She Killed My Brain

I woke up with all this banging, loud noise, painful thud coming from my brain. It was the worst thing I've felt so far. I let my head fall back down, it was awful! I just moaned and groaned. "Uh, make it stop."

"You're awake?" He was slight on his tone, it's just what I needed.

"Yeaah, my head hurts like a bitch though." I tried to say in my softest voice so I wouldn't hurt myself.

"I can go get you some medicine. Or, you can take a shot of the vodka and make the head trauma go away." He spoke sweetly.

"How is taking another shot going to make me feel better? It made me feel like hell." I couldn't open my eyes, the light hurt them and I wanted all this to go away, it's the worst feeling ever.

"I'll say that means you want actual pill formed medicine. You should try my trick if the medicine doesn't help." As of now I didn't want to look at his expression, I feel it was rather cocky. He left to go get my medicine that I desperately needed. I still didn't open my eyes. I heard foot steps and knew he was coming. "I got the meds, yo." I just put my hand out for him to place them into my hand, I didn't feel like opening my eyes and dieing from the bright light.

"Can you hand me a glass or water please?" I asked him. "And please, make sure it's a glass of water." I could tell that he grinned. He handed me the glass of water. I made sure I slept it just to be sure about it. I popped the pill into my mouth, then followed the water right behind it. I swallowed and hoped I would feel better soon. I lie back in the bed, just trying to remember things that happened last night, I'm just not quite sure what they were. I remember drinking, watching tv, I couldn't feel my body, bla, bla, bla. I felt a dent go into the side of the bed opposite of me.

"I hope you get to feeling better." I felt arms wrap around me sideways, I didn't understand why. Then I felt his lips on mine. Then it hit me, what happened last night. I opened my eyes and pushed Jimmy away slightly.

"Oh my fuck...OH MY FUCKING FUCK!" I screamed. The light hurt my eyes, I squinted them hoping to see better. All I saw was Jimmy's confused face. "What did we fucking do?!" I was more frantic than I thought I would be about this. Jimmy got up quick and rushed over to me.

"Just sit back down, come on." He grabbed me and got me to stumble back to the bed. "Take a deep breath."

"What did we fucking do Jimmy?" I was slightly calmer this time, but not by much.

"We didn't do all of what you think we did, though we came close to it." I stared daggers at him. "Don't take it like that." he told me like he knew what I was thinking. "We started drinking, watching Tv, this and that. And we ended up getting a little closer than usual. We started making out, and we were so close to actual letting the sex happen, but then you had to throw up." Thank some type of heavily being that I had to throw up. I mean like, I don't feel weird about what me and Jimmy almost did. It just scared the fuck out of me.

"So, we didn't have sex?" He looked at him, holding my head. He looked at me stern.

"No, we didn't." There was a short pause of awkward silence; I can tell you that.

"Look, Jimmy. I don't want you to think I feel weird about what happened, I don't. It just kinda scared me because I couldn't remember what happened." He nodded. I didn't know what else to say.

"So...how do you feel?" He eased off the subject.

"About what?" I asked.

"I really want to know how you feel about what happened..." I knew this was gonna happen.

"Well, Jimmy I-," I didn't really know how to put this into words. I had to tell him those little things that I had been feeling. He really wants to know. "Jimmy...if we would've fucked, I would've been perfectly okay with it." I looked to my side so he couldn't see my face. I could feel that feeling of red face, and embarrass-ness in the air.

"So, it wouldn't have bothered you, at all?" I looked over at him this time.

"No. See, I, Uh..." Dammit, I was loosing my words, and I really wanted him to understand. "I kinda had a thing for you anyway, Jimmy." He looked over at me, and smirked. Cocked his head to the side.

"Reeeaaaallllyyy?" He drug it out.

"Yes, when I started hanging out with you; you were being so nice, sweet and funny. Unlike anything that Danni's been doing, at all. When we got drunk in my room that time, I fucking cherish that. I cherish that because I never felt like that, not with Danni at all. You made me get butterflies Jimmy. Do you know how long it's been since I've felt that way?" He stared at me hard, and was taking everything that I said seriously. "I knew you didn't care for relationships, you were hurt too horribly. You don't want to go through something like that again." He leaned over, and grabbed my chin.

"I just said 'Fuck Relationships' because I never had anyone care enough. Cheating hoes, cock-sucker liars, I hate that shit. But Nattie, that's a completely different story with you. I've felt those butterflies to when I'm with you. When I found you at the lake, and saw you all in tears, I wanted to fucking rip off Danni's head. I knew you loved him though, so I Cou-"

"I don't love Danni anymore..." I interrupted him, I didn't want him to say that. I didn't fucking love Danni. Yeah, I know I thought about him a lot since we were on the island. But I did a lot of fucking thinking about how I feel when I'm with Jimmy. He makes me feels 1000x better than Danni has ever made me feel.

"Wha..." I saw Jimmy's face. He looked so lost.

"I don't love him Jimmy, he completely changed from since I've known him. He started acting weird when I met you, and we weren't even hanging out then. He started to treat me wrong, cussed me out, and didn't want me talking to you. Then he just goes and leaves with that fucking bitch, he hasn't taken me anywhere in such a long time. Then he goes and takes her. Fuck no, I'm dealing with that. That love is gone, and there's no getting it back." He just stared at me, not knowing what the hell to say. There's nothing he can say. He wrapped his arms around me. Embracing me in his warm, bare chest.

"I'm sorry Nattie." I nudged my face into his neck.

"Don't be sorry. I feel like I've found someone that will make me even happier. That is, if you would like to be that person." I looked up at him.

"You don't know how bad I've wanted to be that person. Ever since I've met you, I knew you were completely different." I looked into his eyes, I saw how serious he was about every word that he meant. I wanted to be with him as well. I didn't want to leave Danni when I knew that he was my first everything. But, I would love for Jimmy to be my last. So I never have to look for someone else. He will be my last love, my last butterflies, my last everything. Because, I know, he's the one.

"Then it's settled!" Jimmy told me all smiley. "We will be together!" I smiled at him.

"YAY! Of course Jim-Jim!" He smiled at me and looked me in the eyes one last time.

"Yay..." He looked down. He leaned in with a slow and tender kiss. A kiss a never had before that was breath taking. It was our last day at the hotel. We were packing up our things to head back home. I made sure I had my clothes, towels from the hotel and anything else that would be important. I picked up my suitcase, while Jimmy was picking up his. We headed down the elevator to the car, and opened up the truck. We put our shit in there and paid the bill that was due on the room.

"This was a great trip Jimmy." I looked over at him and smiled.

"I know exactly how you feel." He smirked. We grabbed each others hand, we squeezed them, then let our lips collide in the way that I never knew would be so right.