Save your heart.

It was lunchtime and I was alone at home.
I had already eaten a sandwich and had nothing planned to do.

"Wait!" I said to myself before running upstairs. "Dad's camera!" I said loudly when I got into my room. "Where did I leave it?"
After a little more than 30 minutes, I finally found my dad's professional camera. I took the SD card out of it and rushed to turn my laptop on. My parents, my brother and I had been on holiday a couple of months before the accident. "Please, please, please." I begged, wanting to see -maybe, nonexistent- photos I'd never seen before.

I inserted the card and a new window popped out. I started crying when I saw there were a couple of hundreds of photos of us four.

After looking through all the photos, I decided to choose the best ones and take them to the nearest photography shop to print them.

***

"Hey, James?" I called my brother.
"Jess?"
"Ya, are you at home?"
"Nope, I'm at the grocery shop."
"Can you come meet me in that Starbucks near your house when you're done?"
"Sure! I'll be there as soon as I can!"
"Okay, bye!"

I found a parking spot by my brother's house, just around the corner. I grabbed the plastic bag of the photography shop and walked to Starbucks.

It had been less than 10 minutes of waiting when my brother appeared.

"You look good, Jess! And nice T-Shirt, by the way." He took a seat. I was wearing a Queen T-Shirt, one of my favorite bands of all time.
"Thanks! You look good, too!"
"I have to tell you something."
"Hold on a second. First, do you remember last time we went on vacation?"
"Ye-yeah, with mom and dad, why?"
"I found dad's camera."
"Did you?"
"Yeah, and there are a bunch of photos in the memory card."
"Really!?"
"I took some of them to the photography shop...and I thought you'd like this." I gave the big plastic bag to him.
James smiled while he opened the bag.
"Wow!" He said. I could see him getting his eyes get tearful. "Thank you very very much Jessie. I love you."
"I love you too." I said as I stood up to hug him.
"I'm gonna hang it up as soon as I get home." He smiled.
"I'm glad you liked it." I smiled him back.

It was a bit expensive, but I thought James would love to have the black and white photo of us four in the beach in Cancun. Plus it was as big as a painting, because I had had it enlarged.

In the photo, mom and dad were sitting in two deckchairs. James and I were behind, he was hugging dad from behind and I was kissing mom on the cheek. Dad was touching one of James' arms, that were on his chest, and his the other hand was holding mom's. We were all smiley and it was the most beautiful photo I'd ever seen.

"It's been difficult for me, too." He finally told me.
"I know..." I got back to my seat and James and I held hands on the table.
"But I had to take care of you, when I had no idea how to, so I just had to swallow all of my feeling when I was with you." His face made me sad.
"I'm sorry..."
"Don't be sorry, Jessie." He half smiled.
There was a silence.
"I just miss the so bad sometimes." He said.
"Me too..."
And there was another silence. We were just touching each others hands, we understood each other, we loved each other, and we knew we had each others back.

"What did you have to tell me?" I finally said.
"Oh, yes!" He giggled.
"Is it about that girl? Kate...right?"
"Ya. I asked her out.."
"And...?" I was excited.
"We're dating, I guess."
"Are you? Really?" I smiled widely.
"Yes."
"I'm so happy for you!"
"Thanks." He laughed. "And what about you and John?"
"Good. I guess I'll call him when you leave" I laughed.
"You better start finding your phone now." He laughed. "I'm about to leave."
"We should meet again soon. You could show me how the photo fits in your house." I smiled.
"You can come whenever you want. And you can bring John too if you want." He smiled.
"Alright!"
James stood up and zipped his jacket. "Well, I have to go now." I stood up too and he hugged me. "Thank you very much, Jay." He kissed me on the cheek and I kissed him back.
"I love you, James!" I shouted when he was some meters away, making everyone look at me as if I was mad. He turned to me and shouted "me too, sister!". Everyone seemed disappointed when they heard we were brother and sister.