If Love Is Sweet, What Is This, Draco Malfoy?

I woke up feeling rested and quite warm. Opening my eyes, I saw Draco smiling at me, his hand still around my waist. It seems that through the night I had hugged into Draco more and more so that my leg was tangle up in his and I was hugging him
“Sorry, I would have kept my hands to myself but I didn’t want to wake you” he said, nodding towards his hand. I nodded and he retrieved his arm.
“What’s the time?” I yawned, and Draco looked at his table clock.
“2:15” he told me, and my eyes widened
“What?! Draco McGonagall must have multiplied her detention by now, and we’ve only got 45 minutes of the day left!! We’re going to have detentions to last us until we leave this school! Why didn’t you wake me?” I gasped, getting up and pulling on my school clothes in a rush before taking them off and heading towards the shower first
“Because you looked so beautiful lying there like that” he said simply, and I rolled my eyes
“We have to go Draco. Now. Come on” I said, as I went into the shower. I had a shower in record time and got dressed. I decided to leave my hair in a bed look and just scraped it up into a high pony tail and deciding not to do my make-up. When I was dressed, I urged Draco to hurry up so that we could catch the last half an hour of lessons. We ran down to potions and got their breathless and looking a mess basically. Well… Draco looked amazing with his bed look hair and uncared looking uniform. I on the other hand just looked like a big fashion crisis.
“And where have you two been?” Snape questioned. I opened then closed my mouth
“We slept in late after our detention last night” Draco lied
“That detention was for an hour. And you two did not attend it” Snape said. Draco just shrugged and pulled me towards our seat
“Mist… ten points off Slytherin. Draco, 20 points for Slytherin for finding Mist and bringing her back here” Snape said. My blood started to boil as I steamed up, but Draco put a hand on my shoulder and whispered calm down to me. We sat down in our seats, ignoring the looks everyone was giving us. Obviously after coming in looking a mess, breathless and together – With what happened yesterday, people jumped to conclusions. Many guys cheered Draco, someone even said “Got the last one mate” and I glared at him. Obviously they thought Draco had bedded the last girl from Slytherin. I sighed. I didn’t really care what they said anymore. They could say what they liked. I stared at the table, waiting for Draco bring the potions over to us
“What’s wrong?” he asked me. I glared at him, and he smiled “I know Snape’s a jerk but it happens to most” he said gently
“Yeah, to most Gryffindors! Why am I so different from Slytherins? I’m picked on by Snape, and I don’t find you attractive in any way shape or form. And ask any Slytherin girl in this room and they will all say they’ve seen you clothe less except me! I bet you could get the Ravenclaws if they weren’t too smart and saw straight through you. The Hufflepuffs are too scared of you, and the Gryffindors detest you. You’ve gotten every girl you can except me, and you carry around so many condoms that there’s hardly any room for books in your bag!” I spat, glaring viciously. I didn’t care that everyone could hear us. They were all nosy gits anyway. Except my friends. I heard Pansy laughing
“So you went to his room but he found you so disgusting that he didn’t sleep with you? Even I’ve seen him naked” Pansy boasted. I sent her daggers
“Only because she has more dignity than you slags, and you saw me naked because you knew I was getting changed and you walked into my room. And besides, I was only partially naked. And in that case, Maia has done so too” Draco growled, glaring at Pansy. She gaped at him
“That slag saw you with underwear on, and you just let her look at you, but when I tried, you shoved me out of the room!” Pansy exclaimed, close to tears.
“Does that upset you Pansy?” I sneered. She glared at me
“Well you know Draco offered sex to me. I would have said yes if father hadn’t stopped Draco from going into the same room as me!” Pansy scoffed
“I was drunk. And my girlfriend just dumped me. You’re the first uggo I could find that I knew I could just ditch straight after” Draco groaned.
“It’s ok Draco; you don’t have to give me an answer to everything. We’re not together” I muttered, as I stirred the potion. Draco sent Pansy a death glare
“I didn’t mean it like that” he said gently
“No that’s ok. You know what Draco? You’re apparently the Slytherin sex god or something. Since when have you actually cared about a girl? Just go back to shagging girls five times a day and stop wasting your time on me ok?” I hissed, perfecting the potion. Draco looked hurt
“I care about you” he said pointedly, and my memory flashed back to the time we were married when he loved me too much to let me go even though I was unfaithful. Tears jumped to my eyes, more angry at myself. Draco saw the tears and figured out what was going through my head. I poured the potion into the vial quickly, spilling it because of my shaking hand, before leaving the lesson ten minutes early
“No Maia I didn’t mean it like that!” Draco cried desperately, as he ran after me. I ignored him and went up into the girl’s dorms so that he couldn’t come towards me. I ignored his calls from below and went to my room to find the girl previously sleeping on my bed gone. My sheets and pillow were changed into fresh ones and there was a note on my pillow
Maia,
So sorry that you actually came back into the room. I noticed the note was moved today and knew at once you had come back. I feel terrible for kicking you out like that, you know I didn’t mean to. I would have told you this in person but I have a feeling I might not see you until break time or a free period. I just figured you’d sleep in Draco’s room. Obviously you’re not a slag. Am so, so sorry, honestly. I went down in the morning to the common room to see if you’d slept there, feeling like crap for doing that to you. I know I shouldn’t have, my instincts just took over me. I really am sorry. I didn’t mean to judge you. I didn’t find you in the common room either. I hope I will see you at breakfast, if you come down. I was wondering if you’d slept in another room by any chance. Obviously you wouldn’t have slept in Kat’s room. Pansy is there. I know you’d rather sleep in the forbidden forest rather than share a room with Pansy even for one night even when she’s asleep already. I will hopefully see you later, or tonight. I truly and honestly am sorry. I feel really, really bad. Again, I apologise. Hope you forgive me, bestie 
Hailey

I put the note on the other side of the drawer and decided to stay in my room seeing as potions was our last lesson of the day. I was about to fall asleep after the classes were let out, before seeing an owl pecking at the window. I got up dreamily and went over to see whose owl it was. It was Draco’s. As much as I didn’t want to send an owl back knowing it had failed it’s purpose, I hated everything to do with Draco right now, so I flapped my hand at the owl in a ‘go away’ sign. I went to have a shower and came back out an hour or so later to see the owl still pecking at the window tiredly. Draco must have known I would ignore it, and told the owl not to come back without a reply. Usually this would make me smile. It just annoyed me more than ever right now. Hailey, Daphne and Selena walked into the room, looking worried
“Maia! There you are! We looked around the entire school before we decided to see if you were up here. Thank god you are” Selena said, coming over to me and hugging me
“Are you ok Maia? You just ran out of potions after yelling at Draco. What was that all about” Daphne asked worriedly. I just shook my head
“I don’t want to talk about it” I muttered.
“Oh god Maia I am so, so sorry about last night! I mean I so didn’t mean to force you into sleeping next to Draco, really. And I felt terrible knowing everyone was whispering about you two because of what I did” Hailey said, looking gutted. I smiled and hugged her
“Don’t be silly. You were right though, I did go down to the common room. Draco found me there and insisted I should sleep in his room, and we slept in today. By the time we got up, there was about half an hour left of school” I told her, pulling away
“I swear I will never be a bitch like that again! God I feel so bad about it Maia!” Hailey whined
“It’s ok. I forgive you” I told her, and she smiled a small smile.
“How about we have a girly day today to make it up to you?” Selena asked, knowing I couldn’t resist. I grinned
“Ok Maia I can’t hold it in any longer. Are you either going to answer that damned owl or will I have to stab a nail file through its eye to stop it from pecking a hole through the window?” Daphne snapped, the constant pecking of the owl finally getting to her. I had forgotten all about the owl, but it came back to my mind now
“Oh… that’s been there for about an hour now” I sighed. They stared at me, before opening the window to let the owl in
“Who the hell is that determined to… oh” Hailey said, pulling the owl in through the window. I rolled my eyes and pulled the note off the leg viciously. I ripped it in my anger as I opened it, and read it quickly

Maia.
I know you must be upset with me right now, and I apologise. I know I have made you upset, and seeing tears in your eyes kills me. You know that I love you Maia, no matter what. You can choose to believe that my love is just friendly, but deep down you know the truth. I know we’re trying to start on a fresh plate but I’m not fulfilling that too well am I? I really, truly am sorry, Maia. You know that, right? I hope you will forgive me. I will hopefully see you tomorrow. I really did enjoy yesterday, just spending time with you and doing careless, forbidden things. I have to say, I enjoyed being around you even more than sex. I know that you may think of me as the same jerk I used to be before, that slept with anything that walked and talked, but since I met you I gave up sex jut for you. I really didn’t mean to anger you, and I’m sorry for screwing up so many times. I really hope you will forgive me. I know you’ve had it tough lately, and the other students’ careless whispering really did not help. Once again, I am honestly sorry. Forgive me, Maia. I hope to see you tomorrow, but I understand if you do not wish to see me and will allow you to have your space. Once again, I’m sorry Maia. For everything.
Draco.

My anger sizzled out as I read his letter, and by the end, I actually felt sympathetic. The last two words made me cringe. Even though we were starting fresh, I had a feeling that the last sentence meant before and after coming back to Hogwarts. It should be me that apologised. And as much as I wanted to, I knew that if I did it would be harder to let go of the past. I may never let go of it completely, but over time it would fade. As I got a new history. A new past. I sighed and flipped the paper over before grabbing a quill.

Draco,
Yes, I am upset with you. For a reason of which I do not know. You have the right to have a past where you could screw any girl you wanted to. You still can. It’s just one day you tell me you love me. The next day you confuse me and anger me by recalling the memories of you and some other slag. It’s hard to let go of your past and just start fresh. I am finding it difficult too. Don’t upset yourself over something like that. I’m glad that I can entertain you in another way than sex. That way we can still be close friends. I don’t know what to think of you anymore. You’ve shown me so many different sides to you, Draco. I just wish I knew which side was the true you. I won’t be mad if the true you is a jerk that enjoys sleeping with any girl you can get. I would be glad that I can be clear about whom you are and your intentions. I find it amazing that you would give up sex for me, but how can I be sure of that? Should I just take your word for it and hope that you are telling the truth? You’ve lied to so many other girls to get them into bed, making them feel like they’re the only one that mattered. How am I supposed to know that I’m any different to them? You see that I honestly can’t trust you Draco. It’s just the way things are. Before and now. It’s always been that way. I’m sorry to say this but it is the truth. I really wish you were just a little more human. And you thought about others before yourself, but you and I both know that you put yourself before others. How are we supposed to have a relationship in which you care about yourself more than me? I’m sorry to shove the cold, hard truth right in front of you face. Honestly, I am and I wish I didn’t have to say this to you but someone had to. You’ve always been this way and you’ll never change. I should know that more than most.

My heart felt heavy as we set up a beauty parlour in the room, doing any beauty treatment that we could. We even died our hair with a caramel blonde streak each, which went well with my brunette hair, and Hailey was a blonde so it looked good on her. Selena had black hair so the caramel blonde came out as a dark brown on her hair, and suited her well. Daphne was a red head, so her hair looked nice as well with the added streak. By the time we went to sleep, I was laughing and giggling and fully cheered up again, but deep down my heart still ached

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