Trashed & Scattered

"Wakey Wakey!!" I groaned in annoyance as my best friend continued to bounce on the bed beside me.

"Get the fuck off woman."

"No can do. Thor wants you to be at the studio by eleven. And I made food so get your ass up." My middle finger instantly shot up in the air as she smacked my ass and continued out the door. 

I rubbed the sleep from my eyes as I sat up while glancing at the clock. 10:00

".....FUCK!" after tripping over the sheets on my bed I quickly ran for the shower. 

The water was cold as I stepped in. 

I quickly washed up before rushing back to my bedroom. 

After digging through my closet I finally found my favorite shirt. It was my black Misfits tee. It had a slight tear from when I wore it to a concert a while back. Gotta love those mosh pits.

I slid in the shirt after putting on a purple bra with matching underwear. After I managed to find my white shorts I slid those on too. I quickly scrunched my hair and put on some eyeliner and mascara. 

"Hurry your ass up or you're gonna be late!" I made my way into the kitchen while slipping on my black converse. Quite the achievement if I do say so myself.

"Yes mom." I quickly grabbed the plate of scrambled eggs and toast, scarfing down while I opened the new package of medication. 

Cyclosporine, definition? Some nasty shit. I swallowed the two pills along with another to prevent seizures.  

I mumbled a quick 'love ya' as I grabbed my keys and purse before running out the door.

I waved to Kathy the receptionist type person as I made my way to Thor's office. I made it with ten minutes to spare. 

"Mornin old man." I laughed quietly at the glare on his face. He hated being called old.

"Watch it or I'll put you on Kelly duty." 

Now that is the one person I couldn't stand. She was a complete bitch. 

"So how did the appointment go?" On instinct I rolled my eyes.

"Oh you know the same bullshit. 'levels are ok for now, take your medicine, see you next week.'" I rested my feet on his desk while leaning my head against the back of the chair.

"And how do you feel?"

"Just peachy." Yea the meds I'm on tend to make me ill. But you wouldn't be able to tell by just looking at me. I've become pretty good at acting. Well except for the occasional times I don't eat when I take the meds.

My stomach was tying itself in knots and I could feel the bile rising up in my throat as I slowed my breathing. 

"Well if you start to feel sick just let me know. The boys are here again so you'll have to help out a bit but nothing to serious." i opened one eye to see him sitting on his desk in front of me.

"I'm fine, seriously Thor. It's nothing I can't handle. Scouts honor."

"Ok well I have to go down to the recording booth they're waiting on me. You coming now or did you want to just chill out here until you feel better?" 

I glared up at him before sighing.

"I feel fine but I think I'm gonna get some air but I'll be down in a few."

He patted me on the shoulder as I left the room, making my way to the back of the building.

I plopped down in one of the lounge chairs and closed my eyes, begging my stomach to calm down. I nearly jumped out of the seat as someone cleared their throat.

"You alright?" Turning to my right I saw Johnny Christ. His 5' something body leaning against the building as smoke left his mouth.

"Yea I'm fine. Did you need something?" The cigarette dropped from his fingers before he stepped on it, putting it out.

"Nah, you just looked like you were in pain or something. Didn't mean to scare you. I'm Johnny by the way."

I chuckled quietly before shifting in the seat.

"I know who you are." The door opened with a squeak as Val stepped out.

"Johnny they need you in there. Oh hey Skylar." Her face lit up when she saw me sitting there. I lifted my hand and gave her a slight wave.

Johnny left with a nod in my direction.

"So why are you doing out here?" 

"Just needed some air. How's the recording going?" I raised an eyebrow when she scoffed, plopping down in the seat next to me.

"What recording? They're just messing around in there. I swear they're worse than children."

"Yea I got that vibe yesterday."

We sat there quietly for a moment before I decided to go find Thor. He's probably getting pissed at them.

Val followed me inside. 

"So how long have you been working here?"

"A little over a year. I interned for a while, now I basically work for Thor."

"That's cool. Oh hey we're having a get together thing tonight....you wanna come?"

I glanced in her direction, pausing at the recording booth door.

"Sorry, I already have plans." I said it in the nicest way possible, trying not to offend her.

"Oh, ok then." she shrugged her shoulders as we waked through the door. 

We were immediately met with yelling voices. I cringed before sitting beside Thor, Val sitting in the chair beside me. 

"How long has this been going on?" My chin rested on my hand as I looked over at him. He squeezed his eyes closed while pinching the bridge of his nose.

"Too damn long." His finger pressed down on the intercom before he shouted at the boys to 'shut the hell up'

Silence surrounded the studio as everyone stared at him. 

"Boys take a break." I sighed before standing.

"You look like you could use some Tylenol." His eyes caught mine before he nodded. I quietly made my way from the room before the boys could leave the sound booth. I wouldn't necessarily call what I was doing 'avoiding them' but im sure others would see it that way.

My legs felt slightly like jello as I made my way to the lounge. Yet another symptom of anemia, weakness of the body. Along with that there was paleness (when my levels got low), dizziness, and fatigue. The headaches were terrible and lasted for weeks. 

I took a deep breath as I entered the lounge. Stability was not my friend at the moment.

I leaned against the counter gulping down the bile I could feel rising again. My eyes were closed tightly as I gripped the counter for support. 

After I felt a little better I turned and grabbed the pill bottle and made my way to the fridge for two bottles of water. One for Thor and one for myself.

"Are you sure you're alright? You didn't look to good there for a minute." I jumped and spun around as I heard Johnny's voice again.

He was sitting on the couch along with Syn and Matt. Zacky was leaning against the wall and Jimmy sat in the chair across from him. I never heard them come in. How the hell it was possible for these five obnoxiously loud men to sneak up on me like that was beyond me.

And now all of them were staring at me. 

I couldn't help but let a little anger fall through as I spoke. That is the question I hate the most.

"I'm fine."

"Looks like it's someones time of the month." I immediately glared at Brian, ready to give him a piece of my mind.

Val walked in after I slammed the door to the fridge. 

"Hey Sky." She seemed so bubbly I had to give her a smile. 

"Hello...again." I waved at her as I left the room, ignoring the gazes of the men in there and quickly went to find Thor.

When I did I tossed him the pill bottle and slammed my body into the chair beside him. My head instantly found comfort against the cool water bottle in my hands.

"Skylar look at me." Slowly I leaned back in the chair, turning to face the tall man.

"You look like shit." I couldn't help bit laugh at his bluntness. He really was like a father to me. 

All my family was back in Ohio, Joelle was literally the only piece of my old life that I had left. I mean yea I had the occasional phone call but, sometimes it just didn't feel like it was enough. 

"I'm fine, the medicine just takes a while to wear off. You know that."

He sighed before taking a gulp of water. 

"So what are you and Joelle doing tonight? She mentioned something about a party?"

I rolled my yes, of course he would be worried about that. 

"I'm going as her date apparently. Her friend Gena invited us." He nodded before the door behind us opened. The whole band walked in along with Val.

"You should go get some rest. That girl is going to kill you if you don't go. And I better not see you back here until Tuesday." I rolled my eyes once more as I patted him on the arm.

"Stop worrying, it's not healthy for a man of your age to get worked up over something so insignificant as little old me." I chuckled at the glare on his face. 

Before he got the chance to lecture me about how 'my health is important and I needed to take things easy' I dodged the bodies in the room and bolted out the door with a quick wave and a goodbye to Val.

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"Come on, you promised you'd go!" I groaned and threw a shoe at the annoying woman in front of me.

"Yea but I never said anything about wearing a damn dress!" These arguments were not an uncommon thing for us.

"Pleaseeee! I'll wash your car for a month!" My arms remained crossed tightly against my chest as I glared at her. She always freaking won these arguments.

I grabbed the dress and heels from her before storming into the bathroom. I flipped her off as she squealed.

The dress was a deep purple and fit very snug against my body. It was strapless (which I hate). The high heels were silver to match my jewelry. My red hair was pulled up into a fancy bun. I did my make up quickly. Eyeliner, mascara, and a silver eyeshadow.

It's like prom all over again, except without the gown. The dress reached mid thigh and showed off my long, lean legs. I slid my cell and cash into the top of my dress. I despised clutches so I always hid stuff in my bra. After double checking my appearance in the mirror I made my way to my car where Joelle was waiting.

"Damn hun, if I wasn't straight I'd do you right now." I couldn't help but laugh loudly as I slid into the drivers seat. 

"Sometimes I wonder why I hang out with you."

"Oh you know you love me my twin."

I rolled my eyes, yet another term of ours. She was wearing a bright red dress the was tight until mid thigh where it flared out slightly and loosely brushed her knees. Her brown hair was in a low bun similar to mine. The black peep toe heels finished the outfit perfectly. She was gorgeous.

"So what exactly is this party for?"

"Oh Gena's boyfriend and his friends just got back so they're just having a get together at Johnny's bar. Then we're going to a club."

"Oh, do you know any of them?"

"Besides Gena?....no." Shit 

We arrived at the bar and quickly made our way inside. It was packed tonight.

"Ok so this is going to be some totally awkward thing isn't it? How do you always manage to get us in these situations?" I had a hold of her arm as she drug me across the room. I felt way to dressed up to be here. But I guess we were going to a club afterward.

I stopped her quickly as I made my way in front of her, this woman was going to be the death of me.

"I should just wait outside. I don't know these people and you know how I feel about people."

I winced as she punched me in the arm.

"Hoe what was that for?!" Yea we had quite the number of names for one another...and used violence. A lot.

"You are not leaving. We came to have a good time and I'm not letting you pull the 'I don't like people' card tonight. You don't have to like them just....have fun. God only knows you need to get laid." 

Yea I admit it I was a virgin until about a year ago. Not my best moment, and it ended badly. I'm freaking 22 years old. I'm pathetic.

"Fine I'll stay, but I swear to god I will kick your ass if.." Unfortunately I was unable to finish my ranting as Joe was tackled in a hug by the little brunette we know as Gena. 

"Ah I missed you!" Yea I will admit, I was slightly jealous that Joelle had another best friend. Not that I'd ever let her know. I don't need anyone. She and Thor are all I need.

I smiled at the bouncing girl. She was very bubbly. It's not that I didn't like her...I just tried to be busy when she came around. 

"Hey Skylar, how have you been?" 

"Pretty good. Just busy." I gave her a light hug as she kissed my cheek.

"Ok so I want you guys to meet my friends." we were suddenly being dragged to the back of the bar. 

"Ok guys this is Joelle and Skylar ladies these are the guys." I peeked over her shoulder and instantly regretted agreeing to this night. 

"Skylar! It's great seeing you again!" I smiled at Val as she leaped from the booth and practically tackled me in a hug.

"Easy tiger." She giggled as she stood back up. 

"Wait how do you guys know each other?"

I wasn't even given the opportunity to answer before Val opened her mouth.

"She works at the studio. She's the one I told you about." My eyes flickered over to Joelle, silently pleading with her to allow me to leave. The smirk on her face told me I was in for hell. 

My arm was practically tore from it's socket as Val pulled me into the booth so I could sit beside her. Gena climbed over to Johnny. I sat Joelle on my lap. Nothing unusual, we were practically attached at the hip anyways. We claimed to be separated at birth.

I felt eyes on me as I sat there awkwardly. Joelle repeatedly glanced over her shoulder at me, silently asking if I was ok. I just nodded my head. I could suffer to make her happy.

"So then you've already met the guys then?"

My eyes landed on Gena when she spoke. I cleared my throat before answering.

"Uh yea, yesterday."

"Sweet." I blocked out most of the conversation as I glanced around the table. It was a round booth basically. Joelle and I were at the end followed by Val, Matt, Johnny, Zacky, Gena, Jimmy, and Brian. 

When I looked at Brian our gazes locked I felt a shiver run down my spine. 

"So are you guys like... a couple or something?" I couldn't help but let out a loud laugh at Johnny's question. The look on his face said he wanted the answer to be yes. Perv.

A smack sounded, and after glancing over I knew Gena had smacked him.

"Uh no...we're practically sisters. Plus I have a boyfriend." Everyone nodded quietly. This is fucking awkward. 

I tapped Joelle on the shoulder and waited for her to turn her head.

"I'm gonna go get a drink you want something?" The look on her face was condescending. I'm not supposed to drink with the medication.

"I'm only getting like one or two, scouts honor." I even added in the mock salute as I stood. 

"I swear to god if you touch more than two bottles I'll kill you myself."

"Oh yea, like I haven't heard that one before." I scoffed and quickly turned from the table, making my way to the bar.

After getting the attention of the bar tender I ordered two miller lights and a whiskey. 

"Now that's my kinda girl." My eyes quickly glanced to my right. Matt

His smile was almost contagious. Almost

"Yea well what can I say?"

"So what's with the secretive looks you guys have?" I felt my eyebrow raise and sweat form on the back of my neck. If there was one thing I hated it was people knowing I'm ill. The looks of pity I had gotten my whole life were enough to make me want to claw my eyes out.

"I don't know what you're talking about."

The look he gave me told me he knew I was lying. Whatever.

"Sorry about Brian by the way. He's been in a pissy mood lately. Found out his girlfriend was cheating on him.". I know how that feels.

"It's fine." 

"So you have a boyfriend?" I almost spit out my beer.

"I'm not asking for me..I'm happily taken by Val. Just asking in general." I felt a blush rise on my cheeks. Of course, because I'm not the type anyone would like anyways. 

"Nah."

He nodded his head, a thoughtful expression crossing his face.

"So what was with the whole death threat over drinking?"

And hello again sweating neck. Thank you for making your presence known. 

"Designated driver." Thank god for my cleverness. I quickly made my way back over to the booth and slid in after Matt and Val, once again Joelle sat on my lap.

I ignored the queasy feeling in my stomach as I continued drinking my miller light. Well momentarily. 

After downing the second one I suddenly felt the urge to puke. I tapped Joelle on the shoulder and made her move as I quickly walked to the bathroom. Fuck me

I heard rushed footsteps as I threw up. Wow that's classy.

"Dammit I knew that was a bad idea. You ok?" I nodded my head before standing. My footing was a little off as I made my way to the sink. When I glanced up I grimace at my pale complexion. Thank god for the low lighting.

Joelle held me steady as i quickly rinsed my mouth out and washed my hands.

"I'm fine, I think I just drank it too fast. We should get back out there before they get suspicious."

I could tell she was worried. It was a look I had gotten to know pretty well.

I quickly fixed my dress as I walked out the door. My composure was calm and collected. 

"Are you sure you don't want to go home. I won't be mad, you need to lay down." I shook my head and kept the smile plastered to my face. I wasn't going to ruin the night.

"I'm good."

We sat down once again as the conversation started back up.

"Hey you ok?" After taking a deep breath I smiled at Val and nodded my head.

"Yea I'm good. Had to pee." she was skeptical, I could tell. I ignored the worried glances and listened in on the conversation. The boys were talking about how their tour went.

After a good half hour we made our way to the cars, apparently we were off to some club.

I laughed at the faces of the guys as I hopped in my car. Yea she was a beauty. All the girls wanted to ride with me and Joelle while the boys piled into Matt s escalade. 

"Ok so was I the only one who noticed Brian checking out a certain someone?" I groaned inwardly as someone poked me.

"No I saw it too. You guys would look cute together!"

I would have smacked my hand to my forehead had it they not been slightly shaking. 

I sighed as we pulled up to the club.

"You ladies ready?"

Instead of answering I took a deep breath and hopped out of the car,  forcing a smile to my face and pushing back the weakness I was feeling. I refused to show it.

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"Care to dance?" I rolled my eyes at the drunk man standing next to the table. Everyone else was out on the floor while I chose to sit in our corner booth. I had danced with the girls for a while but stopped when I started feeling dizzy.

"No thanks"

"Oh don't be such a prude." I was practically seeing red as he grabbed my arm and pulled me from my seat. Unfortunately my wobbly knees didn't give me much stability. Before I knew it he had me pulled up against him and he was practically groping me.

"Get your hands off of me!" I repeatedly shoved him away, yet didn't make much progress.

I nearly fell as his hand connected with my cheek. 

"Shut up bitch." The stinging in my cheek brought tears to my eyes but I refused to back down.

"Hey! She told you to leave her alone you prick." my eyes caught the sight of the one and only Brian Haner Jr. 

"Fuck off man." I wanted to flinch at the look that took over Brian's face. 

Next thing I know a slight scream passed through my lips as I dove out of the way. The random guy fell to the floor after a single punch to the face.

Brian gently took a hold of my arm and pulled me back to the booth.

"Hey are you ok?" I couldn't meet his gaze as I continued to shake. 

"Yea I'm fine, just a little shaken. I'll be alright...."

I slid to the end of the booth closest to the wall so I could lean against it for support. My eyes closed as my head fell against the back of the booth.

I couldn't help but jump as a hand grabbed mine.

My eyes opened and found Brian sitting across from me. We were quiet for a moment until the rest of the group came back to the table.

"What the hell just happened? Are you ok Sky?" I looked over to Joelle who was almost crying with worry. She slid in next to me and wrapped her arms around me.

"I'm fine hun, promise."

I laughed as she grumbled under her breath. Only I heard what she said.

"If you sat you're fine one more time I'm going to have Thor kick your ass." Those two are wayyy to over protective. It's ridiculous.

"Scouts honor darling."

"You were never a scout..."

"....but I ate a brownie once."

The group laughed at our childishness as we glared at each other.

"Ok so I think we're gonna head out, thanks for inviting us Gena. Nice meeting you guys." I was pulled from the booth as Joelle spoke. It was nearing three in the morning and I was practically dead on my feet. We were pulled into hugs by each group member.  When I got to Brian I gave him a kiss on the cheek. 

"Thank you." my cheeks were heating up like no other.

"Anytime."

Joelle and I made our way from the room with our arms around each others waists.  I could tell she wanted to freak out and bomb me with questions. Thankfully she knew better.

We piled in the car and headed for home, not even bothering to talk. At the moment it was too much effort.