In the Eyes of Strangers

After the shoot, I glared as Dylan and Jay fucked around with Shane while Jordon attempted to talk to me.

“Bro, just go over there.” I looked over at him, cocking my eyebrow. “Quit glaring at them and go talk to her.”

I rolled my eyes, but went over there anyway; Jay noticed me first and stood up, telling Shane something. She looked up at him with confusion in her eyes then she glanced over and saw me. Dylan stood up too and the two of them headed in my direction, nodding as they walked by me. “Hullo Jonathan.” she said in her thick accent when I finally came over. Without a word, I grabbed her hand and yanked her up before dragging her out of the warehouse. When we got out side, she dropped my hand. “What can I help you with?”

“Three fucking years!” I snapped, causing her to jump slightly. “Why the fuck did you come back now!?”

“Because the label hired me to do the shoot.” she replied in a “duh” tone.

“Why did you agree?”

“Because I could.” I before I could even think, I reached out and slapped her across the face; I felt my eyes widen when I realized what I’d just done. She reached up, rubbing her cheek. “Just like old times, eh?” I opened my mouth to apologize, but she reached up and grabbed a handful of my sandy colored hair, yanking my head down before crashing her lips onto mine. I didn’t even think, just slid my arms around her waist and kissed her back just as roughly. I pinned her up against the wall then slid my hands down to her perfect ass.

She jumped slightly when I gave her cheeks a good, hard squeeze which caused me to laugh before picking her up; her legs wrapped around my waist. When I pulled away, I could see the disappointment flicker in her eyes. “Why did you leave?” I demanded.

“You know why.” I cocked my eyebrow and she rolled her eyes. “I wasn’t going to be responsible for destroying your relationship.”

I move one of my hands, tucking some of her blonde hair behind her ear. “I missed you,” I confessed, my voice breaking. “So much.”

“I missed you too.” she pulled my head down slightly and pressed her lips softly to my forehead. “But I’m back now love and I’m never leaving you again.” with that, she removed her arms from around my neck and her legs from my waist, dropping in front of me. “Let’s go to my hotel, eh?” I nodded, slipping my hand in hers before she led me across the parking lot to silver SUV parked next to my Escalade. “This yours?” she asked, nodding at my truck. I nodded and a smile slipped across her perfect lips.

I took the key from her then walked around to the passenger side and opened the door before helping her up into it. I felt her smile beneath my lips as I kissed her before pulling away to shut the door. I felt myself smile when I shut the door and began to walk around to the driver’s side. As I got in, I couldn’t help but notice all the bags on the backseat. “So you’re really back? To stay?” I asked her.

“I told you that I wasn’t leaving you again.”

I smiled again. “Good…‘cause I don’t think I could take it if you did.” I barely survived when I realized she wasn’t coming back almost three years ago, drinking myself into a stupor nearly every night; of course, that caused lots of fights with Asia. “How was the flight?”

“Bloody long.” I couldn’t help but laugh. “I’ve got a room booked at the Regent Beverly Wilshire.” she told me.

“Really?” I asked dubiously.

We got plenty of looks when we walked into the hotel fifteen minutes later; most of them were directed at me due to my tattoos, but I didn’t give a shit and neither did she. She strode confidently up to the front desk and gave the elderly woman her name. She looked at me wearily before typing in her name then handing her a room key. Shane smiled at her cockily then dragged me over to the elevators.

The room her grandfather booked turned out to be the penthouse suite, which caused her to roll her eyes in annoyance when we both realized it. She unlocked the door anyway and I followed her inside, shutting the door behind us; she headed straight for the bedroom and kicked off her shoes before collapsing facedown onto the California King bed.

“Go to sleep doll.” I murmured, kissing the top of her head.

“You don’t have to leave?” she asked tiredly.

“Nope, now go to sleep.”

“Sing my song?”

“Take my hand, let’s go
Somewhere we can rest our souls
We’ll sit where it’s warm
You say “look, we’re here alone”

I was running in circles
I hurt myself
Just to find my purpose

Everything was so worthless
I didn’t deserve this
But to me you were perfect

I’m scattered through this life
If this is life, I’ll say goodbye

She’s gone like an angel
With wings let me burn tonight

I was running in circles
I hurt myself
Just to find my purpose

Everything was so worthless
I didn’t deserve this
But to me you were perfect

I see me, writin’ on this paper
Prayin’ for some savior

In a world so, so godless, so thoughtless
I don’t know how we wrought this
All the love that you brought us

It feels like I’m killin’ myself
Just willing myself
Just to pray for some help

I’d give it all just to have, have your eternity
‘Cause it’s all that assures me
It’s worth all that hurts me

I’d give you my heart
And I’d let you just hold it
I’d give you my soul
But I already sold it

On that day
That day I walked away in December
I will always remember
I’ll regret it forever

I remember brown eyes
So sad and blue skies
Turned to darkness and night
I’m so sick of the fight

I won’t breathe unless you breathe
Won’t bleed unless you bleed
Won’t be unless you be
‘Til I’m gone and I can sleep

I was running in circles
I hurt myself
Just to find my purpose

Everything was so worthless
I didn’t deserve this
But to me you were perfect

I’ve gone away
Seen better times than yesterday (I hurt myself)
It’s hard to say
That everything will be okay (I hurt myself)

I’ve gone away
Seen better times than yesterday (I hurt myself)
It’s hard to say
That everything will be okay (I hurt myself).”