Cursed

A week. An entire week Finn has been avoiding me and I am not at all ok with it. One second I think we’re friends and the next we’re not. It seriously, really pisses me off and I’m tired of it. I thought tracking Finn down and talking to him would solve the problem however…Shailey has the absolute worst timing, ever. Or maybe it’s the best? Considering that she is in on this, whatever this is.

The girl shouts for me and at first I hadn’t realized it was her so I turned to see who was calling me and that’s how Finn manages to slip away. I growl angrily and run down the hall after the boy, hoping to catch up with him but damn…he’s fast!

Finn is out of the school building and in his car before I have anytime to ask him anymore questions. Shailey appears beside me, huffing from running after me. I glare at her from the corner of my eye. If the gnomes were here right now I would so order them to eat her big toe! Except they never to listen to me, ever but I’m sure this situation would be an exception!

“Kieran, what were you running for?”

I don’t bother answering because I know she’s just playing dumb. Since Finn left, Shailey and I have to ride the bus. She would normally complain about this but she hasn’t been recently and when I say recently, I mean this past week. Finn hasn’t even picked me up or took me home. What did I do?

I bite my lip and take a seat on the bus. Shailey doesn’t ride the same bus as me so she’s not with me. As the bus pulls out of school I sigh and rest my head against the window, watching things pass us by. I hate this. If I did something wrong, Finn should tell me. I know I can fix it!

And I still don’t know what that conversation between Shailey and Finn was about. I have no idea what it could even be about and I thought…because I told Finn I feel safe around him that’d help. Apparently it just made things worse and now here we are. I really…hate this.

“Mom…what do you do when someone is avoiding you?”

Mom looks away from the TV and towards me sitting beside her. “Well…it depends. Who is this person and why are they avoiding you?”

I sigh and curl up beside her. She rests an arm around me and pulls me into her side, cradling me. It makes me smile for what feels like the first time in a while. I’ve been so pissed and sad about Finn suddenly avoiding me that it’s all I’ve been thinking about and it just depresses me.

“Finn…I thought we were finally getting somewhere. We were finally hanging out and becoming friends but suddenly he started avoiding me and I know something is up but neither Shailey or Finn will tell me. I tried talking to him again but he wouldn’t say anything.”

“Aw, sweetie, I’m sure he has his reasons…and if he doesn’t I give you permission to punch him.”

I laugh and mom leans over to kiss my forehead. Sighing, she rubs my shoulder and continues, “I don’t really know what to tell you, Kieran. All I can say is you should continue trying to talk to him and find out what’s going on. If things don’t work out then…he isn’t worth it.”

I nod in agreement and smile thankfully at my mother. Kissing her cheek, I thank her and head up to my room. Like the last couple of days I try calling Finn but as usual, he doesn’t answer. I kick my bed and throw the phone at the wall. With a loud ‘thunk’ it lands on the floor and I angrily fling myself into bed, groaning into the pillows afterwards.

Stupid Finn. Stupid Shailey. I don’t know what’s up yet but you bet your asses I’ll find out! No matter what it takes.

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Shailey is trying to talk to me about it. “He has good reasons.”

“Really? What are these reasons then?” I wait for her reply but she’s reluctant to answer. Actually, she doesn’t answer at all. Shailey repeats herself and begs me to drop it but I refuse. Getting up, I trudge out of the cafeteria to go nowhere in particular.

Time to play detective! What do we have so far, sir? Well, we know that Finn is being mysterious and keeping to himself. He is avoiding me because he says ‘he’s not allowed to hang out with me.’ Shailey is in on it. She was the one lecturing him and telling him it isn’t safe for him to be around me and he can’t control himself. Shailey also has no desire to help me with fixing this problem. Is that it?

Yes, sir! That is all the information gathered so far. Now, lets try our best to figure out this mystery and find a solution, quick before detective Kieran gets furious!

The bell rings, lunch is over. I head towards my locker and it doesn’t even occur to me that I have to pass Finn’s to get to my own. When I see the boy at his locker I grin. This must be fate!

Before Mr. Mystery has the chance to see me, I run up to him. He barely has time to react when I grab him and tug him to the gym, which is located just beside his locker. There’s no one in the gym and this is the perfect time so I shove Finn into the wall and huff, “You are going to tell me what’s going on.”

“I can’t, Kieran. I would if I could but I can’t!”

“Like hell you can’t!” I jab my finger angrily against his chest. “You have a voice, fucking use it and tell me why are you avoiding me. Is it something I did? Did I do or say something wrong?”

“No!” Finn shakes his head.

“Does it have to do with that conversation you and Shailey had? I don’t know what this ‘can’t control yourself around Kieran’ or ‘you aren’t safe’ shit means but I trust you, Finn and I really like you! I want to at least be friends and I want to know what you and Shailey are hiding, please.”

I grip the fabric of Finn’s jacket and rest my head against his chest. I feel tired, like I just ran a marathon. My mind has been running, searching for answers this entire week and I’m worn out. Fuck, it’s more tiring to think about all this than search for the fairies in the garden and trust me that is tiring! Fairies are fast little bastards. They never let me catch them! I’ll prove they’re there though…one day.

Finn’s hands rest themselves on my shoulders and it feels so nice to have him touch me. The warmth from his hands makes me only curl up closer against him. Faintly, I can hear the beating of his heart against my ear. It’s nice.

“Kieran,” he sighs, his hot breath ghosting across my head. “You wouldn’t believe me if I did tell you.”

“Yes I would!” I look up at him and he looks so torn. I get this bubbling sensation in my chest because I think maybe, just maybe he’s going to tell me but when he frowns I realize that isn’t the case.

“I can’t say but…I guess I won’t skip first anymore and I’ll drive and take you home like before, ok? We just shouldn’t get too close though.”

I want to argue and order him to just tell me everything but I decide that it’s ok, for now. It’s progress and that’s all that matters. I guess next I’ll just have to corner Shailey.