Hiding My Heart

I have been stuck at Jake’s house since the accident. I had all of the pack and the imprints come visit me. My mom was there almost all the time also. The only person that hasn’t been here was the one person that I thought would be around. Leah. She hasn’t come to see me and I’m almost good enough to walk and go about my day by myself.

I was just about to try to walk to the kitchen so I could get my walk in. I’ve been doing a little bit of walking by myself for the last couple hours trying to get strength back in my legs. I was just about to get out of bed when that particular person came walking in.

“Hey Anna,” Leah said sheepishly. She walked over to the chair that was sitting by my bed. Jake just abandoned it so he could go patrol about 15 minutes ago.

“Hi.” I didn’t mean to be rude but she was the whole reason I got crushed. If she didn’t try to act like a badass and show up the boys then I wouldn’t have had to try to save her. I wouldn’t have been so pissed about it if she came to see me before I was almost done being here.

“Anna, I’m really really sorry for what happened. I was just try to prove that I am a strong part of the pact and well I was just being stupid. It’s my fault you got hurt.” She looked down at her hands that were placed on her lap.

“Leah. I’m not mad at you for that. It was an accident and shit happens. I’m mad at you because you didn’t come and see me the last couple days that I was cooped up in here. Hell, even Isabella came to visit with me. I hate her. Leah, you are like my sister. You're my best friend. You didn’t even come to see me until I am practically healed.” I said this all in a calm voice and my anger never showed through. The only emotion that I had on my face was sadness. How could someone not go try to see their best friend when they were hurt?

“I’m really sorry about that also. I wanted to come on the first day that you were here but Sam told me my punishment for being stupid was patrolling. Then yesterday, well I didn’t want to see you hurt Anna. It’s my fault and I didn’t want to face you when you were in pain and stuck in bed. I know it was very selfish of me but I’m so very sorry. I’ll do anything to make it right.”

I couldn’t stay mad at her. The look on her face as she told me all of that was one of dispare. I’m her only great friend in the pack. I didn’t want to leave her.

“Anything you say?” I say with a smirk on my face.

“Yes...”

“Well then.. I’m making you my slave!” I laughed and she joined me.

“Leah, I forgive you! Seriously though if something like this happens again you better come see me earlier. I missed you and I wanted to tell you it wasn’t your fault! Oh and by the way you don’t have to be my slave. I was kidding.”

“I know and hopefully there won’t be a next time.”

“You never know, Leah.”

We sat there and talked for a while. We laughed and soon she had to go because she had to patrol. I sat there for a minute and then prepared myself to walk over to the kitchen.

“Hey Billy. I just wanted to thank you for letting me stay here while I’m healing. It was nice of you to take care of me when Jake couldn’t and my mom was at work. I really appreciate it,” I said to him as I saw he was in the kitchen grabbing something to drink.

“It’s no problem sweetheart. Your like my daughter so I obviously would want to make sure your ok.” His voice had a sad tone to it. It was something I couldn’t place.

I looked at the clock and saw that Jake should be getting home soon. His patrol shift ended about twenty minutes ago.

“I wonder where Jake is.” I absentmindedly said to myself. I looked over to Billy and he sat stiff in his chair.

“Billy what’s going on? Where is Jake?”

“Ummmm well here is the thing honey. Jake was taking care of you when Bella came over so he didn’t have the chance to think about how he has to go to her wedding. But now since you are up and walking and will be fully healed by tomorrow he finally let it sink in. When he came out to go patrolling he looked and saw that I was looking at the invitation that she left. It finally struck him that she was getting married and will turn into a leech soon enough. He was hurt that he couldn’t help his friend and he left. I don’t think he is coming back for a while.”

“What?! You have got to be kidding! I am going to go get that boy and drag him back here.” I was baffled how could he just leave me. I thought things were going so good once again and then that stupid leech lover broke him again. My Jake was hurting and I had to go fix him. I got up to leave to go get the stupid wolf but Billy grabbed my hand.

“Anna now leave him be. I know you want to go comfort him and be by his side but you're in no condition to shift yet. You still need to finish healing and then Sam ordered you to stay in your human form for the next week just to be sure. I don’t want you getting hurt again Anna. Let him do his thing I know he isn’t here but honey he is hurting. He needs to heal also.” I could hear the hurt and concern in his voice for both me and Jake. I didn’t want to cause Billy anymore pain so I stayed there and just waited. I hope beyond any measure that Jake was alright. That he wasn’t getting himself into any trouble.
For the rest of the day I just laid in the room. I wanted to call Isabella and yell at her but I didn’t have the strength. I was just going to wait until I could finally do whatever I wanted without having people worry about me.

The next day I was fully healed. Doctor Cullen was almost right with his prediction it took about two days of me resting and laying in bed and one day of me slightly walking around for me to be fully healed. I couldn’t stay in Billy’s house anymore. Not because Billy kicked me out because he would never do that but because I didn’t want to be where something would remind me of Jake all the time.

I went to Emily’s house and it took awhile to get there just because I decided I would walk and it was just a little bit over 3 miles to get there. I needed the time to clear my head and think to myself.

When I got to Emily’s I walked up the old familiar steps to the door and walked right in.

“Emily? Are you in the kitchen?” I said as I walked farther into the house towards the kitchen. She stepped out of her spot in the kitchen she was covered in flour and I couldn’t help but laugh at the sight.

“Anna! How nice to see you! You're looking good. It’s nice to see you up and walking and fully healed.” She came over and gave me a hug and looked me in the eye.

“How are you holding up? I know you know that Jake is gone. How are you feeling?” My eyes started to water and I couldn’t help but cry a little.

“When I was hurt and stuck in bed me and Jake bonded. We laughed and talked all the time and we became the two children before we changed. We had fun together. I thought that maybe he was going to let Isabella go but I guess not.”

“Anna, sweetheart, this is him letting Bella go. He is trying to clear his mind of her. He feels terrible that he left you right when you were almost healed but he needed to clear his head. He is a stubborn one but he wanted to clear his head so he could be the right person for you. He is letting her go.”

I was being selfish I know but it made me feel good to know that he was finally letting the leech lover go.

“Did Sam tell you when he might come back?”

“No at this point he doesn’t even know when he is coming back. Last Sam said was Jake is all the way up in Canada right now. They are keeping tabs on him. So don’t try to rush and shift so you can make sure he is ok. He will be fine.” I smiled at her reassurance and we went into the kitchen. She started to finish her baking and I started to eat a muffin out of the batch that she pulled out of the oven. We talked and joked and I got my mind off from the wolf that isn’t even in the country anymore.