Hiding My Heart

We spent hours on that cliff. I thought I was in heaven. I couldn’t believe how well we were getting along. We kissed multiple times and I’m not ashamed to say we made out. I never thought I would have been here at this moment with Jake. I don’t ever thought that we would be acting the way that we were so soon after Bella breaking his heart, but I was extremely happy to be here.

“Jake? I think we should be getting back. I have to patrol tonight and you look dead tired.” I said as the sun started to drop lower in the sky.

“But I don’t want to go. I want to stay in this little bubble of greatness we have right here.” I couldn’t help but giggle at the completely sappy thing that he said. I didn’t think he would ever say something like that.

“Oh Jake, Come on you're so sleepy you're talking crazy.” I got of the ground and started to tug on his hand. “Come on I’ll race you!” I ran into the woods and started striping my clothes off. If I was fast enough Jake wouldn’t be able to see much.

I burst into my furry form and started running towards my house.

“Anna! I hope you are hungry! Because your going to be eating my dust in a couple seconds.” He was getting cocky from catching up with me.

“Oh please Jake! I am just going easy on you!” I kicked into high gear and dashed forward.

I won our little race and I couldn’t help but rub it in his face that I won. My competitive tendencies are terrible.

“Alright Anna! I know you won!!! That’s only because you are smaller than me so you don’t have all this muscle weight to move.”

“Sure Jake. Whatever you say. Just so you know I still beat you! Anyways I am really sorry but I have to go patrol now. Be careful driving home!” With that I gave him a quick kiss on the cheek and ran for the woods.

“Hey Anna. I was wondering who was going to be patrolling with me tonight,” Leah called out to me. Leah was only ever friendly to me. I think it was because we were going through similar things. I wonder how she is going to treat me now that Jake and I are finally together.

“YES! It’s she-wolf patrol tonight!” I am excited to patrol with Leah. It’s like a little sleep over but we are in our wolf form. We talk a lot when we are on patrols together, granted we have only been on patrol once before.

“Yea I’m excited too. So Anna I would love to know what is going on with you and Jake?”

“Ummmm Leah don’t be mad but... we are dating.” I then thought about how Jake finally got me and our talk today.

“Awe Anna I’m so happy for you...” She had a tinge of Jealousy to her voice. I had a feeling that she would have that tone. I felt bad. She can’t even hope for a happy ending with Sam. It’s sad.

“Leah, I know you will find someone. Maybe that special person will come soon or maybe they will come later. I don’t think you will be forever alone Leah. Your a great catch. I think you should get out there. I’m not saying you should go date but I’m saying you should stay away from just staying at the reservation. How about we go shopping tomorrow. We can go to the shops in Port Angeles and find some cute summer dresses. You know we can wear those and we probably won’t get so hot.” I wanted her to know that she isn’t worthless. She is a misunderstood girl who has been so very deeply hurt. I understand and I wish she could see that she won't be someone that is alone for the rest of her life.

“Is it only going to be me and you?” I know she only said that because she didn’t want to be around the boys or their imprints. It would be just like rubbing in her face that they were happy and had someone and she didn’t.

“Only us! Why would we want people who didn’t understand us to come with? That would just be stupid!” I giggled and tried to make the air completely fun and stop it from being weighed down by the stupid awkwardness.

We talked for awhile and patrolled the area. It was a long time after our talk that someone came to our positions.

“Hey Leah I’ll be at your house around 12 tomorrow. I’ll take mine and Em’s car.”

“See you then Anna!”

When I got to my house I slipped up into my room and quickly got changed. I’m sure mom is pissed that I haven’t been in my room in these past couple nights. I can’t believe I haven’t had a strongly worded letter or even her waking me up before she went to work to tell me to be at the house when she got home. It’s times like these when I sneak into the house that I wish Em and I made the choice to tell her about us.

I laid down on my bed and looked at the ceiling. It was suddenly so hard to fall asleep. So many things happened today and I can’t believe that it all happened like this.

I was just about to fall asleep when I heard a knock on my window. Which is weird for a couple reasons. One of the reasons was I usually never keep my window closed. The cool air helps me sleep and so I don’t get overheated. Another reason is most people are asleep at this time at night well morning actually. I walked over to the window to open it.

“What are you doing here?” I couldn’t believe that he was here at this time in the morning.

“I just wanted to be with you. For some reason I had a feeling that you wouldn’t be able to sleep.”

“Jake... Why?... Fine get in here. I’m really tired.” I stepped to the side so that he could get in and I walked to my bed. I sat down and looked over to him. He stood there awkwardly.

“Well? Are you going to get in this bed with me?” I could see his cheeks darken. I couldn’t believe that he was blushing.

“uhhh... yea,” he stuttered out and then went to lay down on my bed.

When he laid down the heat from his body hit me. Sometimes I forget how fucking hot we get. If he was going to stay here all night we are for sure not going to use a sheet.

“Jake what is the real reason that you came over here? It’s super early in the morning and you didn’t have to patrol.”

“I wanted to be with you. I went home to sleep after we had our beach walk but I couldn’t sleep. I was actually kinda worried about you patroling. Who where you patrolling with anyways?”

“Leah.”

“Yea you together isn’t a good idea. I want you to patrol with one of the guys just incase something goes wrong.”

“No Jake that isn’t going to happen. I’m not going to make sure that you are ok with every single patrolling partner I have. Jake that’s just not logical. Leah and I are the fastest two wolves in this pact. Sorry honey. We can handle ourselves. Don’t worry about me. Why are you worrying anyways?”

“Anna, I love you. I want to make sure your safe all the time.”

“Jake, I’m a big girl and I’m a wolf. I can take care of myself. I love you but I want you to understand that when it comes to a pickle you need to know that I can handle myself.”

“Alright Anna I will try to stop worrying about you when you are on patrol. You look so tired babe. It’s time for you to go to bed. I’m going to leave so you can sleep.” I don’t know why but why but when he said that he was going to leave I got sad. When he moved to leave I couldn’t help myself. I clung to him.

“Don’t leave! Please Jake will you stay here with me while I sleep? I want to be with you and cuddle.”

“Alright but you are going to sleep no more talking.” He laid back down and I quickly moved so my head was on his chest and my legs were intertwined with his. One of his arms wrapped itself around my waist while his other hand found its way to caressing my hair. I felt so comfortable and safe. I didn’t think this would ever happen to me. I thought I would spend at least five more years sleeping alone.

Right when I was drifting to sleep I heard Jake softly whisper “Anna I’m so happy with you. I love you.” I feel asleep thinking that this was probably the best moment in my whole entire life.