Rabidity

Severus was letting his thoughts become plagued by the strange love he felt from Adrienne. He saw student everyday, and not once did he look at any of them like he looked at her. His head had spun that afternoon remembering the time at Spinner’s End, and he couldn’t help but feel a pulsing arousal when he remembered the way she had moaned and panted in his ear.

His daydreams were interrupted by, Amycus Carrow.

“I sure am spent from the short time I’ve been here sir, if you know what I mean.”

“Amycus, your pleasured are hardly my concern.”

“I just thought since you keep witches for your pleasurable company, than perhaps you might want to accompany me down to Hogsmead, or perhaps know who I should ask for.”

Severus pinched the bridge of his nose. The lie he had told them before had now caught up with him.

“I mean there are plenty of students that would completely suffice…”

“The students are off limits, Amycus. They take enough from you and your sister, do not add pleasurable duties to them, I think the Dark Lord would be displeased.

“He certainly wasn’t displeased with that little tart of a witch from the summer. She does have that resemblance to his Hogwarts sweetheart, don’t she?”

“I do agree that Ms. Knox does look a great deal like Daygona Black.”

“Too bad she’s off limits, eh?”

Severus felt a rage building within him – how many unclean thoughts had this man had about Adrienne, his Adrienne? How many other death eaters grew jealous that she was only to be touched by the Dark Lord?

Adrienne was incredibly beautiful, and for some time fellow death eaters had been mentioning her resemblance, as well as their own appetite for someone so… young. With his hands in fists he spoke: “I’ll tell you one thing – Hogsmead is not the place you’ll want to go, for someone like you, might as well try Nocturne Alley.”

“Indeed. Thanks for the tip.” He paused and turned back to Severus, “Out of curiosity… since you work so close with the Dark Lord… any idea what he’s planning to do with her once she gives him that child?”

“No, I do not.”

“Cause I don’t mind, I’ll take that hammy down any day of the week, maybe we can get her for the castle, keep her in the dungeons and you and I –“

“Amycus Carrow!” Severus’s fists slammed against the desk. “I will not allow this kind of banter in my office, what you wish to do off grounds is entirely of your own accord, however I do not wish to be your friend, or companion is such acts, and as for the girl… touch her before that child is born, and the Dark Lord will have your head, and I doubt she will live long after the child is born, as she is an expendable witch. Even if she did I hardly doubt she’d let someone like you touch her.”

Amycus backed away from the desk, slightly frightened by Snape’s outburst. Before shutting the door he muttered one last remark: “Not like she’ll have a choice.”
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Severus was alone again after a long day – there had been reports of those who said they had seen potter, in Hogsmead. But upon investigation, they were found to be false, and those who had lied, had to be punished. Severus still ached when he could hear the screams from those under the influence of the cruciatus curse.

But the suffering of others seemed to bring his senses to his knees, and all he wanted was to rest. But all he could think of was Adrienne. He wanted to be with her, he wished he could see her, he wished she was here now, because she was the only person that didn’t make him feel like a complete monster.

The floo powder was awfully tempting to him, with a flash he could be by her side, he could feel loved, and for one night he could be happy. His self-control lingered back in his chair… while he lingered at the fireplace. Before he was able to stop himself he was whirling in colors of vast light before he set both of his feet down in Adrienne’s dark bedroom. He silently placed several spells at the door and around the room as a precautionary measure. He however didn’t find Adrienne sleeping in her bed.

Instead, he was surprised to see her bundled in his usual leather armchair. She had one of her new books open; it was flat against her chest, as she was fast asleep. He cupped her check in his hand, and gently lifted her head. She stirred for a moment, but immediately awoke when she saw his deep black eyes. She placed her hands on his face and kissed him warmly.

“Is it really you?” she asked with sleepy eyes.

“Yes, I’m here.” He replied.

“It feels like a dream.” She told him. He placed another kiss on her forehead. She waited for a moment just breathing in his scent, and the way is lips felt on her forehead. “Make love to me Severus.” She said after a long while, and then listened to him take in a deep breath.

“That… is such… a tempting offer.” He said slowly.

"So take it.” She pulled him closer and began to generously kiss his chin, and neck. The soft growl she could her coming from between his teeth told her that he was enjoying it. She pulled him closer to her and tightened her grip on his collar, and he responded by pulling her into his lap. He carried her back to her soft bed and gently put her down on it, he was surprised when she never let go.

“Ms.-“ he began, finally pulling away from her lips. “Adrienne.” He finished. “We-“

“Will?” she finished quickly, “to be honest there isn’t anything we can’t do.” she gave him a dreamy smile.

“So carefree… after everything?” he whispered.

“Only when you’re around Severus.” She whispered in his ear, giving him the comfort he was searching for.

He returned to kissing her sweet lips while she played with the confines of his clothing. After most of the articles had been peeled away he couldn’t help but notice the small growing bump. Something that bothered him to see, it made him feel like a failure to her. He stopped their frantic groping at one another to look at her stomach for a moment. And surprisingly, his hand shook when he reached out to touch her.

Adrienne felt like this was perfectly normal, since she knew deep down that the child within her was his, he should be interested in it, she didn’t realize his despise for the entirety of the situation. She placed his hand against her stomach for a moment; while she held it she gave him a smile – something she couldn’t control, but something that quickly vanished when he began to apologize to her.

“It should never have been like this for you.” He told her, “I wish you could be happy, instead of this… poisonous-“

“Not poisonous,” she began. “No, no. How would I have ever got on without you?”

“You are young my sweet witch, you would never have met me.”

“I’d be dead, Severus. And… I think this is better than being dead – being here, in your arms… naked.” She said, the same smile returning to her face.

Severus hadn’t intended on making love to Adrienne that night, but she never seemed to stop begging for it, teasing his neck, scratching his back… he couldn’t resist her and the way she looked at him with her own dark eyes and drew him closer to her – until he was eventually deep within her giving her all the pleasure and satisfaction she asked for. And once he was finished he lay beside her, but she quickly climbed underneath his arm and buried herself against his chest. And as she fell asleep Severus could not shake the overwhelming feeling of love he had for this girl, he wanted to take her away, rescue her, and give her all she needed before he would never get the chance. He couldn’t stop hearing the words Amycus spoke; he couldn’t help but worry for her safety.

But in retrospect, if things had gone differently, she would be dead. She had intended to end her life that night, and despite everything she’d been through since the end of the school year – she was happy… with him, of all people.

Even though he hated pulling himself away from her, he did after an hour or so. He could feel the cool air touch the parts of him that had so recently been warmed by her. She did run incredibly hot due to the lycanthropy disease she had running through her veins. Her dark hair in contrast to her pale skin looked beautiful in the moonlight glow. Now the full moon had passed, she’d be okay for another month – although Severus knew that it was unlikely that he’d see her soon. He wished that he could’ve told her good bye before he left, but instead Severus only watched her for a few more moments before returning to his office.

Then before he knew it he was back to worry, and pain. And that night while trying to fall asleep in his bed… he tried to cling to those few moments they had together. They were the only memories Severus had where he truly felt like someone cared for him.