More Than Just Curious

Frank’s P.O.V

We had soon got to Gerard’s house after that unnerving silence after that fight. I had felt horrible. But everything that I had told him was the honest truth. I was so confused. Not only with Gerard’s feelings toward me, but my feelings towards him. What were my feelings? I didn’t know and I didn’t want to know.

I walked into Gerard’s room and lay down on the bed. I began to think as I stared up at the ceiling. I would wait for Gerard to get in here before I went to sleep. I was so tired today and I had no idea why. It was only around nine o clock yet I was exhausted.

Gerard soon walked into the room moments later with a bag of chips and a movie. I looked at the label and it read ‘The Nightmare before Christmas’. I sighed and sat up. Gerard knew I loved that movie and I would make myself stay up to watch it.

“I kind of was wondering if you wanted to watch this with me, and I also wanted to apologize about earlier. I had gone way out of line and I shouldn’t have said all of that stuff about you and I am sorry,” Gerard told me as he began to wave the movie around.

I smiled at him as I stood up and walked over closer to him. I grabbed the movie from his hand and walked over to the DVD player and popped it in. I went and sat back down on the bed. With one hand I patted the seat next to me, singling to Gerard to come and sit down. He smiled and walked over and sat down.

I looked over at him while the credits rolled and grabbed a chip out of the bag before popping it into my mouth.

“I accept you apology. But you shouldn’t be the one saying sorry. I was the one that took it too far and you’re right, I didn’t say thank you enough. But I hope you know that I appreciate everything that you are doing for me. I am trying to get better I really am. I want to get better for you. And you’re making it all possible.” I told him honestly.

Gerard smiled at me before putting the bag of chips down and leaning over to capture my lips in a kiss. He kissed me slowly and delicately as if I was fragile and I would break at any wrong move. I liked this kiss so much and didn’t want it to end. I began to kiss him back just as slowly. But, to my disappointment he pulled away just seconds after.

“That’s my Frankie.” He cooed to me as he pulled me into a hug. I hugged him back with just a small amount of urgency.

I was glad that Gerard had forgiven me so easily. I knew that if we didn’t have this talk then I would have a hard time getting to sleep this night and that kiss just sealed the deal. I smiled as he pulled away and gave me another small kiss to my lips. I was perfectly happy.

It was only about half way through the movie when I heard Gerard snore loudly next to me. I was fighting to keep my own eyes open as I watched; trying to finish it even though I know perfectly how it ended. I smiled and leaned down my hand to get some of Gerard’s hair out of his face. He looked so peaceful just sleeping there.

I leaned down and attached my lips to his forehead. I let them linger there for a moment before pulling away and reaching for the remote to turn off the movie. I got around under the covers and lay down beside Gerard. I lifted them over his still body and closed my eyes. I wrapped my arms around Gerard’s waist and snuggled myself closer to him. I couldn’t help but think about how lucky that I was to have him as a friend. To have him care for me.

I slept peacefully that night, knowing that I was safe. I knew that no one was coming for me and in that night I felt normal again, I felt sane. And it was all because of one thing. It was because I was asleep in Gerard’s arms, where I knew nothing could hurt me.
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I awoke the next morning in the same position that I was in last night. Gerard was like my security blanket. He made me feel so safe. And that scared me. I didn’t want to have to rely on someone to make me feel safe. Because once that person is gone, you’re left alone and petrified.

I sat there for a minute longer, replaying the events of last night in my head. I couldn’t help but smile. I didn’t want to move in case I woke up Gerard, he has had a rough week or two with me and I wanted him to sleep. I couldn’t help but look at him as he slept. His face showed no worry, he looked like a kid. He looked so happy and I could see just a small smile on his lips. This in turn made me smile.

Gerard mumbled next to me which made me break away my gaze. I could feel him moving underneath my arms. I didn’t want him to know that I was staring at him. I closed my eyes to pretend I was still sleeping. Gerard shuffled around a little bit until he was facing me.

“Morning Frankie, I know you’re up.” Gerard told me giggling as he moved a stray hair out of my face.

I opened my eyes and smiled at him. He leaned down and pecked my lips. I could get used to all of this. I sat up and rubbed my eyes, trying to wipe away all of my tiredness. Gerard sat up too, and looked at me as he smiled.

“You look so adorable Frankie,” he told me. I couldn’t help but feel myself go a shade of red at his words.

“So do you Gee,” I whispered to him. I stared at him for a moment as he stared at me. Our eyes never leaving each others.

“Well are you hungry? I decided that this morning I am going to get up and make you some breakfast. I bet you’re tired of eating cereal every single morning.” Gerard chuckled to me as he stood up and walked over to his door. “You coming Frankie?” he asked me as he stopped in the door frame. I nodded my head and got up to go walk with him to the kitchen.

I got up beside him and looked at him for a moment until we began our way to the kitchen side by side. About half way there I felt Gerard grab my hand. I intertwined our fingers together as we made it to the kitchen. I was so happy where I was now and I never wanted to leave this place, ever.

“So, what do you want then Frankie? I can make you anything you want.” Gerard told me as he skipped off into the kitchen, letting go of my hand. I frowned for a moment but walked in following him.

“What are your specialties?” I joked to him. He tapped a finger to his chin as he thought.
“I am amazing at making toast!” he exclaimed running over to the cupboard to grab the toaster. I giggled and sat down at the kitchen table.

I watched Gerard at work as he plugged in the toaster and skipped over to the bread which lay on the counter. He pooped four pieces of toast in and pushed down the lever. He ran over to the fridge and grabbed out some grape jelly and butter.

“What do you want on your toast?” he questioned me as he pooped off the lids to the jars. I couldn’t help but giggle at him.

“Peanut butter” I told him laughing. He gave me a strange look but went to the cupboard anyway and grabbed out the jar.

“Don’t look at me like that! Peanut butter is amazing!” I exclaimed throwing my arms up in the air. Gerard laughed and nodded his head as he walked over closer to me.

“C’mon, I want you to help me with this breakfast.” Gerard told me as he grabbed my hand. He walked me back into the kitchen and threw an apron at me.

“You like brownies right?” he asked me walking over to the cupboard and grabbing out a box of brownie mix. I laughed at him.

“Brownies for breakfast?” I asked him clueless. He smiled and set the mix on the counter.

“Yes for breakfast!” he shouted at me as he opened up the box of the brownie mix. “We are making this together! Brownies and toast for breakfast!” he shouted at me triumphantly.
“Now, go get a bowl and lets start cooking!” he exclaimed ripping open the brownie mix package.

I laughed at him as I went to grab a mixing bowl out of the cupboards. I sat it in front of Gerard. He smiled at me before pouring in the mix. He patted me on the back and gave me a thumbs up.

“Now, go get the eggs.” He told me. I listened to him and went to the fridge and grabbed out the blue egg carton. I sat it on the table in front of him.

“Thanks Frankie.” He told me as he lent down and kissed me on the forehead. I blushed lightly and nodded my head. Today was going to be a good day.