Bury Me Alive

X Mesly’s p.o.v. X

“Dear mother dear father, I’m leaving now. After all you said to me, I’m not the man I used to be…” Nick screamed into his mic

I looked over at all the fans in the crowd and broke a small smile.

They all looked so happy… why couldn’t I have that?

“You want to go mosh?” Matt asked

He snapped me out of my thoughts.

“What?” I asked

“Mosh… do you want to?” He asked

“I don’t even know what that is.” I said

“Well then I’ll show you.” Matt said

He grabbed my hand and took me to the center where there was this circle and everyone was hitting each other.

Matt started throwing punches at other people and went crazy.

I made my way out of the crowd and moved to the back, as far away as I could.

What the hell was he thinking?!

Then I felt someone come up behind me and I turned around.

“Ahhh!” Michael said

I screamed as he wrapped his arms around me.

He laughed.

“What’s up Mes how’s the band?” He asked

“Nick is very good.” I said

Michael smiled.

“Yeah I know, but my band is even better.” He said

I rolled my eyes.

“Didn’t I tell you that I would judge you guys at the end?” I asked

“I know, but still.” He said

I laughed and turned my attention back to my cousin.

“Do you want to go into the crowd?” he asked

“Sure, but no moshing.”I said

“Nah, I don’t like to do that.” He said

“Really?” I asked

He nodded and then dragged me over to the crowd.

We jumped around to the music, until the song finished and we cheered.

“Now I feel kind of lonely up here, I think I might bring up someone up here, what do you think?” Nick asked

Everyone screamed and raised up there hand.

“How about you.” He pointed to Noelle

“Come up here.” Nick said

As the body guard pulled her up he winked at me and I rolled my eyes.

“Hey there, what’s your name?” Nick asked

“Noelle.” She said

“Okay Noelle do you know how to sing our song “Sarcasm?” He asked

“Of course!” Noelle said

“Alright, hit it!” Nick said

Then he screamed into the mic.

“You’ve got me shaking from the way you’re talking, my heart is breaking but there’s no use crying. What a cyanide surprise you have left for my eyes. If I had common sense I’d cut myself or curl up and die!” Nick said

Skipping forward…

“You could be the corpse and-“ Nick said

“I could be the killer!” Noelle said

“and I could be the devil-“ Nick said

“And you could be the sinner!” Noelle sang

“You could be the drugs-“ Nick said

“And I could be the dealer” Noelle said

“Everything you say is like music to my ears!” Nick sang

The rest of the song Nick sang until there was that part again and then Noelle would take over.

When the song was over Nick hugged her and then kicked her off the stage.

“This will be our last song, and I want to hear each and every one of you mother f**kers sing along, alright?!” Nick yelled

Everyone screamed

“This song is called Fail!” Nick said

His guitarist started thrashing against his guitar and jumped all around the stage as Nick head banged and started to sing.

“Am I your miracle? Is this that kind of love? I bet you’d rather kill me instead of leaving home. Dry your eyes. You see how I arrive. I’ve never felt this way before. I don’t care, don’t let me die here!” Nick sang

Everyone sang along and jumped around.

I loved this song and so I started jumping around as well.

Then in the middle of the song Michael hugged me and then waved to me and pointed to the stage.

I nodded and continued to sing along to my cousin.

“Thank you guys so much, you were f*cking amazing tonight, now how many of you are here to see Vampires Everywhere?” He asked

Everyone screamed.

“Okay I know you can do better than that. I said how many people are here to see Vampires Everywhere?!” Nick yelled

Everyone really screamed.

“Much better, what about D.R.U.G.S.?” He asked

They screamed so loud that I nearly went deaf.

“What about Black Veil Brides?!” He yelled

Yup, there went my ears.

“Now let me ask you this… who hear already purchased our album?” he asked

Some people raised their hands.

“How many people are going to buy our album right now in that back corner?” He asked

A lot more people raised their hands.

Nick laughed.

“You guys who raised your hands thank you, I fu**ing love you! Now I will be outside for meet and greets in a second.” Nick said

Then he walked off the stage and some people walked towards the little table in the back with all the merch stuff while the other half walked outside to meet and greet them.

I walked over to the stage and the body guard helped me up and then I walked down the little hall way to where Nick and his band mates were.

“Nick you were amazing out there!” I said

He smiled and hugged me.

“Why thank you.” Nick said

“You’re welcome and when you pulled up Noelle… that was epic, I don’t think I’ve ever seen her so happy in her life.” I said

“I know, I think I might bring her up every night, do you think she’d want to?” nick asked

I shrugged.

“I don’t know, ask her?” I said (rather asked)

He smiled and let me go and Michael and his band walked down the hall towards the stage and I heard his fans go crazy.

“Alright, I’ve got to go see you later.” I said

“Bye.” Nick said

I ran around the hall and made my way through the crowd again as Michael started his first song.

“From the back of your heart, to the palm of your hands, that’s what you wanted! A bloody kiss, a second chance (chance) Don’t cover your eyes right before you die. Embrace the night, come to life. Inside you know it’s right, say goodbye!” Michael screamed

“Josie’s in love tonight, with the undead, she-she sacrificed all she had. Her heart won’t beat again, Josie’s in love with the undead!” Michael sang

When that song was over everyone screamed, including me, and then he spoke about the city and the crowd being so freaking great.

“How is everyone tonight? We are Vampires Everywhere, you like what you hear so far?” Michael asked

Everyone screamed

“Well here’s some more for you then, this next song is called Ashes to Ashes!” Michael yelled

He walked around and head banged a bit.

“False perceptions I bleed the night dry. I complicate beautiful lies. Can you see motion turn to cries and I see. Bloody wishes on the floor. Can you see me fading out?-“Michael said

I threw my hair all around and swinged my hips and closed my eyes.

When suddenly I felt a pair of arms slip around my waist, my eyes flashed open and I looked back to see Matt.

I calmed down some.

“Keep swinging your hips baby, the songs not over yet.” He said

I ignored him and I kept dancing, but not for him.

Then from the corner of my eyes I saw Michael glare at Matt before sucking in a breath of air and scream into the mic before closing his eyes.

Okay… that was a little weird.

I ignored it and decided to ask him about it later.

Michael sang a few more songs including one from Katy Perry, which I admit sounds way better then when she sang it.

Matt then let go of me and kissed me.

“I’m up next, see you later baby.” Matt said

I nodded as he left and then I looked back up to the stage.

“This last one is an old one, which I want to dedicate to a dear friend of mine who’s in the crowd, you know who you are. This one is for you it’s called Immortal Love.” Michael said

People started looking around and I just looked up at Michael.

He started screaming into the microphone and didn’t break eye contact with me and he sang.

When he was done, I was in tears, but not from being upset I was crying tears of happiness.

“Thank you guys, we are Vampires Everywhere, and I’ll see you guys outside!” Michael said

Then he walked off the stage and blew me a kiss and winked.

I rolled my eyes and stuck my tongue out at him.

He waved to the crowd and then the people who set up the stage came out.

More people moved into the crowd and I was beyond squished.

Then everyone started cheering as Matt and his band mates, except Craig, walked out.

They started playing and then Craig just popped out of nowhere.

“So hence, you left me hanging in a room in with a noose and a chair. You told me to stay put and reminded me why I was there. Cold headed and misguided you thought that this would be your best. Then you tried to hide it, a chance to move ahead.-” Craig broke off

“Today was the day, you tried to shut me down, today was the day you tried to shut me down! Be honest, did you ever mention my name? Did you get sick of the shame? Did you lie on your back like a wh**e?!” Craig screamed

The song continued and everyone around me went crazy along with the guys on stage.

“That song is about a sl** who I once called a girlfriend, oh well she’s gone now. Who here has heard of us?” Craig asked

Everyone screamed.

“Awesome, and for those of you who haven’t what is our name?!” He screamed

“Drugs!” Everyone yelled

“Who are we?” Craig asked

“Drugs!” Everyone yelled again

“Never forget that, now this next song is for people who need to mind their own business!” Craig said

Then he jumped into the crowd and he started singing softly.

“Desperation before I hit the ground, reaching out for something. We lost it all before and we still want something more, we want it all…” Craig sang

He screamed and then everyone started playing.

Craig jumped back onto the stage and starting singing again.

“Can’t make you shake the way that I do. Can’t make you love the way your supposed to. And when you come crawling back, you’ll see we can’t change the past. For the first time I see you for who you really are!” He sang

“If you had a sex life, a sex life would you even worry about mine? When your bed is empty. If you had a sex life a sex life would you even worry about mine?” Craig sang

Everyone around me sang along and started head banging and moving around.

Then he played a few more songs and then they were done.

They ended with a song called “Graveyard Dancing”.

“Thank you guys so much for being fu**ing amazing, I love you all, now I’m going to get off this stage and do some meet and greets outside, join us if you want, and if you don’t fu** you.” Craig said

When they left the stage everyone pushed past me and moved outside.

I then proceeded to the back of the crowd near the merch stuff where Nick and Michael were standing around.

“Mesly, you’re alive!” Michael said

I nodded.

“Yeah, barely.” I said

“How was the crowd?” Nick asked

“Crowded as heck, oh my goodness how to people do this?” I asked

They laughed.

“That’s just how it is, that’s fun part, everyone touches each other.” Nick said

“Ew.” I said

He laughed.

“I meant that in that way too.” Nick said

Then he winked at me and I rolled my eyes.

“So who’s band wins?” Michael asked

“There’s still one more to go before I say anything.” I said

“Okay then who was the best out of the first three?” Nick asked

“Um…” I said

Then the lights dimmed down and everyone rushed back to the stage.

I grabbed Nick and Michael and dragged them into the crowd with me.

There was a black veil that I didn’t notice before in front of the stage that blocked out the band.

Then all of a sudden I heard the band start playing and then veil dropped.

Everyone screamed.

“Use my breath for every line you’ll take, when you are lonely, words are holy. A deadly grip on lies, sing to these blood red skies hail mary, whisper softly. What you became. Whoa oh, oh. Some things never change and so we …” Andy sang

He looked into the crowd and screamed.

“We learn from all your hate, we are lost in your mistakes, play our hymn for the brand new day, we burned, we learned…” Andy sang

The song continued and Jake, Jinxx, and Ash continued to tear up the floor.

When the song finished Andy took a deep breath and then smiled.

“Hello all you mother fu**ers, how are you all doing tonight?” he asked

Everyone yelled.

“Oh that was weak, I said how are all you do mother fu**ers?!” Andy yelled

More screams.

“Much better, now I know I’m not supposed to say anything, but we just played a new song from our upcoming record that’s called “We stitch these wounds”.” Andy said

Screams.

“Who wants to hear another new song?” he asked

Even more screams.

“Alright here’s Sweet Blasphemy!” He said

“Through sadness you have taught us, to be one with the crowd, unveil the sacred order , hymns are falling down. You told the greatest stories of love and bleeding crowns, but to the sick and hungry you cannot be found.” Andy sang right at me

Then he closed his eyes and sank down to his knees.

“We are young and we are strong, through strength in self we become, something more than they can be, I raise my heart and sing!” Andy said

He shot up and threw his fist into the air.

“That I won’t believe this lie, I know there is something more inside, when darkness is all you see. This is our sweet blasphemy!” Andy sang (again at me)

Tears welled up in my eyes and spilled over.

Had he written this song about me?

I looked back up to the stage and saw that Andy was struggling to stay composed, as he kept singing.

When he was done he cleared his throat and closed his eyes as he walked around the stage.

“This next song is an old one; it’s called Knives and Pens and it’s dedicated to my best friend in the whole wide world, who is standing right there *he points at me*.” Andy said

Everyone turned to look at me, but I ignore them and watch Andy as he starts the song.

“Alone at last we can sit and fight and I’ve lost all faith in this blurring light. Stay right here and we can change our plight. We’re storming through this despite what’s right! One final fight for this tonight, Whoa oh, oh. With knives and pens we made our plight. Lay your heart down the ends in sight, conscience begs for you to do what’s right, everyday it’s still the same dull knife. Stab it through and justify your pride. One final fight for this tonight, whoa oh, oh. With knives and pens we made our plight. Whoa oh, oh. And I can’t go on without your love, you lost, you never held on. We tried our best… turn out the light, turn out the light…” Andy sang

A guitar solo came in and Andy looked like he couldn’t hold in his emotions anymore, so he turned around and took a sip of water and wiped the corners of his eyes.

Then he finished the last portion of the song.

After wards he sang Heaven’s calling, a more upbeat song, Beautiful Remains, a catchy song, and then he ended with Never Give in, a song about well… never giving in.

Andy thanked the crowd and then he walked off the stage.

Nick and Michael were a little bored, but then snapped out of it when they saw that I was beyond pale

“Mes, what’s wrong?” they asked

“I… um… don’t feel well, do you mind taking me back to the bus?” I asked

They nodded and then they quickly got me out of there, but I didn’t even make it past the first few cars before I violently started throwing up.

Nick pulled my hair out of the way and I kept puking.

When I was finished I looked down at my vomit and groaned.

“Are you done, or do you still need to throw up?” Nick asked

“No… I think I’m done, this is so gross.” I complained

“Yeah I know…” Michael said

“Here, let me help you get up.” He said

I held onto Michael’s hand as he helped me up.

“Thank you.” I said

“No problem, now let’s get you inside and I’ll call the medical people.” Nick said

I nodded.

They helped me onto the bus and sat me down on the sofa.

I laid down and placed my head against Michael’s thigh and he moved his fingers across my hair.

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