before pulling me into a bear hug.

Hello Gerard, I’m Samantha! I’m your angel and I’m here to help you realize that you are in love! she said in the most angelic voice ever. Wow that was a pretty stupid thought after she just said she was an angel.

“Wait, you want me to believe you’re an angel?!”

Shh keep in down, Mikey will hear!

“How do you now my and Mikey’s name?”

Didn’t you hear me the first time? I’m an angel, I know all! But you can’t tell anyone or else they will think you’re nuts. Everyone can see me, but they think I’m a normal person.

“So why are you here and will you go away?”

I can’t silly, I’m here to help you sort out all your mixed feeling, my God you need help, she said then giggled in a high pitch shrill.

“No thanks, I don’t need help.”

But of course you do silly and you’re not aloud to deny so shut your mouth because Mikey is coming.

“Hey Gee can I bor- Oh hey uh who’s your friend?” he asked looking at the angel who was still hugging me. I pushed her off a little and then he automatically wrapped her arms around Mikey giving him a hug too.

Hi Mikey! I’m Samantha, but you can call me Sam. I’m just a friend of Gerard, I came over because I didn’t want him to have to drive and pick me up for tonight.

“Oh, okay well hi Sam. Uh Gerard could I maybe borrow some of that cologne you bought I- uh, like how it smells or whatever,” he asked never losing eye contact with Samantha.

“Sure,” I said walking over to my dresser drawer then tossing him the bottle. He walks off mumbling a thanks.

You’re brother thinks I’m cute, she said smiling wide.

“Yea well you’re gorgeous of course he can’t take his eyes off you, I hardly can!”

Oh no Mister, you’re eye candy is little Frankie and I was sent here to make sure you realize this already!

“Wait, you’re here because of Frank?!”

Yep, he didn’t send me, but I’m here because deep down you know you love him, but common sense won’t let you admit it. It’s like a big conflict between your common sense and conscience, you’re heart and mind, your good and right, your-

“Yea I get it, enough. Could you maybe get out so I can finish getting ready?”

Sure I’ll be right back, I have angelic things to do, but I’ll be back so you can drive me to the party.

“Can’t you fly?”

Mikey already thinks I’m here for a ride so I have to stick to that, but don’t worry I’ll be back in time, she said giggling then walking out of my room, down the stairs, and out the door. I stood there looking dumbfounded for the 2nd time today then shook it off to finish getting ready.