An Unexpected Something New

Hannah was trying to be polite when Kris had asked her to dance. She had engaged in that once with him before, the night she was totally hammered and came to regret it, not because she had anything against Kris, but because she wanted to be considerate of Sidney. She wouldn’t have agreed if Sid had asked her not to, but when she looked at him for approval and he gave it, she figured it would be over soon enough and it wasn’t such a big deal.

Kris took her by the hand and kept walking through the crowd. She felt her heart beat a little faster because to her it made perfect sense for them to stay at the seam not get lost in the sea of bodies. When he finally settled on an area that was far from visual to Sidney and a little too isolated to Hannah, he wrapped his large hands around her waist and began to move against her.

Hannah smiled politely and tried to shimmy away from Kris to give them some distance. She was uncomfortable being smashed against him and wanted some space, some personal space that Kris was completely invading. “Are you having a good time,” Kris breathed into her ear and she winced as she could smell the intense odor of alcohol seeping from not only his pores but his breath as well.

“Yeah,” Hannah nodded her head. “I am, thank you. How about you?”

“I always have a good time when there’s alcohol and ladies together,” he joked with his heavy accent.

“I’m sure you do.”

Kris rested his hand on the small of her back and pulled her even closer to him. “I was watching you and Crosby before, you look good together.”

“Thanks.” Hannah was confused as to why he was watching her with Sidney let alone commenting on it.

“You sure know how to move against him. Well, I already knew how well you could move from last time we danced,” Kris remarked and pressed his erection against her leg. She couldn’t tell if it was from her or just his drunk, horny disposition. Either way when Hannah felt it she immediately felt her body jump with surprise because to her it was crossing the line.

“Uh huh.”

“Are you fucking him yet?”

Hannah cocked her head back and looked at him angrily. “Excuse me?”

“Crosby told me you aren’t putting out. I can’t believe you’re making my poor buddy go without getting laid.”

“Um, I don’t think that’s any of your business.”

“Come on Hannah,” Kris practically moaned as he ran his hand down her side and gripped her tightly making her squirm. “Let him get in there…after everything he’s done for you…”

Hannah swallowed the lump in her throat and felt her body going numb. Was this seriously happening? Were they seriously having this conversation? She tried to wiggle free and turn to leave but Kris held her tighter. “Kris please let me go. This conversation is over,” Hannah pleaded.

“Hannah do you realize you’re dating someone who girls throw their panties at on a daily basis? Fuck if he’s not going to be able to come out and party with me because he’s in a relationship lockdown then at least fuck the guy.”

Hannah felt the tears threaten to fall from behind her eyes as she tried to push away from him. “I’m serious, get off me.”

“Not until you promise to loosen up a bit.”

“I need you to get away from me,” she spat back. “You have no right to talk to me this way, especially about something that doesn’t even concern you.”

“Look I’m just trying to look out for you and have my friends back. You’re a fucking tease. I can see why Der left you. Don’t come crying to me when Crosby does the same, that’s all I’m saying.”

Without hesitation Hannah instinctively lifted her arm up and slapped Kris across the face. There was no point in trying to hide her tears as they flowed freely down her cheek. “You’re unbelievable,” she said through her tears. “Go have another drink.”

“Gladly,” he yelled obnoxiously as he grabbed her by both arms and held her viciously to him. “While I do that I bet I can find someone to fuck Crosby before you know what hit you.”

Hannah was devastated. She had nothing left to say. Kris was beyond drunk and prying into something that had absolutely nothing to do with him. She didn’t try to hide the fact that she was a virgin but she couldn’t stand the thought of Sidney talking about it behind her back in a negative way. She turned her head and looked away, hating the fact that she was still in his strong grip when she felt someone push Kris away from her. Before she knew what was going on she found herself wrapped in Sidney’s chest with him protectively holding her.

“What the fuck did you do to her?” he screamed angrily at an inebriated Kris.

*****

“I’m going to give you about three seconds to answer me before I knock your fucking face in,” I screamed again. Whatever had transpired in the amount of time I was at the bar and Kris spent alone with Hannah obviously went very badly and I would have ripped his long hair out to protect the girl in my arms.

“Okay, okay,” Kris put his hands up in defense, clearly caught red-handed. “I was just having a little chat with your girl.”

“Clearly,” I spat back disgusted. Seeing Hannah there sobbing, feeling her tears seep through my shirt made me irrationally angry at him. “You stay away.” I backed away from him slowly with Hannah in my arms or I would have killed him. We were friends and teammates but in that moment he was useless to me and I would have severed our friendship forever to keep Hannah.

“Seriously?” he took a step towards us but I quickly stopped him. “Kris, if you take another step I’ll break your neck.” And with that I turned and walked Hannah out of the club.

Once we hit the fresh air I spun in front of her and held her arms in my hands. “Baby what did he say to you?”

She looked up into my eyes and shook her head. “I…I don’t want to talk about it.”

“Hey,” I pulled her into me and hugged her tightly so she’d know I wasn’t going anywhere. “Talk to me. I’m so sorry Han, I’m so sorry I left you alone with him.” I genuinely was apologetic. She shouldn’t have had to worry that any of my friends would disrespect her in any way.

“I just don’t want to talk about it Sid.” I could feel my throat close ever so slowly. I was scared she’d push me away and I’d lose her.

I swallowed and felt pangs of anxiety, as I wasn’t sure what she was going to do next. “Hannah I love you. I’m not going anywhere.” I tucked a strand of hair behind her ear and watched as she closed her eyes and inhaled deeply. She had been trying to suppress her crying but when she felt my lips press against her forehead she leaned into me and began to sob. “Kris gave me this huge nasty lecture about me not having sex with you.”

I threw my head back and felt rage surge through my body as I contemplated going back inside and kicking his ass Chuck Norris style. I let out a deep breath and waited for her to keep talking.

“He told me I should be giving it up to you, that he understood why Derek didn’t want to marry me and said that if I didn’t start having sex with you he’d find someone for you faster than I could blink.” She rested her hand limply on her stomach and wiped at her soaking wet face with her other hand.

I shook my head and pulled back so I could look at her. “Hannah,” I needed her attention, I needed her to listen to me in the most intense way possible. “Listen to me. Nothing he said to you reflects anything I think or feel for you. If you let me, I’ll go back in there and I’ll kill him. I’ll kill him. I love you and I don’t care. We established this, you and I. I’m sorry, I’m so sorry.”

Hannah wrapped her arms around my neck and nuzzled her tear soaked face into the crook of my neck. “I know,” she breathed out. “I love you too.”

I turned my head to kiss the side of hers as I held her to me trying to comfort her. She let out a deep sigh and I could feel her body tremble but her crying had calmed down. “Will you take me home now?”

I nodded my head before I spoke, “Yeah,” and pulled away from her. She looked up at me and ran her hand through my hair and down my cheek before pressing her lips against me for longer than I would have thought. She looked me in the eyes and smiled once more before I took her by the hand and led her to the car.

Hannah curled into me as we walked to the car and when I leaned her against it so that I could open the passenger side for her she grabbed my hand and pulled me to her, looking me deep in the eyes as she put both her hands on my cheeks. “I love you,” she said so sincerely, so genuine it gave me butterflies.

I couldn’t help but smile before I leaned in to kiss her. “I love you too,” I replied as I rested the bridge of my nose against hers.

“Sid…”

“What baby?”

I could feel her chest rise rapidly as she shook her head and took in a deep breath. “Thank you...” I knew there was more that she wanted to say but wasn’t about to press her.

I kissed her again before opening the door and helping her get inside. I knew there was more on her mind but she wasn’t speaking it. When she was ready she’d open up and I was confident of that. The entire ride home she rested her head on my shoulder and placed chaste kisses on my cheek and down my neck.

When we got to her house and walked through the door she walked to the back of the couch and perched her rear on it facing me. “Sid.” She said my name as she reached for my hand.

I didn’t say anything when I walked over to her and wrapped my arms around her waist. I just looked down into her eyes and waited to hear what she had to say.

“Did you notice the hoards of girls that were eyeing you up when we were out?”

I chuckled genuinely amused but didn’t get the chance to answer. “You didn’t even look at them. Not one. I couldn’t help but notice Sid. It’s not like it doesn’t happen all the time and sometimes it’s hard to ignore. Sometimes I’ll glance over at you to see if you’re looking at them or what your reaction will be…and I looked over at you tonight and it was like you didn’t even notice.”

I took a deep breath and couldn’t fight the grin that spread across my face. She was totally right. “I told you. Since we met I don’t notice anyone else. I have no reason to look. I really don’t care.”

“I…I guess I didn’t really believe you,” she confessed meekly and genuinely surprised. “Until now.”

“I wouldn’t lie to you.”

“I know,” she nodded her head. “I just…I don’t know. It clicked, and then you jumped straight to my defense over your friend; your teammate and you never even questioned who you were loyal to. We walk through the doors to my house and I look around and I see the flowers and the things you’ve brought me every morning…and it just blows my mind.”

It was like she was finally realizing how much I meant it when I told her I was in love with her. I wasn’t going to hurt her, especially in the manner in which Derek hurt her. The love that I could see looking in her eyes was overwhelming and something I’d never experienced before. Hannah reached up and gently placed both of hands on either of my cheeks. “I really do love you.”

“I’ve loved you from day one,” I whispered before leaning down and kissing her with everything in me.

I felt her tongue make its way to mine as she wrapped her arms around my neck. After feeling her press her hips into me I grabbed her waist and dug my fingers into her soft flesh. We were breathless after we pulled our lips apart and I rested my nose on hers. “Sid,” she moaned out as she took in my scent with her eyes still closed. “I want you to make love to me.”

I slowly opened my eyes and moved my head back a few inches so that I could look at her; look into her eyes. “What?”

“I love you…I want to be with you. I want to make love to you…” I could see her chest rapidly rising and falling. I knew she was nervous. I felt my heart jump along with my dick when it really sank in what she was asking. I didn’t say anything because I needed to catch my breath. Here was this girl standing in front of me that I’d fallen for because she was perfection in my eyes. She was a virgin and she was standing in front of me asking me to be her first…and if I had anything to do with it, her only.

I crashed my lips down onto hers and kissed her harder than I’d ever kissed her before. I placed my one hand on the back of her neck and gripped her waist with my other. Though I didn’t want to, after a few seconds I pulled away and braced myself for what I was about to say.

“Hannah,” her name escaped as a moan from my lips. “I’ve thought about this moment more times than I can count. I love you so much and I want to, God I want to…”

She could sense there was more to what I needed to say and she added the obvious “But…”

“But,” I said humoring her. “Han, not like this. Not after coming home from the bar where my friend tried to manipulate you into giving me your virginity. I want to, God it pains me to be saying this…but I want it to the right, organic…I want you to want to on your own.” One thing I didn't know how to tell her was...yeah, it was one thing to want to make love to her, fantasize about it even...but to actually be in that position was gut-wrenching and made me more nervous than I would like to admit.

“Sid this is me. Standing in front of you. Asking you to make love to me…because I’m in love with you and I know you wouldn’t hurt me. What you and I have…it’s rare.”

“You’re sure?” I asked as my breath hitched in my throat.

“I am…”

“I want you Han,” I leaned in and kissed her but didn’t pull away. “I love you, I really do…but I wouldn’t feel right doing it after what happened tonight. I’d always feel like you were guilted into having sex with me and that’s not how I want to remember it.” Telling her no was the hardest thing I’d ever had to do. I wouldn’t have believed that I’d have the strength to turn down the only girl I’d ever truly loved, but here I was putting her above my wants.

“So…you had no problem demanding it in a drunken haze, basically trying to force me…and here I am telling you I love you and I want to be with you, neither of us are drunk, and you’re telling me no?” Oh she was annoyed, or more embarrassed, but I felt so strongly that I was doing the right thing by her in that moment that I was willing to risk her being momentarily angry.

“Han,” I let out a deep sigh. “Don’t go there, don’t say those things. You know that isn’t true.”

“Isn’t it though?” she crossed her arms and I could tell by her body language that if I tried to touch her she’d push me away.

“C’mon don’t do this. You know I’m doing this because I love you. Do you have any idea how hard this is for me? Do you think I ever worried about any other girl the way I worry about you? I want to be considerate, I want you to be sure…not just feel like it’s something you need to do in order to keep me happy. I know that you love me Hannah. I know you do, because I’m right there with you. Nothing anyone says could change that.” My own guilt was partially the reason for insisting she be sure. After how I’d treated her that night I was drunk, and the fact that my drunken confessions to Kris were the reason he had hurt her the way he did tonight…it killed me. I knew Hannah and I would get to that point eventually though I had no idea when…I just wanted it to be absolutely perfect for her. I wanted to make love to her in the perfect setting, no regrets.

“You’re making it hard! I can’t…” she turned away and shook her head fighting back tears. “I can’t believe this entire moment is ruined. I can’t believe you are telling me no.”

“Listen to me,” I pulled her into me by her arm despite her resistance and looked intensely into her eyes. “We have the rest of our lives to make love. And I mean the rest of our lives. I love you and I’m not going anywhere. I just want you to be sure. It’s easy to get caught up in the moment Han, but I’m trying to do the right thing because I want it to be perfect for you. I want to make it perfect for you.” I needed her to understand I was making the harder decision so that she had time to decide whether it was really what she wanted. “I want you to be positive because once we do it, we can’t take it back. Is this the way you want your first time….our first time…to be?”