She Killed My Brain

It was late that night. I was still lying there bored. I had nothing to do and I haven't heard from Jimmy and Cody hadn't messaged me back. I wondered what he was doing. I wondered what Cody was doing. I wondered where my mom was and why hasn't she came back? I was frustrated with how everyone wasn't around. I'm so used to being around someone I couldn't take it. I opened my door and went into the kitchen to get some soda. I looked at the clock and it was 9:45. 'Why is no one here?!' I grabbed my soda and started back into my room. I wasn't tired, and I wanted company. I slumped down onto my bed. Feeling sad and lonely. I kept staring at the clock on my computer. Hoping someone would come over and save me from this feeling. I wanted Jimmy over here with me. I missed him like crazy already. I tried watching tv, I tried playing games, I tried playing with my snake. I needed to me accompanied by a person, a human. By flesh and blood...I'm letting this go a little too far. I sighed and threw my back onto the bed. I hated being by myself for long periods of time. It's not something I'm too good at doing. Another hour rolled by. Mom wasn't home and I was getting worried for her. I laid there just wanting to sleep so maybe tomorrow I would have something to do.

"Nattie!" I heard my name muffled from outside. I jumped up so fast you couldn't even tell I was lying down. I looked out the window peering to see if it was Jimmy who called my name. I wanted it to be him. I've missed him like crazy already and I wanted to touch his warm human body. I couldn't see anything and I almost wanted to roll my lip up. "You seriously can't see me?" I was asked. I looked and I couldn't see at all. "Boo!" I saw a smirking face jump up from below me. I screamed and fell backwards onto my bed. My heart was pounding like crazy! I saw him looking into the window that I haven't opened yet. Smirking at me like a little kid. I got back up and smiled at him. I opened my window.

"I could've broken my neck ya know?" I smart-assly told him. He just grinned and put his lip out.

"I would never go that far Nattie; how dare you." He turned his head not to look at me. We both started laughing.

"Are you gonna come in, or am I gonna have to stay all by myself tonight?" I started pouting. He started to climb through and rolled onto my bed from the window. More like a somersault. His pink hair falling in his face. I couldn't help but smirk at how cute he was. He wrapped his arm around me after he got up.

"Did you miss me?" He asked squeezing me tightly.

"Terribly." I replied. I don't know if he believed that too much or not. I shifted my arms around his body so we both would be holding each other. I missed this warm body of his. I missed the smell clothes. As weird as that sounds I love this man. I can't say he's a boy. He kissed me on the forehead.

"What should we do. I have to work tomorrow night, so we won't be able to do anything tomorrow."

"I never knew you had a job." he looked at me and chuckled.

"Seriously?" I nodded. "I work at a bar. I mixed the drinks and shit." It clicked in my head. No wonder he knows what goes together with alcohol. I laughed to myself.

"We can just stay here. I mean, it's already late and I don't know where my mom is." I just remembered she hasn't gotten home yet. And now I'm starting to worry. Jimmy saw my worried look.

"She'll be back! I sure she's just hanging with some girlfriends." he seemed so calm. I should be calm about it to, since it's most likely true, anyway. I smiled.

"Okay, well. What should we do exactly?" We both stood quiet trying to think of something to do. I was thinking maybe stay in and watch movies all night. I don't know though if that's what Jimmy wants to do or not. I looked over at him and saw that he had his eyes squinted. I guess he was trying to think...?

"We could go to a show that's downtown at this bar. And no, it's not the one I work at." He smiled. "We can go to it and see what's going on down there. I know there's a band, but that's it." He smiled big and bright. I kinda didn't want to go to a show because I wasn't dressed, I'm not prepared and I just really wanna be around Jimmy.

"Okay!" I agreed. Yeah, I don't really wanna go, but I know Jimmy wants to. I mentally sighed in my head. Trying to think of something to throw on. "I'm just gonna throw on something really quick." I told him. He nodded his head. I walked over to my dresser and pulled out some dark blue flare jeans and a solid black tank top. I wasn't going anywhere fancy, and I didn't really feel like dressing up tonight with it being so late. I threw that on in front of Jimmy. He made a whistle noise and I couldn't help but giggle at him. I ran my fingers through my hair and smiled into my little mirror. "Okay, we can go whenever." I told him as I slipped on some shoes.

"Yay!" He stood in front of the mirror and puckered his lips out. "Okay, lets go doll." He grabbed my hand and we started out my bedroom door, and out through the front door we went. We hopped in Jimmy's car so we could get going. He blared the radio. Out of the driveway we went. We had our windows rolled down and our arms tangling out slightly. I smiled as I felt the night air hit my face through the opened window. I love anything to do with night. And when the air is like this I just fall in love. I looked over at Jimmy and he had a huge smile on his face. I knew something like this would make him happy. It'll probably be a lot better than staying inside and just watching movies. We can do that anytime. I'm gonna make the most of this. I know it'll make him happy. I smiled to myself. We arrived at the bar. It was big and flashing. You could already hear the band playing and my nerves started acting ridiculous. I felt heat on my face and I didn't really know why. I never heard of this bar before. Or, really knew there was one around here. Why would I have known? Jimmy twisted his fingers in between mine so we could walk hand in hand. I looked down at our hands and felt a shiver go up my spine. I looked at Jimmy and gave him a quick peck on the lips. "Are you excited?!" He asked eagerly. I could tell he was.

"YES!" I jumped with the excitement that I know had. Hearing the music from inside made me so excited for some reason. I'm not quite sure why. Maybe because I haven't been to something like this before. We started walking towards the front door and the guard guy was there. He looked at Jimmy and I strangely.

"How old is she?" He looked at me. I pulled out my ID so he could see.

"Man, she's just coming to see the band okay?" Jimmy stated to him. He nodded his head and gave me a yellow bracelet to wear. It had the words 'Underage' on it. Did you seriously need to put those words on it? Jimmy ran to a table before someone else got a hold to it. We both sat down. We were pretty close to the band. I smiled at Jimmy and he smiled at me as well. "I hope you have a fun night tonight!" He yelled over the music to me. I smiled at him.

"I know I'll have a great time!" I yelled back at him. We both smiled at each other and leaned across the table to kiss each other. I lady came over and asked us what we wanted to drink.

"I'll have a whiskey and a coke please." He responded very quickly. The lady looked at me.

"I would like to have a Dr. Pepper please." I felt weird telling her that since we were at a bar. I don't know why. She smiled at me as she wrote it down and walked away.

"Don't worry, you can have some of mine!" Jimmy yelled to me. I smiled at him. It made me nervous that he said that. What if they caught us or something? I don't want to get Jimmy in any trouble. I didn't say nothing about it. Our order wasn't here yet, I'll just wait. The band started another song and we watched them play. They were actually really good. Like a pop/punk kinda band it what they sounded like. The lady came over with our order and gave our glasses to us. She gave Jimmy a coke can and cup of whiskey. She walked away very quickly. Jimmy poured some whiskey in my Dr. Pepper glass after I drank some out of it. I felt a little weird that I was drinking this though. I don't know why I just was. We watched the band play too more songs. "I gotta take a leak. Be right back." Jimmy walked off to the mens bathroom. I just started looking around the place. I noticed this girl with bright blonde hair being extremely loud and flirty with this man who looked down in the dumps. She shouldn't be acting like that. I doubt she knows what happened to him. I could only see the back of the man and he looked all down and sad. I shrugged it off knowing everyone has there problems. I waited for Jimmy to get back. Looked towards the mens bathroom and saw Jimmy coming out. I smiled as he sat back down. I looked over his shoulder and saw the man that was frowning look at us. I couldn't tell his face very well. It made me a little uncomfortable that he was staring at us like he was angry with us. I turned quickly towards Jimmy with a smile on my face. Jimmy ordered another drink and I was kinda ready to leave. I know Jimmy wants to come out and have a good time, and show me a good time. But, I'm not really into this stuff. The band was almost over playing.

"Can we go ahead and go? I'm getting a little sleepy." I lied about the sleepy part but I wanted to get out of here. He looked at me and smiled like it wasn't anything to him.

"Sure." He stood up and paid for his bill. We walked out and we passed the angry, downed person again. He glanced at us and made shivers go up my spine. That lady was still flirting aggressively with the man. I felt bad for him. Me and Jimmy held hands as we walked outside. The wind blew in our faces. We hopped in the car and drove to my house. "You haven't said too much." I felt a little weird that he said that.

"I don't know why I haven't." I answered honestly. I really don't know. I guess seeing that weird guy made me feel this way, and I didn't really wanna go in the first place. "Could you stay with me tonight?" I asked hopping he could. I saw his eyes shift to where mine were and smirk.

"Of course, I don't have to work till tomorrow evening." He reached over with his hand and grabbed mine. I squeezed his hand back and smiled. We arrived at my house, my mom still wasn't there. I shrugged it off thinking maybe she just wanted to be gone. I mean, she's a grove woman. I unlocked the door and me and Jimmy walked inside. I sighed and slid my shoes off in the living room. Jimmy looked at me strangely.

"It's nothing, I just feel pooped." I felt all cozy when we got to my house. I walked into my bedroom and stripped down to put pjs on. Jimmy wasn't in there when I stripped or we wouldn't be sleeping. I put on some sleeping shorts and a tank top with no bra. I hope my nipples don't make him start going. I crawled into the bed before he even stepped foot into my door way. I don't know what he was doing. No later after I said that there he was with a drink in his hand. He saw me laying and crawled over to where I was in the bed. He stripped down to his boxers and my face turned hot. I hope he couldn't see my heated face. He had such a nice body I couldn't help but blush. He pulled the covers down so he could get under there with me. His body touched mine and it felt like fire. We were chest to chest and I didn't want him to feel the heat on my face. I buried my face in his neck so that he couldn't see it. I know he had to feel it on his neck though. I sighed and cuddled up to him. He wrapped his arms around me tighter.

"I love you, Nattie." I know he could feel me smile into his neck.

"I love you too, Jimmy."