Nerds Get the Guys

He's staring at the floor he looks like if i touch him hill break, he's got his sweater pulled over his wrists; i shouldn't have bothered him."wh-what do you me-mean?" I sigh running my fingers through my hair."they found a tumor in my brain... I had it removed last month and the doctors say it's finally gone.I just... I didn't want you to be worrying about me or nothing," he gets up and as i do i almost knock my chair over;but he's not leaving he leans over and hugs me.I squeeze him tightly i want us to be together i really do, even though i keep running i want us together;but i know i keep hurting him.

"Ryan you... You shouldn't take me back,not now not ever..." he let's go and looks into my eyes "just shut the fuck up okay?" He kisses me gently before hugging me again, i hold him closer i don't wanna fuck this up. "Ahem boys i need the office so if.." Ryan lets me go and takes my hand "come on let's go home..." He pulls me a long as soon as we hit the sidewalk he huddles into my side,all i can do is hold him tightly.

I shouldn't have listened to jon, jon kept saying how i shouldn't make him worry how i should just go take care of the problem and come back; but i won't tell him that.We get to his room and it looks just like it did when i left, well except for a weird deep redish brown stain on the carpet. "Ryan what.." "shhh you just got home relax baby," he seems so calm and relaxed it's slightly scary; ryan's never this calm.

"Ryan what happened in here?" He just shrugs "take me back to a place where i feel safe bren, keep my spirits high but don't drop me. For fuck sakes don't drop me...." i nod sitting beside him something's happened i don't know what but i will find out...