Always Something More

“But I don get it, she seemed so trustworthy and not that type of person.” I said to Kennedy. We decided to go and get some ice cream the next day after the party.

“I know, I don't get it either. Like after she dropped you off at your house she called me and went off the wall with what you had told her.”

“I told her the story because I thought she could be a friend and would be there for me.” I said honestly, Gabi seemed like such a nice person. Someone I could get close with, but she wasn't anything like that.

“I'm so sorry Rae. If you want me to talk to her or anything I will.”

“No I don't want that, I don't ever want to hear of her and anything.”

“Everyone hated her, the guys are pretty happy that we're done.” he said with a laugh.

“Well I can defiantly see why they all hated her.” we both nodded out heads in agreement.

“Oh so Andy, the boy from home, should be arriving tomorrow night.” I said with excitement. I watched as Kennedy's eyes opened up wide and he put on a smile.

“Oh so soon, that's awesome. I can't wait to meet him.”

I got so excited to be with him and feel safe. I knew that once he came and I was with him, most of my problems would disappear and I would be genuinely happy. I didn't want to show him off to much because I wasn't sure how everyone would react to him. And that worried me.

“So since he'll be in town is it fine if he sleeps in your room?” If Andy was going to be here, my dad strictly told me that he had to sleep either in Kennedy's room, which was right next to mine, or down stairs in the basement. If he was in Kennedy's room then that meant it was easier for him to sneak in late at night when my dad went to bed.

“Yeah totally I don't mind, but if you guys want to do the nasty do it in your bed please.” he said teasingly.

“Oh shut up, I promise that wont happen. We're not that far in the relationship to do that yet.”

“That's exactly what I like to hear, your to young to be having sex.” As he finished his sentence he realized what he had just said and remember that I lost my virginity at the age of sixteen so it was a little to late for that speech.

“We should probably get going I have to clean the house before tomorrow.” I said to make things less awkward.

We left the ice cream shop and we drop back to my place. For the rest of the night I was home alone, I hadn't seen Carmen since she walked away from me at the party. I didn't think she would be coming home for a while, she was staying at a friends house for a while. I was kind of glad that she wasn't home because I didn't want the fighting and if we weren't fighting I didn't want the annoying silent treatment so for now I was glad she wasn't here.

I finished cleaning up around the house, I made some Mac n Cheese for dinner, and then I put on a movie and curled up on the couch in my PJ's. It was so quiet and peaceful in the house. This trip here has been pretty chaotic so being here alone felt good. But at the same time the house was so big and way to quiet it started to creep me out. I was relived when I heard my phone go off, but since it was my main ringtone I didn't know who was calling. I looked at the number and it was unknown, I hope it wasn't the killer telling me to stay where I was and that he was coming to kill me.

“Hello?” I asked.

“I need you. I always will and always have.” a drunk slur said.

“Garrett? Are you drunk?”

“W-what?! No way. I just need you. I want you.” he slurred into the phone.

“Garrett I'm hanging up, please don't call me like this ever again.” I was starting to get pretty angry by now. The fact that the only time he talks to me is to remind me of the wrong things I've done and now when he was drunk, was not cool.

“Wait, j-just wait. I'm not th-that drunk Just listen.”

“What?” I wanted to hear what he really wanted to say. I knew that in the morning he would either regret what hes about to say to me or forget that he even said this.

“I miss you, I want you back baby. You, you broke my heart and I-I'll admit that I cried that night, you ruined my life, I love you. Seeing you now, god your hot and I miss you. Please Rae say you love me too. That's all I want, to hear your voice, saying my name and that you love me.”

I stayed quiet, tears trickling down my face. I tried my best not to make a sound so he didn't know how much I missed him too. But I didn't have the same feelings for Garrett anymore. It's been two years and all my feelings for him are gone.

“Garrett your drunk, you don't know what your saying.”

“But I do Rae, please I want you back.”

“Garrett stop it! Tomorrow when you wake up you're going to remember that I broke you heart, and you'll go back to hating me.” It was all true, it was the alcohol that was talking, it was controlling his body and when he wakes up tomorrow he'll go back to hating me.

*

I woke up cuddled up against my couch curled into a ball with a single blanket on me. I rolled over to look at the clock on the DVD player; it read 8:30 in the morning. I must of fell asleep crying, I didn't need a mirror to tell me that I had been crying, I could already feel the puffiness around my eyes and my eye lids. I sat up and stretched out my arms, I heard my phone drop to the ground, I picked it up and saw I had one miss message.

”Good morning, I know its early but i'm already on my way, i'll see you in a couple hours. <3”
I couldn't help but to smile at the text message, I wish I could wake up every morning with a cute message from Andy.

I got up and went to the window and saw that Carmen was still not home, which I already knew but maybe she decided to come home this morning.

I jumped into the shower and took a pretty long shower, trying to make it look that I wasn't crying last night. I got out and put on some grungy clothes for now, Andy wouldn't be here until later on so I had time to get dolled up. I finished up cleaning, I got his room all settled, changed the sheets on the bed and made space in the draws. I walked downtown to grab a bite of lunch and did some window shopping. I head back to the house and just relaxed.

It was going on 7:30 when I got the text message from Andy saying he was about 20 minutes away from the house. I was beyond excited. Once I read that text message I ran up to my room quickly to put on a something more presentable. I looked at my closet and since it was already night time and it was just Andy who was coming over, I didn't need to be that dressy. So I picked out a long sleeve plaid shirt and some leggings, he would probably be tired and and would want to relax on the couch with some movies.

I went to the bathroom and applied a light layer of makeup and put some gel into my hair to make my soft curls stay. I heard the door bell ring and I quickly put on some chap stick and ran to the door. Right before I opened the door I took a breath and swung the door open, in one quick movement I jumped into his arms and he was holding onto me.

“I'm so glad your finally here.” I said as I held onto him tighter.

“If you keep holding me this tightly I wont be here anymore.” I gave a laugh and let go of him, he has never looked so good before. He was in a simple black shirt with a red beanie on, with dark wash fitted jeans.

We walked in into the house, and I couldn't stop smiling. He asked where the bathroom was, I told him down the hall to the left. As I waited I looked into window at my reflection to make sure I looked fine, and that my face wasn't so red from seeing him.

“You look perfect.” I couldn't help but smile. I turned around and looked at him.

“You don't know how happy I am for you to be here.” he walked closer to me.

“I don't think you know how happy I am to be here.” he said with a cute smile. I looked up at him at his eyes and he did the same.

“Are you tired? Or hungry? What do you want to do?” I asked

“Oh um I'm not hungry, but I am a little tired but I need to stretch my legs, sitting down is the last thing I need.” I thought for a second for what we could do.

“We can go on a walk. I know where we can go.” I said thinking about bringing him to the pond and to show him where I use to hang out at.

“That sounds great.” He gave me one last smile before I ran up to my room to slip on a pair of shoes.

*

“So how was the trip down here?” I asked. We were walking down to the pond, hand in hand in the dark. When I was walking down here not to long ago by myself I felt so alone and uncomfortable for being here, but right here with Andy it all felt right.

“Oh you know, horrible drivers, traffic, eating horrible food.” he let out a small laugh. “But it was all worth it.” he looked over at me and I saw the happiness in his eyes.

“Aw I'm sorry sounds like a bad drive.”

“No it wasn't not that bad, it was kinda nice, I got to think a lot about some stuff and clear my head.”

“What did you think about?” I said looking up at him.

“I'm thought about you mostly.” he said with a sheepish smile looking down at me. “And how much.” he pause and stopped and I did the same. I gave him a look for him to keep talking. “How much I care about you.” I couldn't help but to smile. I turned more so I could totally face him, I grabbed his other hand and laced our fingers.

“You don't know how much that means to me.” Coming from a family where most of my life it was just my sister and friends who loved me, but now I didn't have anyone, well besides Kennedy. But having Andy say that means a lot to me.

We kept on walking down to the pond. He was amazed at how beautiful it was. We walked down to the edge of the water and looked out, to see the moon shining over the big puddle.

“So this is the life of Miss. Rae Michael's?” he asked

“Was my life, I have a new life in Michigan. But yeah this was me, me and my friends use to come out here like every day, swimming and laughing. Most of my memories are from here.”

“Tell me one of those memories.” he asked with puppy dog eyes. I couldn't say no to those eyes.

“Okay, well it doesn't really rain in Arizona, so it was down pouring one day,it was intense, me and Kennedy, he's the one who is like my brother,” he gave a nod remembering who I was talking. “And we were pretty bored at my house, there's not much to do on a rainy day in Arizona. So he randomly asked if I wanted to go swimming. At first I was unsure about it but he told me it'd be fine. So we grabbed our bathing suits and drove down here and the feeling of swimming while its raining is such a cool feeling. We didn't stay long because it started to thunder and lightning. We ran so fast to the car when we saw the first lightning in the sky.” I laughed at how scared we were when we saw the lightning.

“That sounds fun.” was all he said.

“It was. It's just one of those memories I think about when I want that time of my life back.” I looked down at the ground kicking a little bit of the dirt.

“I'm sorry everything has changed. But sometimes change is good and I can see that your future will be good.” He was always so optimistic.

“Do you want to go swimming?” I asked quickly.

“What? No I don't have my trunks.”

I just looked at him and started to unbutton my top. “Don't worry neither do I.” I gave him a smile and shrugged off my top and took off my tank top being left in my bra and started to pull down my leggings. He just watched as I got undress.

“Come on.” I said as I started to walk into the water. He finally listened and took off his clothes.

“What a hottie with a body.” I yelled out with a whistle.

“Well what can I say, I work out like everyday.” he said as he put his arms up and flexed.

“Ha ha yeah no.”

He put his hands down and gave a sad look. I swam over to him and hugged him. “But your perfect in my eyes.” I leaned up and gave him a small peck on his lips. We stayed like that for a while. I wrapped my legs around his waist and had my arms around his neck. As his arms were around my waist with his hands locked lower down my back.

“It's so peaceful out here.” he said in a small whisper.

“Yeah, I love it out here.” I couldn't stop staring at him. He was the guy I needed in my life right now. This week was going to be great, and the day that he has to leave will be a horrible day. I thought about how perfect this moment was and how I will always want to remember this.

We heard some laughter coming from the grassland. I pulled away from him quickly when I saw him, and he was as shocked when he saw me with Andy.