You're Never Gonna Find It if You're Looking for It
Sit and Drink Pennyroyal Tea...
Zoe begged me to stay.
She begged me until even Bert was on his knees.
so i stuck around.
I mean, i honestly had nothing better to do.
But when Jeph came around...
Boy, was i pissed.
"Hey, Hazel, can i talk to you?" Jeph asked.
I glared at him. "Sure."
I knew exactly what i was going to do.
He led me off to a sort of secluded place. I half expected him to start sort of...raping me, and beating me and stuff, because of where we were.
But even before he said i word, i started it all.
I slapped him. "What the fuck is wrong with you!?" I yelled at him. He looked very taken aback. "You fucking lead me on, get me into thinking you like me, only to fucking turn around and already have a girlfriend! Seriously, what the fuck goes on in your fucking mind?"
He just sat there, slightly shocked and with a hint of hurt in his eyes.
I ignored it. How could i do anything else? He fucking hurt me, and he was going to get what he deserved.
I walked back to the skate park, with every intention of leaving if i wasn't afraid of what Zoe would do to me if i didn't stay.
I sat on a bench outside of the fence that blocked the ramps, and just stared at the ground.
I was so stupid to think that, even if it was just for a second...that the way he talked to me...and looked at me...actually meant something.
((A/N: Ahaha, Roxannes sitting next to me, saying 'She needs a hug' ahaha. Funny))
Jeph ended up coming back after a couple of minutes.
My first thought was 'How can he just fucking show his face like that?'
I could have slapped him again. But before, we werent in public, so it was like 'Oh, I can do this, and people won't be nosy!'. But in public, people would either be all 'Fight! Fight! Fight! Fight!' or 'What's happening!?'
He gave me a few sympathetic glances, and i only shot him glares in return.
I don't think i could ever understand how he could do that to me...
All that actual thinking about him was completely in vain...
i felt so stupid...
And used.
She begged me until even Bert was on his knees.
so i stuck around.
I mean, i honestly had nothing better to do.
But when Jeph came around...
Boy, was i pissed.
"Hey, Hazel, can i talk to you?" Jeph asked.
I glared at him. "Sure."
I knew exactly what i was going to do.
He led me off to a sort of secluded place. I half expected him to start sort of...raping me, and beating me and stuff, because of where we were.
But even before he said i word, i started it all.
I slapped him. "What the fuck is wrong with you!?" I yelled at him. He looked very taken aback. "You fucking lead me on, get me into thinking you like me, only to fucking turn around and already have a girlfriend! Seriously, what the fuck goes on in your fucking mind?"
He just sat there, slightly shocked and with a hint of hurt in his eyes.
I ignored it. How could i do anything else? He fucking hurt me, and he was going to get what he deserved.
I walked back to the skate park, with every intention of leaving if i wasn't afraid of what Zoe would do to me if i didn't stay.
I sat on a bench outside of the fence that blocked the ramps, and just stared at the ground.
I was so stupid to think that, even if it was just for a second...that the way he talked to me...and looked at me...actually meant something.
((A/N: Ahaha, Roxannes sitting next to me, saying 'She needs a hug' ahaha. Funny))
Jeph ended up coming back after a couple of minutes.
My first thought was 'How can he just fucking show his face like that?'
I could have slapped him again. But before, we werent in public, so it was like 'Oh, I can do this, and people won't be nosy!'. But in public, people would either be all 'Fight! Fight! Fight! Fight!' or 'What's happening!?'
He gave me a few sympathetic glances, and i only shot him glares in return.
I don't think i could ever understand how he could do that to me...
All that actual thinking about him was completely in vain...
i felt so stupid...
And used.