Reflections of False Hope.

it's been 3 months since I've seen Tuesday.
Escape The Fate went on a separate tour for awhile and i know something is seriously wrong she doesn't even read my bbm's any-more, i feel so bad it's all my fault Tuesday hates me, she was never right after that prick radke hit her but i was too busy with craig to even notice, i mean what kind of a bestfriend am i?

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i walked on to the bus, went to the fridge and pulled out a bottle of Malibu, i sat down and pulled out a cig and lit it up, lately i've been drinking alot i feel sooo bad i can't believe i was such a shit friend to Tuesday.Ronnie walked onto the bus, we don't really speak any-more so i picked up the Malibu and was about to walk off the bus when he blocked my way.
'can i help you with something?' i asked
'Aries don't be a bitch i've said i was sorry'
'sorry don't cut it cunt just piss off kay?'
i turned around to walk away
'whatever go fuck mabbit for all i care!' he shouted after me
i spun on my heel'you know what i have been since nearly the beginning of warped tour and i'm gladly going to again and again when he comes back!'
Ronnie's mouth just hung wide open' you little whore wait till your dad hears about this he's gonna freak and send you back to the orphanage where you belong!'
'what ever anywhere is better than here!' i pushed past Ronnie and ran and ran i soon found my way to a quiet bar in the town.

'what'll it be?' the old bartender said
'double shot of vodka and leave the bottle'
he put the drink in front of me
'now you listen to me here who ever he is he aint worth it, a pretty girl like you will have the boys jumping over hills to be with you'
i smiled 'oh it's not because of a guy,well it sortta is but it's just he's a total dick he went and broke my bestfriends heart and i was to busy fucking another guy to be there for her i'm sucha cunt and now i can't even tell her how sorry i am' i felt the tears run down my cheeks probably leaving big black streaks with them
there bartender passed me a tissue' now come on i know you gurlies have all your fights but i think it'll all work out in the end your gonna see each other again i promise that and hey when ever you feel down or upset you come here okay old Joe's always gonna be here to listen ' he smiled at me and i smiled back
'ya think so?'
'no i know so'
'thanks Joe'
'no problem sweet pea'
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i've made really good friend's with old joe, we really liked the area we were in soo falling in Reverse decided they were gonna stay another week so they could do a few more shows.
after my mini confession session at old Joe's bar he helped me come up with a plan.
i was going to see Tuesday again.
whether jacky and the rest of the band liked it or not.