If Love Is Sweet, What Is This, Draco Malfoy?

As I entered my first lesson – potions – I felt even more annoyed, because I couldn’t find an answer to Daphne’s surprisingly deep question. I sat down, ignoring Malfoy completely. He knew that when I had ‘the look’ in my eye, I didn’t need to be disturbed.
“Today, class, we are making a lust potion. To those that are pitifully helpless…” Snape started, looking at Harry until Slytherins started laughing, before switching his gaze to me. I glared at him, and he flinched slightly before going back to his speech “Should just give up now” he mumbled. “First, precautions” Snape sighed “First, under no circumstances are you to give lust potion to anyone, and neither are you permitted to take any with you, or the ingredients to make one. If you mess around with a potion as strong as this, given to someone not in love, it can make them fall deeply in love with the next person they see. The victim will then be in love for the next hour, giving them plenty of time to… pursue what is going through their mind…” Snape hissed, as a few girls started giggling, knowing what he meant, while a few Slytherin smirked. “It can be especially dangerous if given to the likes of Mr. Malfoy, Mr. Weather, Mr. Goyle, Mr. Crabbe and Mr. Damon who seem never to back down” Snape said, looking at each in turn. I wasn’t surprise that Malfoy’s name had sprung to mind first. Malfoy usually didn’t need lust potion to carry out what was in his mind. “And if this potion is not made correctly and given to a student, it can be poisonous. Anyone caught doing anything I forbid will instantly be suspended” he spat, before turning around and starting to scribble on the board “And if you talk, I can hear you. And don’t think I will keep you from detention. That includes you, Slytherins” Snape said as he wrote on the board
Lust potion
Lady bird antennas and legs
Frog eye balls
“Frog eye balls are recommended only, as it is in most potions. It only strengthens the potion and lasting time and makes it better overall. It can also fix small mistakes. We are low on Frog eye balls, so it is not compulsory as usual, so you will have to take more care. Do not fight over them, or else there shall be none for any of you. Slytherins get your ingredients first” Snape said, as he crossed a line sharply under lust potion. The list continued for a while, and I waited for Malfoy to go and get the ingredients. He returned with two sets of ingredients, and Snape clicked his tongue at Malfoy
“Work together, Mr Malfoy, and don’t reject that order like before, Miss. Mist. Now give those ingredients to Miss Werther and finish your potion” Snape told Malfoy, before going to get a few more Frogs for the rest of Slytherin. I glared at Faye as she took the ingredients from Malfoy, and then she looked back at Kat, smirking. Faye put the ingredients on her table before flouncing over to me with Kat flanking her. Daphne came to my side, with Hailey next to her and Selena next to Hailey. They all glared at Faye as she approached me. Everyone was watching me, which pissed me off more. Faye leant towards me and whispered
“I know why you’re angry” she sneered. I scoffed
“Go on, tell us why” Daphne said, and I whacked her side before she realised and shut her mouth. I glared at Faye, and she smirked
“If you’re so called best friend insists. You’re upset because I had sex with Draco” she said triumphantly. Malfoy’s mouth dropped; his eyes wide as he gaped at Faye. Obviously he thought that would stay a secret. I glared at Faye, my eyes flashing red. “See? I told you I knew” she told me, looking proud of herself.
“Why are you so proud of yourself? Are you proud that you’re a smelly whore? Go shove that face in your mum’s hairy cleavage!” I spat at her acidly. She glared at me, before smiling sweetly
“Still not gotten into bed with Draco?” she asked in a sickly sweet voice. I curled my hand into a fist and pulled it back before punching her face.
“Go fuck yourself!” I hissed, before flitting her towards her table and making her collapse it with my wand.

I glared at the potion, shoving the ingredients in and squelching them together before stirring violently, the potion spilling everywhere because of too much force being used. Snape walked back into the room and saw Faye getting up off the floor, the collapsed table unfixed. He was going to say something, but didn’t, and looked for an explanation of the broken table. Everyone looked at me and could feel Snape glaring at me, but ignored him and carried on mixing the potion abusively. Snape came to my side
“Miss Mist” he hissed in my ear, sounding very much like a snake of some sort
“What?” I snapped. He glared at me but I out-glared him.
“I want you to fix that table, re-do the potion correctly, and then you are to come to detention tonight at 3pm to 8pm, and if you refuse, I shall suspend you” Snape spat. I glared at him, before whipping my wand out and fixing the table before restarting the potion “And work together” he spat. Snape glared at the entire class before walking out, especially glaring at me, and I held my glare until he shut the door. I slammed my wand on the table and folded my arms across my chest before sitting back down. Malfoy looked at me carefully, before restarting the potion. Stupid suck up. I glared at the cauldron, biting on my tongue so that I didn’t cry.
I don’t know why I would cry. It just sort of took over my body. In the end, a single tear rolled down my eye, and I ended it at that. Malfoy looked over at me constantly, and noticed the tear running down my eye. He looked back at the cauldron, hanging his head.
After that, Malfoy didn’t look at me often. He just kept to himself and finished the potion before handing it in as our work. I averted my gaze from him, looking at Blaise instead, and smiled. He grinned back at me, and I felt the same butterflies I’d felt all those nights ago at Malfoy’s party when Blaise first asked me to dance. Malfoy saw me gazing at Blaise and he scowled before sitting next to me.
My path of view was blocked by Malfoy sitting down in between us. I looked down at my book, not wanting to look at Malfoy.

I had to stay behind with Snape to go through a ‘few issues’. I rolled my eyes and waited for him with my hands crossed over my chest.
Malfoy seemed to take a sudden interest in finishing all his potions homework in class. “So miss Mist… you have been a rude student, but you are worse than usual… care to explain why?” he asked me.
“No thank you” I said, extra polite just to annoy him. He glared at me for a while
“And the problems between you are Mr. Malfoy…”
“Are personal” I said pointedly. He nodded, before walking back to his desk. “Is that all?” I asked him. Snape looked thoughtful for a minute before nodding. Draco seemed to be finished all of a sudden, and started slotting his books into his bag hurriedly. Who was he trying to fool? And how dare he try to talk to me anyway? I packed my stuff into my bag and then walked out of class silently to see Blaise waiting for me, and smiled. “That’s a nice surprise” I said, as I saw him. He grinned before pulling me into an unexpected hug
“Do you want to hang with me today? I mean, there’s only a little while left of break…” he said thoughtfully. I grinned and nodded. It was nice to take a fresh breath from everything that happened. It was like watching people doing anything and everything all over the place in a jungle that was packed with colours and movements that hurt your head the more you thought about it; to sliding the scene along to a white, simple building with a window you were looking through to see the sort of sea that you would see in somewhere tropical with the cool, calm waves. It felt blissful and made me sigh in relief, to take a break, I suppose, from everything going on. From my anger, from my sadness, from my confusion. I nodded, grinning, and he took my hand in a friendly way before walking away from potions. I heard the door close behind us and jumped, looking behind to see Malfoy looking from Blaise to me, and then to our linked hands. I ignored him and continued to walk with Blaise, who didn’t seem to notice Malfoy behind us. “So where do you want to go?” he asked, as we walked down the corridor. I thought about it for a moment. Exploring was fun, but that was something I had done with Malfoy.
“I’m not sure” I said slowly. Blaise looked at me hesitantly
“Well… what did you do when you and Malfoy were spending time together?” he asked me. I shrugged
“Exploring, the usual” I muttered. Blaise nodded
“So did you want to go exploring with me?” he asked childishly, seeming happy again. I smiled. Seeing him happy made me happy.
“No” I said thoughtfully “I think we should do something else” I told him. Blaise looked at me strangely.
“Why? Did you not enjoy exploring or something?” he asked me. I shook my head
“Yes… well no… I mean… I enjoyed it… it’s just…” I said, not knowing what to say. Blaise nodded, looking back at the floor
“That’s what you did with Malfoy” he said, swiftly slipping his hand out of mine. I stopped walking to look at him
“No that’s not what I meant… well that is… but in a good way… for you” I said, confusing myself even a little. I took his hand back in mine “What I mean is… it was what I did with Malfoy… and I don’t want to because… I don’t want anything reminding me of that asshole” I explained. Blaise smiled
“Oh… ok… well… what do you want to do then?” he asked me. I shrugged “Why don’t we go into the forbidden forest?” he asked me in a daring voice. I stopped to look at him, doing a double take. Blaise laughed “I’m joking. Of course we wouldn’t go there… unless… I mean… you wanted to?” he asked. I laughed and shook my head. Blaise looked upset slightly, and then took his hand out of mine for the second time. “This is too awkward for you isn’t it?” he asked me. I shook my head
“No! No, that’s not… no” I told him, alarmed. Blaise smiled sadly
“No I can see it is… there’s an awkward feel to this, and our conversation sort of tailed out the further we took it. And I mean… you haven’t even finished a proper sentence without pausing once. It’s ok Maia. I understand” he told me gently. Out of the corner of my eye, I could see Malfoy was still following us silently
“No of course that’s not what I meant…” I said, and then sighed, paused, before talking again “Number one – I don’t like Malfoy. Number two – this isn’t awkward. Number three – I do enjoy spending time with you, and number four – you need to stop doubting our friendship” I said sternly, looking him in the eye. Blaise raised his eyebrows before his smile stretched so big it was like he had seen sunshine for the first time in his life after living in a cold, dark cave.
“Honestly?” he asked me.
“Honestly” I told him, and smiled before walking with him again. I was wondering whether I should put my hand back into his, and it hovered slowly towards his before coming back to my side. Maybe he didn’t feel comfortable with that. I walked a few more steps and felt Blaise insert his hand into mine. He looked at me and grinned, and I smiled back.
“Blaise?” I asked, as we started walking towards the less populated areas.
“Yeah?” he replied, looking me.
“Where are we going?” I asked him. He smiled and looked back towards the front
“Somewhere special” he whispered, before climbing up a flight of steps with me. I heard shuffling behind me and knew Malfoy was still behind us. How sad is he?? I carried walking with Blaise until we got to the last flight of stairs, which I knew well
“The owlery?” I asked, surprised. He grinned.
“You’ll see” he said mysteriously, before leading me up the narrow stairs to the owlery. It was too narrow for us to walk side by side so that I had to walk in front of him and felt conscious of how I looked from behind. I went into the owlery to see birds hooting. Well… this was interesting. I still enjoyed the view you could see, so I found it sort of exciting. More… relaxing. I smiled at him and went to sit on the window ledge, looking out at the view, smiling. Blaise smiled automatically as he saw me smile, and then chuckled after a while. I looked back at him, waiting for him to explain “Why are you over there?” he asked me, looking amused. I stared at Blaise for a while
“Why… did you come here to… feed the owls or something?” I asked, looking doubtfully at the cages. He laughed. How was I supposed to know how guys’ minds worked??
“You silly girl. We haven’t gotten there yet” he said, and put his hand out for me to take it. Malfoy hadn’t entered the room but I had a strong suspicion that he had pressed his ear against the door. I walked over to where he was standing right in the corner of the room doubtfully, and took his hand, before he pulled me close all of a sudden. My breath caught up, and he looked into my eyes before lifting me up slowly, and turning my head, I saw a slight gap in the wall. “Slip your hand into that crack” he told me. I smirked as I re-heard that sentence with a dirty mind, and felt Blaise laughing silently as he realised why I was smirking. I slotted my hand into the dent, and felt it open wider so that it revealed quite a large gap. I gaped “Try and crawl in there. If you fall, don’t worry, I’ll catch you” he promised me, and I looked at the gap doubtfully. Even though it was larger, I didn’t think I was that small
“Um… have you tried this before?” I asked him. Blaise laughed
“No… but it can’t be dangerous can it? Besides, I’m too big for that gap” he told me. I looked back at him after hanging onto the gap and letting go of him.
“What makes you think I’ll fit?” I asked. Blaise smiled
“Just trust me. Don’t you want to know what’s in there?” he asked me, and I looked back at the gap before pulling myself up to a sitting position in the gap
“So how come you haven’t brought another girl here?” I asked, as I crawled into the small space to see that there was a metal cage blocking my entrance into a small tube like corridor; sort of like when someone in a movie has to climb into the air vents and they have to crawl through that small, metal tube.
“Well… it seemed pretty special so...” he said, and I smiled, before trying to push at the metal cage
“Um… Blaise… there’s a cage here. Maybe a spell-?” I started
“Here” Blaise said, before slipping my wand into the gap. I pulled it and tried a few spells which didn’t work. “Maybe we should just give up?” he asked me
“No… hang on” I said, and slid my hands along the metal bars, until I noticed something different. Once had a lifted line running along the back. It was so subtle. I tried pulling at that particular bar but it did nothing. I tried blasting that bar but it still did nothing. I sighed, and then looked for more clues. Looking at the bar with a more close inspection, I saw a light trace of oil. I had only stayed in ‘mortal’ school for 6 years like any other wizard or witch, but in my sixth year, I learnt something knew in my science lesson – oil can be carried on fingertips. I examined the oil in more detail and saw fine lines running across the mark, meaning it must be fingerprints. I saw intervals of the oil dotted here and there along the lifted line. An idea developed in my head, and I slid my finger along the line to hear a massive clang.
“MAIA? Maia are you ok?” Blaise asked, seeming panicked
“It’s ok. I’m fine… actually… I think I’ve found a way in” I said, as the metal bars slid into the walls to open up the path “Wow… that’s the most I’ve thought all year” I said to myself. “Hang on Blaise. I’ll crawl in and then you come in after me, ok?” I said, and heard him say ‘ok’ before I started pulling myself through the narrow tube, much like a roll of snake skin. I pulled myself along the cold, stone tube, with Blaise behind me, until I got to another metal bar. I knew the trick this time and looked for another uplifted line running along one of the bars, but found none. I examined each one closely but found none
“Maia? What’s going on?” Blaise asked from behind me
“I’m trying to figure this out” I told him, and heard him say ‘ok’ before I got back to trying to figure it out. Eventually, I tried blasting one of the bars with my wand but it didn’t help. I sighed; my moving constricted, and looked left to right. I looked at the bars again, and noticed a minute crack in the second from the right bar. I pushed at that bar, and felt it collapse. Another clang erupted, worrying Blaise again, before the bars pulled into the sides again. I smiled, and hauled myself through to the other side to see a small, box room. The only thing was that the box room was completely empty but made entirely of glass. I grinned, and helped Blaise through the tube and heard him say ‘wow’. It was glass, and with nothing inside the room, it seemed completely invisible to everyone else. Other than that, it hung out from one of the walls east to the owlery. It overlooked the black lake (think that was the name??) and because of its ‘invisible’ status, we looked like we were suspended in mid air. Blaise and I moved around the room slowly. “This is amazing” I gasped, looking around. Blaise grinned
“I know you didn’t want to explore but… I just really wanted to see what was here… and it didn’t fail to disappoint” he said, grinning as he looked around. I smiled back, before getting a dirty thought in my head. It would be funny if someone was in a ‘sexual’ relationship and pursued their actions in this room. Because to all other Hogwarts students, they would see a box of steam floating in mid air next to the owlery. I smiled, before looking back at Blaise. I jumped as I heard the break bell ring. Looking back out at the lake, I saw the sun slowly setting, and smiled, before pulling Blaise into a sitting position on the floor with his hand
“Screw lessons” I whispered, and leant against him, my head resting on his shoulder with his hand around my waist as we watched the sunset. It should have felt romantic but for some reason it didn’t. It felt special, and out of the usual, but not romantic. Maybe Blaise and I didn’t have a certain ‘spark’??

Eventually, the sun set entirely, and Blaise and I got up before leaving the room. As we came out, we noticed the corridors were deserted. Looking at the time, we realised why.
“We’ve missed fourth period” he told me, as we walked to our lesson. I nodded
“What to we have fifth?” I asked him.
“Oh no. McGonagall” he sighed. We were already ten minutes late so we walked slowly to her room, not wanting our lesson to take place. Once we stepped inside, she glared at us.
“Miss Mist. As usual. And Mr Zabini. You two are, of course, Slytherins so I didn’t expect much else. Care to explain your absence?” McGonagall asked, sighing.
“Not really, no” I admitted. She glared at me before looking at Blaise
“We were just roaming around the school. We didn’t hear the bell” Blaise told her. McGonagall pressed her lips together
“Miss Mist, sit next to Mr Potter please, and Mr Zabini, next to Miss Werther” McGonagall said, before disappearing into the opposite room to go and get something. I sighed and dropped my bag next to Potter’s seat before sitting down. Blaise gave me a sympathetic look before approaching Faye slowly
“Oh Blaisey!! I haven’t talked to you in so long! I remember when you had the cutest crush on me! It was so sweet! I mean, you’d send me a rose and a rainbow teddy bear every day. There was like 25 of them! Different coloured, cute little things! I can’t even remember why you stopped!” she trilled, putting her hand around Blaise and sitting him down. He pulled her hand off him
“Because you slept with Malfoy” he said in an acidic voice. She seemed surprised that he turned on her like that
“Well you don’t have a chance with Maia. She’s already banged Draco. I mean how bad can such a manipulative bitch get?” Faye said sourly. I glared at her, clenching my teeth together
“Actually, she’s still a virgin. Unlike you. When did you lose it again? Oh yeah, you were eleven weren’t you? And you had sex with that 18 year old in the park. Word gets around, Werther. And I’m not trying to get a ‘chance’ with Maia. I’m trying to be her friend. Obviously for someone as thick and narrow minded as you, you wouldn’t understand how to maintain a relationship with a guy without screwing him secretly… or in the common room” Blaise spat, glaring at Draco on the last part “And if anyone’s a manipulative bitch around here, it’s you Faye. So if you ever say anything like that about or to Maia, I will have to make sure that you can never cast a spell again” Blaise threatened, and I smirked at Faye, who looked taken aback
“Isn’t he the cutest?” I sneered at Faye. She glared at me, still slightly shocked. I looked back at Potter
“So Potter, what do we need to do today?” I asked him, feeling happier. He seemed shocked that I spoke to him once again
“Um… just a lab project… we have to work in pairs and carry it out through the week” he mumbled, beads of sweat forming on his forehead. I nodded
“Ok. And the partners are decided by?..” I asked him
“By who you sit next to” he told me, seeming more confident. I nodded
“So I guess my lab partner would me you” I figured. He nodded
“Yeah… it’s about plant chromosomes and how they differ from the environment that muggles live in and the environment we live in.” Potter told me. I nodded
“Is this about the magic energy running around us on different wavelengths that differs from muggles?” I asked him. Potter nodded
“Pretty much yeah. We have to grow and take care of a plant. Kind of like a child or something” he told me, blushing as he looked down.
“Cool. Which plant are we having?” I asked him, and then re-heard what I said and looked away from him, feeling awkward. He stayed silent “I guess I’ll choose” I told him quietly, and got up to pick up a fiery orange lily, before taking it back to the table. “Is this one ok?” I asked him. Potter seemed uncomfortable
“Maia… that’s a really complicated plant to grow. We’ll most likely kill it before even getting past a day” he said doubtfully
“Good. Then it’s a challenge” I said simply, and placed it in between us on our table.
“Uh… ok. How about I take it for the first 4 days and then you take it for the last 3 days? It’s easier to take care of them the bigger they are” he told me, and I nodded
“Ok. Drop it by the stairs next to my dorm on Thursday and if you see someone coming down from the stairs ask them to tell me that you’ve dropped off the plant ok?” I asked Potter. He nodded
“Yeah ok. I’ll bring by a bag of food supplement as well and my table of results along with the plant” he told me. I agreed
“And then on Sunday we can go to the library and research human plant life… wait, just get the notes from your nerd friend. And then we can compare the results” I told him. Potter seemed slightly peeved that I called his brunette, frizzy haired acquaintance a nerd but let it go.
“Yeah well… that’s the bell so… I’m gonna go now” he said, acknowledging the bell that was ringing. I nodded and then picked up my books before slotting them into my bag before being flanked by Blaise who was walking me out of the room
“Befriending Potter? I’m impressed” he told me, and I stuck my tongue out at him
“I’m not befriending him, I’m being nice” I corrected
“Makes a change” he sighed, and I slapped his arm playfully.

Blaise walked me to the great hall where we had our lunch, sitting next to each other and constantly chatting
“Um… I gotta say. Even though I prefer this no contact thing between you and Malfoy… I really am sorry for ruining your friendship” Blaise said guiltily as he finished his lunch
“You didn’t finish our friendship. Malfoy did. So stop blaming yourself ok?” I asked him. He nodded
“Hey you know when I asked you out?” Blaise started. I looked at him hesitantly
“Yeah?” I asked casually
“Well… when you said it was complicated” he started, changing course
“Oh” I said quietly
“Yeah… um… what did you mean?” he asked me. I waited quietly for a while, poking my lunch
“Let’s just say a lot happened over the holidays ok? I don’t wanna go into it” I said apologetically. Blaise nodded
“Well… would it have anything to do with you returning late?” he asked me. I nodded slowly
“Yeah something like that” I said, before grinning at him “I think I’m gonna call it a day” I told him. Blaise nodded
“Let me walk you to… your stairs” he said, and I smiled
“Sure” I agreed, before getting up and taking his hand. He led me out of the great hall and towards the girl’s dorms “Hey listen, Blaise. I think I need some time alone” I said, looking towards the common room. Blaise looked curious but nodded
“Oh ok. Just know you can talk to me if something’s wrong” he said supportively, and I smiled.
“Thanks. I’ll see you tomorrow” I told him, and he nodded before I made my way to the common room. I cuddled up on the couch, watching the flames as I heard the last few people entering their rooms. When I felt blissful and calm, I heard someone come in. Ignoring him or her, I carried on staring at the fire
“Please don’t run” he whispered. I tightened, recognising the voice. I didn’t reply and shut my eyes, pretending to be asleep, and felt him sit on the chair opposite me “I just wanted to talk to you” he said, before stopping. “And… you’re asleep” he sighed “Great, the one chance I get and you’re asleep” Draco muttered. I opened my eye a crack to see him turn his head towards the flame, before shutting my eye quickly. All of a sudden, Draco started speaking

“Alright… well… might as well practice seeing as you won’t know if I screw up this as well. That’s a little sad… only talking to you when you’re asleep… maybe I’ll become on of those rich lonely men like the guy who owns the playboy mansion? And I’ll be collecting girls for each month, no, each week of the year… wow… I really didn’t think I could become this sad… to actually start planning a lonely future. I suppose I’d better get on with it huh?
Let’s be realistic, you wouldn’t give me the time of day if you were awake, so I might as well just do this now.
I know it’ll make no difference to you when you wake-up, not knowing what happened, but at least the deep pit inside me will seem a little lighter…
“Right, I wanted to apologise. I know that lately that’s all I’ve been doing and screwing up even more but once again I’m subjected to doing it. I know I’m a jerk but I also know that I love you. Really. And I know that if you were awake you’d probably spit at me for saying that. What happened with Faye… it was a long time ago. Before I changed. But you know that after I’ve changed I’ve stayed sexless. Whether you choose to believe that or not is your own choice. I just… I wish we could go back to being five. I know we still disliked each other then but it was nothing like this. I mean sometimes back then we could even tolerate each other. But now… now we can’t even stay in the same room together as long as one of us is conscious. I truly am sorry for what I did. And I know I’m still a jerk but I do love you Maia. I do. You know that I do. I turned down thirty four girls just in the past week who offered sex. And they were so fuc… well it doesn’t matter. Not when they’re compared to you. In fact, I wonder why some of their boyfriends are still with them when you’re here. But then again they probably can’t get you. Have no chance, shouldn’t even dream. A lot like me.
“So I didn’t come here for sympathy. Actually I came here to just relax. And finding you, even though you’re asleep, relaxes me more. When I said my parents were doing something right for me… I really do agree with what they did. Not marrying us. I meant just trying to get us closer. Because I mean there’s a silver lining in every cloud right? A light at the end of the tunnel. And that lining is this right here. The relationship we have now. I know it might not seem like much of a relationship but just think… if our parents hadn’t put us together then we wouldn’t even be this close. In fact if it weren’t for our parents, you probably wouldn’t even speak to me, much like you’re doing now. And you would have drifted away and gone off with… your ex. But I’m glad we at least got a shot at friendship. I mean I fucked it up like I always fuck up everything that I have, but at least we got a chance. You don’t know how much those times mean to me, honestly.
“I know you probably don’t want to hear this but just for the record, I would try to be the best boyfriend you’ve ever had. I’d never cheat; never hurt you no matter how many girls came after me. I would try and make you as happy as I could. And even though I’d get jealous, there’s another silver lining to that right? You’d know I really do care about you. And even though I’d get protective over you around other boys… I’d never be controlling. Or pressure you into sex. I probably could if you chose to be with me but I wouldn’t because I love you. I truly, honestly do. And I don’t care if our parents don’t approve. I just care about you. I care enough to know to let you go if that’s what would make you happy. But you don’t know what giving me one chance could do. It could make me happier than I’ve ever been before. Honestly, no sum of money, amount of girls or list of promises could keep me away from you. And I’d stick by you no matter what. Like I’ve always done.
“I just hate when you push me away. Sure you want to be just friends and that itself hurts, but not being near you at all just kills me.
“And one last thing. Why did you say ‘no’ to Blaise? You know I wouldn’t stop you two from going out with who you want. If you and I were friends that is. But I mean I would have no right to do that.
“But I fully deserve all the punches you’ve thrown at me so far, I do. Because I knew you hated me and didn’t care enough so that I slept with Faye. The thing is, I started all this ‘screwing every girl under the star’ sort of like as a drug. Like some people become alcoholics, some become drug addicts, and some become smokers to deal with their stress and I found out the only way I could escape from the pain and torture I went through knowing I could never have you is by stealing a few hours of pleasure from any girl I could find. It’s sad, really. Really, really sad. And if anyone heard this, I’d probably want to throw myself off a bridge… but it’s the truth
“I really am sorry Maia, for everything. If I’d seen what I was doing from a different perspective I would have stopped but it gets addictive just like everyone else. I had to even talk to my counsellor about how to stop when I went for my session” Draco continued, laughing bitterly “I honestly am sorry Maia. And I love you” he whispered, his voice cracking as I imagined a tear falling down his eye. He leaned over me and kissed my forehead for a while, letting his lips rest there. As he did, another tear fell from his eye and onto my cheek. Unaware, he slowly let go of me and left the room.

A tear slid down my own eye and joined Draco’s, and together, they dropped off my cheek.