I'm Not Who Everyone Thinks I Am
03.
My dad hurt me today.
Less than usual, but it still hurts.
He didn't lay a finger on me.
Sometimes I wish he did, instead of the alternative.
Worthless.
That's what he calls me.
I am worthless.
So why don't I just end my life?
I'm afraid of dying.
Silly, really, since I try to get as close as possible... yet I always seem to pull myself back from the brink of death.
But it does scare me.
A lot.
What will happen to me?
Will God punish me for not being a better daughter?
"Honor thy Father and Mother."
My father tells me weekly that I bring shame to the family.
So if I die, where will I end up?
Up or down?
I will end up where the cutters go.
Because...
I am worthless.
Less than usual, but it still hurts.
He didn't lay a finger on me.
Sometimes I wish he did, instead of the alternative.
Worthless.
That's what he calls me.
I am worthless.
So why don't I just end my life?
I'm afraid of dying.
Silly, really, since I try to get as close as possible... yet I always seem to pull myself back from the brink of death.
But it does scare me.
A lot.
What will happen to me?
Will God punish me for not being a better daughter?
"Honor thy Father and Mother."
My father tells me weekly that I bring shame to the family.
So if I die, where will I end up?
Up or down?
I will end up where the cutters go.
Because...
I am worthless.
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