Cursed

“You told me not to come over today but you’re still going to school!” Kieran yelled as he saw me in my car, waiting to pick him up. Shailey had to go to a meeting early in the morning so I didn’t have to pick her up.

“It’s the full moon. I trust that even you know the moons comes out at night,” I smirked as I unlocked the door for him. He climbed in the car as he pouted at me.

“You’re such a jerkface!” He cried but only just before he leaned over to press a kiss to my lips. “Anyways, you can’t blame me, I’m still getting used to all this new information.”

“I know, I know,” I groaned before he grabbed my hand playing with my fingers for just a second before pulling away so I could drive.

“My hands look so small and girly compared to your huge hands,” he whined before crossing his arms.

“But um… I think they fit together pretty well,” I said shyly.

“You’re so cute!” He squealed before wrapping both him arms around mine, probably realizing that a full hug would be too distracting.

“So, what are your plans for tonight?” I asked.

“Oh, just laying in bed, dying from the crippling loneliness… or gnomes. What if the gnomes attack me while you’re away!?”

I chuckled at his melodrama. Why is everything he says so adorable? “Seriously, though,” I said, still smiling.

“Me and Shailey are going to the mall and are going to have tons of fun without you!” He said, going right back to his pouting.

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That night, I felt the complete pull of the moon, the urge to just… run, to be free, to not use logic and use pure instinct. It was an empowering feeling, a strange feeling, yet so familiar.

My parents had left awhile before on their own runs. It wasn’t because they didn’t want to be with me, I just told them at one point that I could go by myself and they respected my wishes.

Occasionally, invading human thoughts would come to me and they would mostly be of Kieran and wondering what he was doing. But as soon as they surfaced, they disappear and animal instinct took over. I even ran with a few wolves, the difference barrier between our species dissipating completely, if only for one night. They accepted me as their own.

Soon enough, though, I became quite tired and began to walk back to the house. But then I thought I might go to see what Kieran was up to. I wouldn’t go near him though, it was a little dangerous. Besides, I thought I should go ahead and check to see if Markus’s scent was anywhere around his house since my senses were quite powerful tonight.

I was around the house for about an hour before a car pulled up and two people got out. I could tell by the scent they left, it was Kieran and Shailey and they both walked up to the front door. I lay on my paws while watching them. It’s a good thing that he and Shailey were friends, otherwise Kieran and I might not have a chance with each other at all.

But then I saw one silhouette of a person lean over intimately to the other. Normally, I wouldn’t have done anything at all because I knew I could trust Kieran. But tonight, instinct overrode logic, erasing every sane cell in my brain. I rushed up to the house as soon as Shailey left, quickly changing back to my human form. However, my claws and fangs couldn’t be hidden because of the power of the moon. Why was I so full of rage? Why couldn’t I get over this animal inside of me to stop what I was doing?

“Finn!” Kieran shouted, surprised to see me. “You scared me to death.” Then he chuckled, as if he’d done nothing wrong. He didn’t do anything wrong.

“What did you just do with her?” I growled.

His smiled dropped as I said that. He might have been able to accept the claws, and maybe the teeth, but not the abrasive growl I addressed him with.

“What?” He questioned.

“With Shailey just now. D-Did you… kiss her?” I asked, my unsure, human self coming out for only a second before it was overtaken by the demon inside.

“Why would I do that!? We’re just friends. You’re… acting weird Finn,” he said quietly, still looking scared.

“You’re mine,” I growled again. The logical part of me was terrified of my current self. All I could think was that I would hurt him, that I knew I easily could in this condition. I wanted to get as far away from Kieran as I could.

But, instead, I leaned in and pressed a harsh kiss to his lips. It was aggressive and controlling and not like any of the other ones we ever shared before. Though, I didn’t feel as if I was sharing this one. It felt like it was just me that was doing this.

One of my hands grabbed his arm and the nail dug into his flesh. “Ow!” He pulled away with a slight scream of pain.

That pulled the greater part of me back to reality as I’d realized what I’d done. I ran as far and as fast I could away from him. I hurt him, I hurt him, I hurt him.

He trusted me and I betrayed that trust. I became the monster I knew I was. The thing I should’ve protected Kieran from was myself. I scared even myself with what I’d done. Shailey’s family was right, I couldn’t be with Kieran because I was dangerous.