Bury Me Alive

X Mesly’s p.o.v. X

I stared in disbelief at this little dark and broken little girl that once used to be full of light and happiness.

“Noelle… what’s all this? How did you get here? Is… are they here?” I asked

She shook her head.

“Nope, it’s just me, and I’m here for a concert.” Noelle answered

My jaw dropped.

“When did you start looking like… like-“ I said

“You?” She asked

I nodded and tried to swallow the lump in my throat.

“Well I found out that I actually like this style and the meaning of being an outcast.” She said

“You… do?” I asked

Her mouth twisted into a small smile.

“Yes, I kind of always had this weird attraction to this particular style, but I have no idea why.” She said

I walked over to her and wrapped my arms around her and started to cry.

“Noelle… I’d never thought I’d ever see you again. I’ve missed you so much.” I confessed

“I know, so have I.” She said

“Mesly!” Nick called

I wiped my eyes and took Noelle by the hand and walked her over to Nick.

“Hello Mes, is this another fan?” He asked

I shook my head and smiled.

“Um… girlfriend?” He asked cautiously

Noelle and I looked at each other and then we shuddered.

“Ew no!” Noelle said

Nick laughed.

“Your friend?” He asked again

“No, Nick this is Noelle my little sister… your cousin.” I said

“Cousin?!” Noelle almost yelled

“Oh really? Why hello there mini-Mesly.” He said

I let go of Noelle and she hugged Nick.

“I cannot believe that you are my cousin… I mean I’m like a huge fan!” She said

Nick chuckled.

“Finally someone knows my band.” Nick said

“Yeah, I don’t think Mesly would know your music.” Noelle said

Nick hugged Noelle a little tighter.

“You know Noelle I really do like you.” Nick said

Noelle’s eyes brightened up.

“Really?!” She asked

“Yes, really and just because I like you so much I’m going to bring you up on stage tonight, do you think you can handle it?” He asked

Noelle looked like she was going to pass out.

“Um… Nick, I think you should stop before she passes out.” I said

“No, I’m good.” Noelle quickly said

I looked at Nick and we both laughed.

“What’s so funny babe?” Craig asked

“Oh, Noelle I forgot to mention my sweetheart Craig.” Nick said

Noelle looked with wide eyes at Nick and Craig, when they busted up laughing.

“Chill dude, I’m just messing with you, I like girls.” Nick said

“So do I, especially in bed-“Craig said

Nick covered Noelle’s eyes and shot him a look.

“Sorry, I forget. So who’s the kid?” Craig asked

“She’s my little sister Noelle.” I said

“Mesly Jr.!” Michael said

Everyone laughed and Noelle blushed.

“So is everyone done?” I asked

“Oh my goodness it’s Michael Vampire!” someone screamed

He smiled and looked towards them.

“Almost.” Michael said

Michael walked over to them and took a few pics.

Then we all exited the mall and made out way to the car.

“This is like a dream come true.” Noelle said

We all chuckled.

“What you didn’t think you weren’t lucky enough to be my little cousin?” Nick asked

“Nope, I’ve never been lucky with anything, well except for now.” She said

“Aw, I love this little girl, give me a hug.” Craig gushed

She let him hug her and she beamed.

Someone was obviously loving all the attention.

“Craig … be careful around my little cousin, I met her first so therefore she’s mine.” Nick said

He let go of her and put his arms up.

“I didn’t do anything I swear.” He said

I laughed.

“Okay so what’s next after this?” Noelle asked

“Um… I think we have to do another signing and then we can just chill on the bus.” Nick said

“Can I come?” She asked

“Totally, you’re going to go with us first and then you can go to Nick’s booth.” Craig said

Michael looked at Craig and then at me and he rolled his eyes.

“Alright, it sounds like a deal.” Noelle said

Nick turned around the corner and then we finally made it back.

“I’m kind of hungry, can I borrow your car Nick?” Michael asked

“Sure.” Nick said

“Me too… Nick or Craig do you mind taking care of Noelle for a little?” I asked

“No problem dude!” Craig said

Then I turned to Noelle.

“Are you hungry?” I asked

“Sure, can you bring me something please?” She asked

“Yeah, um can I talk to you for a minute outside please?” I asked

She nodded and looked a little worried.

“What’s up?” I asked

“You are more than welcome to be here, but remember than everyone is way older than you so they might say or do weird things, be careful.” I said

“I understand that, I’ll behave I promise.” She said

“No, I’m not worried about that, I know you’re a good girl.” I said

She smiled.

“Heck yeah I am.” I said

Then I brought her in close.

“Okay, now listen there is this guy in Craig’s band and his name is Matt-“ I said

“Hello there Mesly, who’s this?” Matt asked

I froze as he put his arm around me.

“Mesly… who is he?” Noelle asked

“I’m Matt Good, and you?” He asked

“I’m Noelle… Mesly’s little sister.” Noelle said

“It’s nice to meet you.” Matt said

“Sure… me too.” Noelle said

It looked like she was getting a little upset at me.

“Um… Mes I’ll leave you two alone, I’m going to go with Craig now.” She said

She was getting the wrong idea, I wasn’t with him, but I let her go.

“What were you whispering to her?” Matt asked

“Nothing.” I said

“Remember what happened last night?” He asked

I nodded.

“If you don’t want that to happen again I suggest you stop telling your sister things she shouldn’t know.” Matt threatened

“Okay.” I said

“Good girl, see I’d knew you’d come around.” Matt said

Then he kissed my cheek and walked off.

My tears threatened to spill over, but I held them in and got into the passenger seat of the car, where Michael was.

“So um… what’s the deal with you and Matt, are you guys dating?” He asked

“No, why would you say that?” I asked

“Well, you guys have been spending a lot of time together, so I was just wondering if you liked him or whatever.” He said

“Nope… I um… never mind.” I said

“You can tell me.” Michael said

“Seriously there’s nothing going on between us.” I said

“Okay… what about you and Andy?” He asked

“Nope, nothing either, we’re just really good friends, we’ve known each other for the longest time.” I said

“Alright that’s cool, thanks for being honest with me.” He said

I put on a fake smile.

“You’re welcome.” I said

“Now where would you like to eat?” He asked

“No you can choose, I mean it was your idea after all.” I said

“Nope I’ll eat whatever you choose.” Michael said

I didn’t want to irritate him so I chose something that was good and tasty and we drove around looking for it.

“Would you mind if we ate here?” I asked

“Sure, I don’t mind.” He said

Michael parked the car and we got down.

“I need to use the restroom, I’ll be right back.” I said

“It’s fine, I’ll order, what would you like?” He asked

I told him what I wanted and then he smiled and walked over to the counter to order while I made my way to the restroom.

As soon as I got in I broke down and cried.

God I hated Matt so much, why was he such an arch?

I looked at myself in the mirror and then looked away quickly.

What have I become?

I lost my balance and I gripped onto the sink so that I wouldn’t fall.

Then when I could breathe again I washed my face and then re-applied my make up again.

When I was done I checked myself once more before I walked out and made my way to where Michael was sitting.

The food was already there and Michael pushed a tray towards me.

“Thank you.” I said

“You’re welcome.” He said

We sat in silence and I picked my food, not really hungry.

“Are you okay?” He asked

“Yeah, I’m fine it’s just I sort of lost my appetite.” I said

“Oh… you didn’t come here to eat did you?” He asked

I nodded.

“I’m sorry.” I said

“No, don’t worry about it, we can give the food to the guys or your sister.” He said

I looked back down at the tray and closed it.

“So why did you want to get away?” Michael asked

“I … wanted some fresh air.” I said

“Really, is that the only reason?” He asked

I sighed.

“No.” I confessed

“What’s troubling you Mesly?” He asked

“I… miss Andy.” I said

“Why? Is all his fame upsetting you?” He asked

“Yes and no, I mean it’s good that he’s getting up there, but… he didn’t tell me about it, so this is all new to me.” I said

“He didn’t tell you about his band, when he’s known you for how long?” He asked

“Yeah, exactly.” I said

“Well, I mean I’m sure he wanted to hide it from you so you wouldn’t feel like this… but I guess it didn’t it didn’t work.” Michael said

I stopped to think about this.

“I’ve never really thought of it like that… thank you.” I said

He smiled.

“No problem.” He said

I smiled too.

“So do you feel any better?” He asked

“Yeah, just a little thought.” I said

“At least you’re honest.” Michael said

I laughed.

“Yup.” I said

I opened up the box and then started eating.

The rest of the time we talked and talked about the most randomest things and I realized that I really liked Michael.

He was so sweet and kind and funny.

Then he checked his phone and cursed.

“What?” I asked

“I’m sorry, but we’ve got to get back I’ve got to get ready.” He said

I looked out the window and saw that it was getting dark.

We scrambled and threw the food away before we ran to the car.

Michael reversed in one swift movement and then he sped out of there.

“Do you know the lineup for tonight?” I asked

“Um, first it’s Nick’s band, then mine, and then Craigs and Andy’s is last.” Michael said

“Awesome, but why is Andy’s band last?” I asked

“They are the head lining band, and it goes by popularity, they save the best for last.” He said

“Oh… that sucks I guess.” I said

He chuckled.

“No it doesn’t, I love being second, because then I have the rest of the night to just chill with fans.” Michael said

“Yeah, that makes sense.” I said

When we arrived we ran in to the bus and everyone stopped what they were doing and saw that we were panting.

Great, they were all probably thinking that I slept with him too.

“What took you guys so long?” Andy asked

“Um… we were talking and got carried away sorry.” I said

“Just talking?” Matt sneered

Michael glared at him.

“Are you inquiring that we were f**king?” He asked

“Well I’m just saying that you’ve been gone for quite a while, and you were nowhere to be found.” Matt said

Michael then lurched forward and looked like he was going to beat him up.

Andy stepped in front of them.

“Guys cut it out!” Andy yelled

I stood there with tears in my eyes and then I ran out of the bus, not knowing where I was going to go, but I just ran.

“Mesly!” Andy called

I stopped running and leaned against a car, and hoped that no one would find me.

Then Andy stepped around the corner looking around frantically when he spotted me and ran over to me.

“Mesly what’s wrong?” He asked

“Nothing, just leave me alone.” I said

“No, I’m not going to leave you a fu**king lone from now on, we need to talk and right now. I’m sick of you being so distant from me, you’re my best friend and I love you.” Andy said

I looked up at him, speechless.

Andy then kneeled down in front of me and kissed me with all his might.

“I can’t hide this anymore Mesly… I’m in love with you, I always have been, and I’m tired of hiding it. I’ve been trying to ignore it to satisfy you, but I can’t do it anymore.” He said

I still couldn’t say anything.

“Mesly God dam* it, say something, anything.” He said

“Andy…” I said

Then I leaned up and kissed him back.

We were so deep into it that I didn’t notice that Matt was standing right there.

Oh god.

I got up and moved away from Andy, and he looked from me to Matt and back.

“Matt… it’s not what it looks like.” I plead

Matt just stood there with his arms crossed and a smirk on his face.

“Am I missing something?” Andy asked

I looked at Matt and shook my head.

Andy got up and came closer to me, but I moved away.

“Mesly, do you like Matt?” Andy asked

Matt looked at me with a look that read if I didn’t say yes, he was going to hurt me.

I lowered my eyes and regretted what I said next.

“Yes.” I said

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