Musical Hatred Love
Chapter Fifty-Four
FOUR MONTHS LATER
DRACO's POV
Four months had passed and there was still no sign of Cleo. I was sitting on my bed in my dorm room, away from Gina. I knew she had something to do with Cleo's disappearence. Everytime Georgia cried about it, Gina seemed unsympathetic and would change the subject immediately. I could also tell, Georgia was keeping her eye on her, as should I. If only I knew where to look. Damnit I made a mistake. A big one nonetheless.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uBqkpBRu9SI [Coming Back Down]
"I just can't escape
it's like you're here with me now
but the words you say
they always seem to fade out
since you been away
I'm just a face in the crowd
someday, someday
I know you're coming back" I began to pace back and forth
"down in the dirt
with your blood on my hands
I blacked out
but now I do understand
that you were too good
for this world so you left it
everything turned red
and then you made an exit
I don't even know
if it was your time
but like all good things
that pass you by
its like a lost soul
in the time of need
it made me grow up fast
and put some blood on my knees
and you don't even know
what's beyond you
thinking you could never die
like you're bullet proof
so I guess you had to leave
you were born with wings
but you were never happy
til the angels sing" I felt the pain in my chest as I began to sing with emotion
"I just can't escape
it's like you're here with me now
but the words you say
they always seem to fade out
since you been away
I'm just a face in the crowd
someday, someday
I know you're coming back down
someday, someday
I know you're coming back down" I ran my fingers through my hair realizing that it was always Cleo in my heart.
"I'm ashes to ashes
I'm dust to dust
And when a man
turns to ashes
forget about love
like the feeling inside you
with the bottle beside you
you both end up empty
like an angel just died too
I look to the heavens
to the sky and the rest
I looked inside myself
I felt my heart in my chest
Something so point blue
there's nothing to say
some hearts to stay true
when falling away
Come lay down beside me
what you and I mean
it's only what I've seen
it's only just one dream
tell my baby I love her
and I wish I could hold her
it's hard to say goodbye
when you know that it's over" I leaned against the wall closing my eyes
"I just can't escape
it's like you're here with me now
but the words you say
they always seem to fade out
since you been away
I'm just a face in the crowd
someday, someday
I know you're coming back down
someday, someday
I know you're coming back down
one day, one day
I know you're coming back down" I continued to sing.
"I know you're coming back
know you're coming back
I know you're coming back down
I know you're coming back
know you're coming back
I know you're coming back down (down)
I know you're coming back
know you're coming back
I know you're coming back down
I know you're coming back
know you're coming back
I know you're coming back down
I know you're coming back down" I knew she was coming back. Soon.
"I just can't escape
it's like you're here with me now
but the words you say
they always seem to fade out
since you been away
I'm just a face in the crowd
someday, someday
I know you're coming back down
someday, someday
I know you're coming back down
one day, one day
I know you're coming back down" When I finished the song I left my room but nearly ran over Gina.
"Where you going Drakey?" she asked
I sighed deeply. "I'm going to look for Cleo."
Her eye's widen. "Why?"
"Because she's been gone for months and I need to do something!"
"I thought you loved me?" Gina asked sadly.
I smirked. "Not anymore, we're done."
Her face grew red with anger and she left down the stairs. I smirked feeling this heavy weight being lifted off my shoulders. I left the common room and searched for Cleopatra Daygon. My love.
GEORGIA's POV
Ever since Cleo's disappearance four months ago, I've started to drink. More and more each day. Jordon stopped trying to get me to stop. I heard Draco breaking up with Gina,finally, and go search for Cleo. Which was not worth it. She might be dead now. Thinking of that I got up and went to my room to get more drinks. Jordon stopped me as I got up.
"Georgia don't please," he begged.
I looked at him with my watery red eyes. "I'm sorry.." I whispered and looked down.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cI1C5JXEcsk [Pour Me]
"Pour me, pour me, pour me another,
It holds me, holds me,
Like no other,
One more drink, then I swear that I'm going home,
Truth is, I don't really have a place to go,
So pour me, pour me, pour me another." I held my glass up to him and he shook his head grabbing the glass and putting it away.
"I wake up right about the mid-afternoon,
With the sun in the sky but night's coming soon,
I walk to the mirror just to fix myself,
Yeah life gets harder when you love nothing else,
So I pick my pills from the counter drawer,
Pick my self-esteem up off the fucking floor,
I guess I'm a man of no recourse,
As I crack another bottle, got no remorse,
And I'll say a little prayer for the child in me,
I swear I used to be what I truly believe,
That I'm not just a man with these broken dreams,
Even I could go to heaven,
If I part the sea
So..." I turned him to face me as I sang to him.
"Pour me, pour me, pour me another,
It holds me, holds me,
Like no other,
One more drink, then I swear that I'm going home,
Truth is, I don't really have a place to go,
So pour me, pour me, pour me another." Jordon looked at me hurt and sadness.
"People get sick when they watch you bleed,
When you fell from the top, boy you better believe,
At the bottom, they got just, yeah, just what you need,
Well at the bottom, you can't swim 'cause you drank up the sea,
Then we stop and we look up to the sky,
They don't ask any questions, they ask us why?
Don't have any answers, don't know what to say,
Our knees are getting tired,
Too tired to pray,
That's when we laid down the end of the road,
We all seem to walk and I guess walking alone,
And I'm not just a man with these broken dreams,
Even I could go to heaven,
If I part the sea" I followed Jordon to the couch and kneeling down in front of him.
"Pour me, pour me, pour me another,
It holds me, holds me,
Like no other,
One more drink, then I swear that I'm going home,
Truth is, I don't really have a place to go,
So pour me, pour me, pour me another.
Time just seems to go on and on,
On and on,
And on and on,
Life inside a bottle all alone,
All alone,
The bottles gone,
I'm not just a man with these broken dreams,
Even I could go to heaven,
If I part the sea
Whats life inside a bottle if it's cold?
One more song and I'm finally free,
I'll meet you here in heaven, between the sea,
'Cause I'm not just a man with these broken dreams,
Even I could go to heaven,
If I part the sea
So..." I continued to sing.
"Pour me, pour me, pour me another,
It holds me, holds me,
Like no other,
One more drink, then I swear that I'm going home,
Truth is, I don't really have a place to go,
So pour me, pour me, pour me another.
Pour me, pour me, pour me, pour me,
Pour me another,
Pour me, pour me, pour me, pour me,
Pour me another. " I finished my song and he shook his head standing up and leaving me there on the ground. I sniffled and wiped my nose on my arm and cried silently.
CLEO's POV
Feeling like years and years of torture, which is probably more like months, I was all ready to die. I didn't know this prophecy that Evilmort was trying to get out of me, and every time I gave him the wrong answer he would use the Crucio curse, then have me stare at the bodies of my dead parents(without blinking). One night the door opened and I braced myself for a curse, but it never came. I forced my head to look over and through my swollen eyelids I saw a girl standing in the doorway.
"Gina?" I croaked.
Gina moved and turned the light to prove it was indeed her. "I'm surprised you can even see me," she said.
I coughed up some blood and groaned. "What...do you want?" I huffed.
"I had to see you before making a tough decision."
I looked over and she was leaving and turning off the light.
The next day I heard multiple footsteps, which was unnatural, and suddenly the door swung open and the lights went on and I saw Malwhore. He didn't say a word, barely looked at me(like I could blame him). Then suddenly I was back at the Malfoy Mansion, in my room.
"You're safe," Malwhore assured me.
I shook my head slowly. "Never..." I whispered before passing out.
Weeks passed and I was just about healed(physically at least). I stayed at the Malfoy mansion while Mrs. Malfoy taught me so I didn't have to deal with people at school. I had a funeral for my parents and Mrs. Malfoy promised me a home here in their Mansion, which was very nice of her. I sat on the railing of my balcony just outside my room and looked down at the ground three stories below.
"Cleo?" I heard Malfoy's voice.
"What?"
"What are you doing?"
I shrugged. "How quickly do you think it'll take for me to hit the bottom?"
I could feel his eyes widening without even looking at him. "Don't Cleo," he said.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ML27kyhRDcU [Bullet]
"My legs are dangling off the edge,
The bottom of a bottle is my only friend,
I think I'll slit my wrists again and I'm gone, gone, gone,
My legs are dangling off the edge,
A stomach full of pills didn't work again,
I think I'll put a bullet in my head and I'm gone, gone, gone.
Gone too far and yeah I'm gone again,
It's gone on too long, tell you how it ends,
I'm sitting on the edge with my 2 best friends,
Ones a bottle of pills, ones a bottle of gin,
20 stories up, yeah I'm up at the top,
I'll polish off this bottle, now it's pushing me off,
Asphalt to me has never looked so soft,
I bet my momma found my letter, now shes calling the cops,
I gotta take this opportunity before I miss it,
'Cause now I hear the sirens and they're off in the distance,
Believe me when I tell you that I've been persistent,
'Cause I'm more scarred, more scarred than my wrist is,
I've been trying too long, with too dull of a knife,
But tonight I made sure that I sharpened it twice,
I never bought a suit piece for my life,
But when you go to meet god, you know you wanna look nice.
So if I survive, then I'll see you tomorrow, yeah I'll see you tomorrow.
My legs are dangling off the edge,
The bottom of a bottle is my only friend,
I think I'll slit my wrists again and I'm gone, gone, gone, gone,
My legs are dangling off the edge,
A stomach full of pills didn't work again,
[ From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/h/hollywood-undead-lyrics/bullet-lyrics.html ]
I'll put a bullet in my head and I'm gone, gone, gone, gone.
Hit the sky, there goes the light, no more sun, why's it always night?
When you can't sleep, well, you can't dream,
When you can't dream, well, whats life mean?
We feel a little pity, but don't empathize,
The old are getting older, watch a young man die,
A Mother and a Son and someone you know, smile at each other and realise it don't (?)
You don't know what happened to that kid you raised,
What happened to the Father, who swore he'd stay?
I didn't know 'cause you didn't say,
Now Momma feels guilt, now Momma feels pain,
When you were young, you never thought you'd die,
Found that you could but too scared to try,
You looked in the mirror and you said goodbye,
Climb to the roof and see if you could fly.
So if I survive, then I'll see you tomorrow, yeah I'll see you tomorrow.
My legs are dangling off the edge,
The bottom of a bottle is my only friend,
I think I'll slit my wrists again and I'm gone, gone, gone, gone,
My legs are dangling off the edge,
A stomach full of pills didn't work again,
I'll put a bullet in my head and I'm gone, gone, gone, gone.
I wish that I could fly, way up in the sky,
Like a bird so high,
Oh I might just try,
I wish that I could fly, way up in the sky,
Like a bird so high,
Oh I might just try,
Oh I might just try." I sang to him.
Draco looked at me and pulled me off the balcony. "You're not jumping! Not after I saved you from that hell hole!" he said.
I glared at him. "Saved me?! You think just getting me out of that horrid nightmare was saving me?"
He nodded.
I slapped him hard. "I will never be saved Malfoy! If it weren't for that crazy whore you were sleeping with, I might have never been in that place!"
Draco slowly looked at me as I glared at him again.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b1Zq47OBytg [Levitate]
"Can´t stop I need some help.
Fuck you, I´m by myself
Is it a true or lie?
It´s what you can´t deny.
´Cause it´s the way you think
Mix with the pills and drink
Brought back to the way you are
Flowed up to there, close to God
You know that hiding ain´t gonna keep you safe
Because the tears on your face
they leak and leave a trace
So just when you think the true love´s begun
it goes off at any second just like a loaded gun" He sang to me
"You know, I can take you straight to heaven if you let me...
You know I, I can make your body levitate if you let me...
You know that I can make your body levitate... le-levitate...
I can make your body levitate... le-levitate! (you know...)" he walked away before turning back to me
"Can´t stop the feeling,
high as a celling
I got the money who´s fuckin´dealin´
I feel the heat like the barrel of a gun
I forgot the last time I saw the sun
I´ve got a disease
it´s digging deeper in me
It´s like my mind is leaving,
but my heart keeps beating
So I´ll paint the walls, drip from the nose
but where it goes, nobody really knows
Hit the bottle and she´s starting to follow
I fall asleep there ain´t no tomorrow
Guns are far, nobody can save me
Who needs you when I´ve got my baby
My baby is beautiful she loves me true
but if she dies i hope i die too!!" He shook his head and cupped my face in his hands.
"You know, I can take you straight to heaven if you let me...
You know I, I can make your body levitate if you let me...
You know that I can make your body levitate... le-levitate...
I can make your body levitate... le-levitate! (you know...)
I put down another sack of them
then it´s straight back to the flask again
I can´t help stop what´s happening
One the wrong track, yeah, I´m back again
Up shit creek and I´m paddling
blacked out room and I´m travelin´
Good ideas I´m liking them
I´m too fucked up now I´m babbling
Wondering how to fix these damages
All these goddamn damages
Covering myself with bandages
From all these goddamn damages
Wondering how to fix all these damages
All these goddamn damages
Covering myself with bandages
From all these goddamn damages" He let me go and walked away sitting on the edge of my bed.
"You know, I can take you straight to heaven if you let me...
You know I, I can make your body levitate if you let me...
You know that I can make your body levitate... le-levitate...
I can make your body levitate... le-levitate! (you know...)" He finished and I would have cried if I could produce anymore tears. He got up and left me alone.
Did he still love me? Or was this song just saying he can give me a good time?
DRACO's POV
Four months had passed and there was still no sign of Cleo. I was sitting on my bed in my dorm room, away from Gina. I knew she had something to do with Cleo's disappearence. Everytime Georgia cried about it, Gina seemed unsympathetic and would change the subject immediately. I could also tell, Georgia was keeping her eye on her, as should I. If only I knew where to look. Damnit I made a mistake. A big one nonetheless.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uBqkpBRu9SI [Coming Back Down]
"I just can't escape
it's like you're here with me now
but the words you say
they always seem to fade out
since you been away
I'm just a face in the crowd
someday, someday
I know you're coming back" I began to pace back and forth
"down in the dirt
with your blood on my hands
I blacked out
but now I do understand
that you were too good
for this world so you left it
everything turned red
and then you made an exit
I don't even know
if it was your time
but like all good things
that pass you by
its like a lost soul
in the time of need
it made me grow up fast
and put some blood on my knees
and you don't even know
what's beyond you
thinking you could never die
like you're bullet proof
so I guess you had to leave
you were born with wings
but you were never happy
til the angels sing" I felt the pain in my chest as I began to sing with emotion
"I just can't escape
it's like you're here with me now
but the words you say
they always seem to fade out
since you been away
I'm just a face in the crowd
someday, someday
I know you're coming back down
someday, someday
I know you're coming back down" I ran my fingers through my hair realizing that it was always Cleo in my heart.
"I'm ashes to ashes
I'm dust to dust
And when a man
turns to ashes
forget about love
like the feeling inside you
with the bottle beside you
you both end up empty
like an angel just died too
I look to the heavens
to the sky and the rest
I looked inside myself
I felt my heart in my chest
Something so point blue
there's nothing to say
some hearts to stay true
when falling away
Come lay down beside me
what you and I mean
it's only what I've seen
it's only just one dream
tell my baby I love her
and I wish I could hold her
it's hard to say goodbye
when you know that it's over" I leaned against the wall closing my eyes
"I just can't escape
it's like you're here with me now
but the words you say
they always seem to fade out
since you been away
I'm just a face in the crowd
someday, someday
I know you're coming back down
someday, someday
I know you're coming back down
one day, one day
I know you're coming back down" I continued to sing.
"I know you're coming back
know you're coming back
I know you're coming back down
I know you're coming back
know you're coming back
I know you're coming back down (down)
I know you're coming back
know you're coming back
I know you're coming back down
I know you're coming back
know you're coming back
I know you're coming back down
I know you're coming back down" I knew she was coming back. Soon.
"I just can't escape
it's like you're here with me now
but the words you say
they always seem to fade out
since you been away
I'm just a face in the crowd
someday, someday
I know you're coming back down
someday, someday
I know you're coming back down
one day, one day
I know you're coming back down" When I finished the song I left my room but nearly ran over Gina.
"Where you going Drakey?" she asked
I sighed deeply. "I'm going to look for Cleo."
Her eye's widen. "Why?"
"Because she's been gone for months and I need to do something!"
"I thought you loved me?" Gina asked sadly.
I smirked. "Not anymore, we're done."
Her face grew red with anger and she left down the stairs. I smirked feeling this heavy weight being lifted off my shoulders. I left the common room and searched for Cleopatra Daygon. My love.
GEORGIA's POV
Ever since Cleo's disappearance four months ago, I've started to drink. More and more each day. Jordon stopped trying to get me to stop. I heard Draco breaking up with Gina,finally, and go search for Cleo. Which was not worth it. She might be dead now. Thinking of that I got up and went to my room to get more drinks. Jordon stopped me as I got up.
"Georgia don't please," he begged.
I looked at him with my watery red eyes. "I'm sorry.." I whispered and looked down.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cI1C5JXEcsk [Pour Me]
"Pour me, pour me, pour me another,
It holds me, holds me,
Like no other,
One more drink, then I swear that I'm going home,
Truth is, I don't really have a place to go,
So pour me, pour me, pour me another." I held my glass up to him and he shook his head grabbing the glass and putting it away.
"I wake up right about the mid-afternoon,
With the sun in the sky but night's coming soon,
I walk to the mirror just to fix myself,
Yeah life gets harder when you love nothing else,
So I pick my pills from the counter drawer,
Pick my self-esteem up off the fucking floor,
I guess I'm a man of no recourse,
As I crack another bottle, got no remorse,
And I'll say a little prayer for the child in me,
I swear I used to be what I truly believe,
That I'm not just a man with these broken dreams,
Even I could go to heaven,
If I part the sea
So..." I turned him to face me as I sang to him.
"Pour me, pour me, pour me another,
It holds me, holds me,
Like no other,
One more drink, then I swear that I'm going home,
Truth is, I don't really have a place to go,
So pour me, pour me, pour me another." Jordon looked at me hurt and sadness.
"People get sick when they watch you bleed,
When you fell from the top, boy you better believe,
At the bottom, they got just, yeah, just what you need,
Well at the bottom, you can't swim 'cause you drank up the sea,
Then we stop and we look up to the sky,
They don't ask any questions, they ask us why?
Don't have any answers, don't know what to say,
Our knees are getting tired,
Too tired to pray,
That's when we laid down the end of the road,
We all seem to walk and I guess walking alone,
And I'm not just a man with these broken dreams,
Even I could go to heaven,
If I part the sea" I followed Jordon to the couch and kneeling down in front of him.
"Pour me, pour me, pour me another,
It holds me, holds me,
Like no other,
One more drink, then I swear that I'm going home,
Truth is, I don't really have a place to go,
So pour me, pour me, pour me another.
Time just seems to go on and on,
On and on,
And on and on,
Life inside a bottle all alone,
All alone,
The bottles gone,
I'm not just a man with these broken dreams,
Even I could go to heaven,
If I part the sea
Whats life inside a bottle if it's cold?
One more song and I'm finally free,
I'll meet you here in heaven, between the sea,
'Cause I'm not just a man with these broken dreams,
Even I could go to heaven,
If I part the sea
So..." I continued to sing.
"Pour me, pour me, pour me another,
It holds me, holds me,
Like no other,
One more drink, then I swear that I'm going home,
Truth is, I don't really have a place to go,
So pour me, pour me, pour me another.
Pour me, pour me, pour me, pour me,
Pour me another,
Pour me, pour me, pour me, pour me,
Pour me another. " I finished my song and he shook his head standing up and leaving me there on the ground. I sniffled and wiped my nose on my arm and cried silently.
CLEO's POV
Feeling like years and years of torture, which is probably more like months, I was all ready to die. I didn't know this prophecy that Evilmort was trying to get out of me, and every time I gave him the wrong answer he would use the Crucio curse, then have me stare at the bodies of my dead parents(without blinking). One night the door opened and I braced myself for a curse, but it never came. I forced my head to look over and through my swollen eyelids I saw a girl standing in the doorway.
"Gina?" I croaked.
Gina moved and turned the light to prove it was indeed her. "I'm surprised you can even see me," she said.
I coughed up some blood and groaned. "What...do you want?" I huffed.
"I had to see you before making a tough decision."
I looked over and she was leaving and turning off the light.
The next day I heard multiple footsteps, which was unnatural, and suddenly the door swung open and the lights went on and I saw Malwhore. He didn't say a word, barely looked at me(like I could blame him). Then suddenly I was back at the Malfoy Mansion, in my room.
"You're safe," Malwhore assured me.
I shook my head slowly. "Never..." I whispered before passing out.
Weeks passed and I was just about healed(physically at least). I stayed at the Malfoy mansion while Mrs. Malfoy taught me so I didn't have to deal with people at school. I had a funeral for my parents and Mrs. Malfoy promised me a home here in their Mansion, which was very nice of her. I sat on the railing of my balcony just outside my room and looked down at the ground three stories below.
"Cleo?" I heard Malfoy's voice.
"What?"
"What are you doing?"
I shrugged. "How quickly do you think it'll take for me to hit the bottom?"
I could feel his eyes widening without even looking at him. "Don't Cleo," he said.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ML27kyhRDcU [Bullet]
"My legs are dangling off the edge,
The bottom of a bottle is my only friend,
I think I'll slit my wrists again and I'm gone, gone, gone,
My legs are dangling off the edge,
A stomach full of pills didn't work again,
I think I'll put a bullet in my head and I'm gone, gone, gone.
Gone too far and yeah I'm gone again,
It's gone on too long, tell you how it ends,
I'm sitting on the edge with my 2 best friends,
Ones a bottle of pills, ones a bottle of gin,
20 stories up, yeah I'm up at the top,
I'll polish off this bottle, now it's pushing me off,
Asphalt to me has never looked so soft,
I bet my momma found my letter, now shes calling the cops,
I gotta take this opportunity before I miss it,
'Cause now I hear the sirens and they're off in the distance,
Believe me when I tell you that I've been persistent,
'Cause I'm more scarred, more scarred than my wrist is,
I've been trying too long, with too dull of a knife,
But tonight I made sure that I sharpened it twice,
I never bought a suit piece for my life,
But when you go to meet god, you know you wanna look nice.
So if I survive, then I'll see you tomorrow, yeah I'll see you tomorrow.
My legs are dangling off the edge,
The bottom of a bottle is my only friend,
I think I'll slit my wrists again and I'm gone, gone, gone, gone,
My legs are dangling off the edge,
A stomach full of pills didn't work again,
[ From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/h/hollywood-undead-lyrics/bullet-lyrics.html ]
I'll put a bullet in my head and I'm gone, gone, gone, gone.
Hit the sky, there goes the light, no more sun, why's it always night?
When you can't sleep, well, you can't dream,
When you can't dream, well, whats life mean?
We feel a little pity, but don't empathize,
The old are getting older, watch a young man die,
A Mother and a Son and someone you know, smile at each other and realise it don't (?)
You don't know what happened to that kid you raised,
What happened to the Father, who swore he'd stay?
I didn't know 'cause you didn't say,
Now Momma feels guilt, now Momma feels pain,
When you were young, you never thought you'd die,
Found that you could but too scared to try,
You looked in the mirror and you said goodbye,
Climb to the roof and see if you could fly.
So if I survive, then I'll see you tomorrow, yeah I'll see you tomorrow.
My legs are dangling off the edge,
The bottom of a bottle is my only friend,
I think I'll slit my wrists again and I'm gone, gone, gone, gone,
My legs are dangling off the edge,
A stomach full of pills didn't work again,
I'll put a bullet in my head and I'm gone, gone, gone, gone.
I wish that I could fly, way up in the sky,
Like a bird so high,
Oh I might just try,
I wish that I could fly, way up in the sky,
Like a bird so high,
Oh I might just try,
Oh I might just try." I sang to him.
Draco looked at me and pulled me off the balcony. "You're not jumping! Not after I saved you from that hell hole!" he said.
I glared at him. "Saved me?! You think just getting me out of that horrid nightmare was saving me?"
He nodded.
I slapped him hard. "I will never be saved Malfoy! If it weren't for that crazy whore you were sleeping with, I might have never been in that place!"
Draco slowly looked at me as I glared at him again.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b1Zq47OBytg [Levitate]
"Can´t stop I need some help.
Fuck you, I´m by myself
Is it a true or lie?
It´s what you can´t deny.
´Cause it´s the way you think
Mix with the pills and drink
Brought back to the way you are
Flowed up to there, close to God
You know that hiding ain´t gonna keep you safe
Because the tears on your face
they leak and leave a trace
So just when you think the true love´s begun
it goes off at any second just like a loaded gun" He sang to me
"You know, I can take you straight to heaven if you let me...
You know I, I can make your body levitate if you let me...
You know that I can make your body levitate... le-levitate...
I can make your body levitate... le-levitate! (you know...)" he walked away before turning back to me
"Can´t stop the feeling,
high as a celling
I got the money who´s fuckin´dealin´
I feel the heat like the barrel of a gun
I forgot the last time I saw the sun
I´ve got a disease
it´s digging deeper in me
It´s like my mind is leaving,
but my heart keeps beating
So I´ll paint the walls, drip from the nose
but where it goes, nobody really knows
Hit the bottle and she´s starting to follow
I fall asleep there ain´t no tomorrow
Guns are far, nobody can save me
Who needs you when I´ve got my baby
My baby is beautiful she loves me true
but if she dies i hope i die too!!" He shook his head and cupped my face in his hands.
"You know, I can take you straight to heaven if you let me...
You know I, I can make your body levitate if you let me...
You know that I can make your body levitate... le-levitate...
I can make your body levitate... le-levitate! (you know...)
I put down another sack of them
then it´s straight back to the flask again
I can´t help stop what´s happening
One the wrong track, yeah, I´m back again
Up shit creek and I´m paddling
blacked out room and I´m travelin´
Good ideas I´m liking them
I´m too fucked up now I´m babbling
Wondering how to fix these damages
All these goddamn damages
Covering myself with bandages
From all these goddamn damages
Wondering how to fix all these damages
All these goddamn damages
Covering myself with bandages
From all these goddamn damages" He let me go and walked away sitting on the edge of my bed.
"You know, I can take you straight to heaven if you let me...
You know I, I can make your body levitate if you let me...
You know that I can make your body levitate... le-levitate...
I can make your body levitate... le-levitate! (you know...)" He finished and I would have cried if I could produce anymore tears. He got up and left me alone.
Did he still love me? Or was this song just saying he can give me a good time?