10 Miles Wide

I heard voices, "Why would she do that?" "I don't know but it scared the hell out of me to walk in the bathroom and see her laying there on the floor like that. She almost died Monte." "Max, how do you think Craig feels? He loves Izzy and she almost killed herself. How would you feel if Alli killed herself?" "Don't ever fucking say that!" I heard a door slam and l let out a quiet, "Oww." I heard footsteps, "Izzy?" I opened my eyes to see Bryan, "Bry bry." He hugged me carefully, "Why would you do that?" I looked down, feeling tears start, "I didn't think anyone would care. No one rally cares about me." Bryan sighed, "You have no clue, do you?" I was confused, "What?" He sighed, "Ever since you started living with us at the house, we all got attached to you. We're like a weird family." I smiled slightly, "Bryan? Why did you guys take me in?" He sighed, "You seemed so helpless. We felt like we needed to do something to help you and I guess taking you in made us feel better, knowing you were safe and no one would be able to hurt you." I had tears in my eyes as Bryan hugged me again, "Did you mean it? When you said I was becoming like a brother to you?" I nodded, "You, Max and Robert all have." He looked at me, "What about Craig?" I sighed, "Him, it's not so much a family love as it is something else." Bryan smirked, "You like Craig! As more than a friend!" He was yelling in a whisper voice, I laughed, "Yes, okay? Are you happy?" He nodded, "Well he wants to see you anyway, so I'll talk to you when you get out of the hospital in a few hours." I nodded, "Ok." Craig walked in slowly, he looked at me, tears forming in his eyes, "Why Izzy?" I looked down again, "I don't know Craig." He walked over and took my hand, "You could've talked to me, Bryan, Max or even Robert. Why did you try that? Do you want to end up dead? Or in that home again for a year this time?" I started crying, "I didn't think any of you would care! Why would you! You only knew me for a few days! It's not like you've known me my entire life, why do you care so god damn much Craig?! Why?!" He let go of my hand and stood up from the chair, "You wanna know why?! It's because I love you Izzy! That's why! I can't stand to see you suffer! When Max carried you out of that bathroom, I felt like my heart got ripped in two pieces! I thought you were dead!" I sighed, "Well maybe Max should've let me die! That's what I wanted!" Craig looked at me, tears running down his face, "Izzy, please? Let me show you that not every guy in the world is an asshole? Let me show you there are still guys that love girls for their personality and everything, not just their looks, please?!" I felt like it was getting hard to breathe because I was crying so hard, I sighed and just nodded. I felt Craig wrap his arms around me and kiss my forehead and whisper, "I would never let anyone or anything hurt you ever again Izzy. I love you too much." I cried harder at those words, when I finally stopped crying Craig was still holding me. A nurse came in and had me fill out some paper work and said we were free to go. I walked out holding Craig's hand, Max and Robert ran over and hugged me, Max spoke, "Don't ever do that again Izzy!" Robert nodded, "You scared the shit out of us! We thought you were dead!" I sighed and nodded and hugged both of them, "I'm sorry guys. I wasn't thinking very clear." I heard Craig sigh, "Guys, guess what?" They all turned and looked at him, "What?" He smiled, "She agreed to give me a chance." They looked at me and smiled, "That's fucking awesome!" I laughed slightly and got in the car, Craig drove home, which meant the boys were in the back and I was in front. We got to the house and Craig and I walked in, he wrapped his arm around my waist and kissed my cheek, "Wanna hear the entire lyrics to the song I was writting when we met?" I nodded, "Yeah." We walked to his room and sat on his bed he looked at me and sang,
"whoa yeah

you say you're getting closer
to that chance of suicide
tearing at your throat
you won't let it die
left me here for all these days
and ripped apart my pride

take my place and look inside
i'm trying to find a place
to hide, hide
lost my faith but don't you cry
i got a hole inside
and it's ten miles wide (yeah alright)

living on the coast cocktails and telling lies
gotta fucking crush coming to life
you left me here for all these days
and ripped apart my pride

take my place and look inside
i'm trying to find a place
to hide, hide
lost my faith but don't you cry
i got a hole inside
and it's ten miles wide

it's not too late i'm close behind
i've gotta get inside your mind, mind
lost my faith but don't you cry
i got a hole inside
and it's ten miles wide
wide, wide, wide...

take me on
i'm feeling in the mood
for something dangerous
i've found myself again (x2)

take my place and look inside
i'm trying to find a place
to hide, hide
lost my faith but don't you cry
i got a hole inside
and it's ten miles wide

well i lost myself and looked inside
it branded me for life
i can't help myself it's mine to hide
i got a hole inside
it's feeling ten miles
it's feeling ten miles
it's feeling ten miles wide

ten miles wide
ten miles wide
ten miles wide.
So what do you think?" I looked at him, "Was that first verse, about me?" He sighed, "It wasn't supposed to be but I guess the first like line of it was. You don't need to try that anymore, I love you too much to let it happen Izzy." I nodded slightly, "I'm sorry Craig."