How Does It Feel When Tears Freeze?

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Everyones face looked more shocked.. I just let it go and asked if we could go home. 

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As soon as we got home i went straight to my room to finish unpacking. Soon i had finished my task which felt like it took forever even though i didnt have that much stuff. Right now i'm just looking up at the ceiling.. My thoughts are being clouded by Max's image.. His voice.. His face.. His arms.. Everything about him is making me go insane.. I have to stop thinking about him.. If i dont i dont know what would happen. I might spill to him how i feel... And that would ruin everything.. And i'd have to hide out in this room for the rest of my life. I shook my head to get him out of my thoughts.. Thank god it worked.. Now i could think like a normal person not a love struck teenager. Everything that happened today: - i met my father.
- i think i fell in love with one of his best friends. 
- i told them all about Phil and i think that was the most regretful thing i did all day, now they might look at me differently... Oh no what if Max does! :'( 
Right now im missing my mum i wonder how she is.. How much drugs she's done today.. 
I miss my friends, i miss my life.. I miss.. Me.