Long Live Us
I'm a Walking Travesty, But I'm Smiling at Everything
-Fast forward to Monday-
I got up and took a fast shower and got dressed, while i was getting dressed i looked outside. Snowing like crazy. Driving in this weather is horrible because i have to be extra cautious. After i finished doing everything i had to do this morning i went to go to school. I got outside and saw Elyse standing at the bus stop. Its to freaking cold to be out here, i ran over to her to offer her a ride. She looked at me confused and she looked cold.
"Hey" i said
"Hi" she said
"Want a ride?" i asked
"Im good" she said
"You sure?, this bus is slow as hell. I used to ride it and when it snows we'd always end up late for school. Mainly because the person is slow to get us, your gonna get sick waiting in this cold. I know i did a few times. This lady is ridiculous honestly" i laughed, this bus driver sucks big time. I dont no why she wasnt fired
"Oh. Well sure i'll ride with you, better then having to risk getting sick" she said
"Yep, come on" i said and we went over to my car and got in and left
The ride was pretty interesting, i kept swearing at the drivers around us and so did Elyse. These people need to learn to drive on the right side of the road. We got to school and when we walked in Jack and Rian and Zack were in the lobby.
"Alex!" Jack yelled hugging me
"Hey" i said
"Elyse!" Jack yelled hugging her
"Jack your freaking her out" i said
"Sorry" he said letting her go
"Anyways, Zack, Rian this is Elyse she's my new neighbor. Elyse this is Rian and Zack their also in our band. Rians the drummer and Zack plays bass" i said introducing them to eachother
"Hi" she said
"Hey" they said
"So whats your schedule like?" Rian asked her, she recieved it the day she came to sign up for this school
"Fine" she said passing it to him
"Yes!, your in the same homeroom as me and Alex. And you have a few classes with each of us" Rian said
"Really?, good so i wont be alone and lost" she said
"Yep" he said
"Good then thats means you can show her where she needs to go. I need to get going guys" i said
"Yep, later dude" Rian said and i left the group
I was lucky because i get to skip homeroom. I had to go see the school therapist. I get panic attacks, i get them pretty often lately and pretty bad. I had one in gym which is why i see her now. I knocked on the door and walked in, she was writing stuff down and smiled when she saw me.
"Alex, how are you. How was your weekend?" she asked
"Fine, everything was good" i said
"You seem tense" she said
"Eh" i said
"Is it the winter?, family stuff, personal stuff?" she asked
"Yeah its the winter. It just makes my anxiety really bad" i said
"Which is probably the cause of the panic attacks" she said and i nodded
"Yeah" i said
"Have you had any since the last one?" she asked
"I guess, it litterally lasted 10, 20 seconds at the most. But it made me feel horrible afterwards" i said
"Horrible how?" she asked
"Like nauseous, tired" i said
"Okay. Well its good their not long anymore, but i'd love to get rid of them for good. So today we'll talk a little about preventing them because you never know you could just randomly have a really bad attack again" she said and i nodded
After i left her i went about my day, it was just a typical monday. But at 3rd period we had to go outside for a fire drill. Que the anxiety. After we finally went back inside i felt like i couldn't think straight. During lunch everyone was talking but me, i was just thinking.
"Hey Gaskarth!" Jack said clapping his hands infront of my face
"What!?" i said
"You okay?" he asked
"Mhmm" i said feeling the anxiety heighten
"You seem weird, are you sure?" Rian asked
"I gotta go" i said and ran to the bathroom, i was in flight or fight mode. Jack followed
I locked myself in a stall and started hyperventilating. I heard Jack knocking on the stall door and i let him in. He started trying to calm me down, i was to freaked out. My anxiety reached so high i ended passing out. I woke up a little while later in the nurses, Jack was sitting a few feet away.
"Look whose up" he said
"What?" i said
"Dude you passed out, the worst panic attack I've ever seen in anyone" he said
"Damnit!" i said
"Good you up Alex, you gave us a major scare" the nurse said
"Sorry" i said
"Its fine, i called your mom. She trying to get out of work early but she might not be able to. So im sending you home and Jacks driving and hes gonna stay with you, you cant be alone" she said
"Okay" i said
We went to my house and i spent the day sleeping on and off. And occasionly puking, the anxiety made me nauseous. If someone who didnt know what happened saw me they'd think it was the flu thats how bad it was. Jack left after my mom came home, she was really worried which made me feel guilty. Later while i was lying on my bed there was a knock and my mom walked in.
"Alex Elyse is here, do you want me to tell her you dont want to talk?" she said
"No im fine she can come in" i said
"Hey" Elyse said walking in
"Hi" i said
"We missed you at school, are you okay?" she asked
"Im fine, just a panic attack. I'll be good as new tomorrow" i said
"Yeah Jack told me, that really sucks. I'd never think you were the panic attack type" she said
"Well i am" i laughed
"Yeah, i used to get them but i don't anymore" she said
"Really?, how'd you get rid of them?" i asked
"Well i was on meds for a while but got off them, i didnt like the way i felt on them. Then i just ended up talking to one of my cousins who gets them and just venting. Talking really helps things" she said
"Oh cool, can i use you to vent?" i asked and she laughed
"Of course, anytime. Give me your phone i'll type my number in" she said and i passed her my cell phone
"I'll totally be texting you, or calling" i laughed
"Yeah thats fine. By the way i brought your homework from math, i brought mine to. Figured we could work on it together" she said pulling two packets that had 3 paged stappled together from her bag
"Oh, thanks. I dont feel like doing that right now though. Wanna go get some ice cream?, i like having ice cream after ive had a bad day" i said and she laughed and smiled
"Of course, ice cream is the best medicine after all" she said and we left
I got up and took a fast shower and got dressed, while i was getting dressed i looked outside. Snowing like crazy. Driving in this weather is horrible because i have to be extra cautious. After i finished doing everything i had to do this morning i went to go to school. I got outside and saw Elyse standing at the bus stop. Its to freaking cold to be out here, i ran over to her to offer her a ride. She looked at me confused and she looked cold.
"Hey" i said
"Hi" she said
"Want a ride?" i asked
"Im good" she said
"You sure?, this bus is slow as hell. I used to ride it and when it snows we'd always end up late for school. Mainly because the person is slow to get us, your gonna get sick waiting in this cold. I know i did a few times. This lady is ridiculous honestly" i laughed, this bus driver sucks big time. I dont no why she wasnt fired
"Oh. Well sure i'll ride with you, better then having to risk getting sick" she said
"Yep, come on" i said and we went over to my car and got in and left
The ride was pretty interesting, i kept swearing at the drivers around us and so did Elyse. These people need to learn to drive on the right side of the road. We got to school and when we walked in Jack and Rian and Zack were in the lobby.
"Alex!" Jack yelled hugging me
"Hey" i said
"Elyse!" Jack yelled hugging her
"Jack your freaking her out" i said
"Sorry" he said letting her go
"Anyways, Zack, Rian this is Elyse she's my new neighbor. Elyse this is Rian and Zack their also in our band. Rians the drummer and Zack plays bass" i said introducing them to eachother
"Hi" she said
"Hey" they said
"So whats your schedule like?" Rian asked her, she recieved it the day she came to sign up for this school
"Fine" she said passing it to him
"Yes!, your in the same homeroom as me and Alex. And you have a few classes with each of us" Rian said
"Really?, good so i wont be alone and lost" she said
"Yep" he said
"Good then thats means you can show her where she needs to go. I need to get going guys" i said
"Yep, later dude" Rian said and i left the group
I was lucky because i get to skip homeroom. I had to go see the school therapist. I get panic attacks, i get them pretty often lately and pretty bad. I had one in gym which is why i see her now. I knocked on the door and walked in, she was writing stuff down and smiled when she saw me.
"Alex, how are you. How was your weekend?" she asked
"Fine, everything was good" i said
"You seem tense" she said
"Eh" i said
"Is it the winter?, family stuff, personal stuff?" she asked
"Yeah its the winter. It just makes my anxiety really bad" i said
"Which is probably the cause of the panic attacks" she said and i nodded
"Yeah" i said
"Have you had any since the last one?" she asked
"I guess, it litterally lasted 10, 20 seconds at the most. But it made me feel horrible afterwards" i said
"Horrible how?" she asked
"Like nauseous, tired" i said
"Okay. Well its good their not long anymore, but i'd love to get rid of them for good. So today we'll talk a little about preventing them because you never know you could just randomly have a really bad attack again" she said and i nodded
After i left her i went about my day, it was just a typical monday. But at 3rd period we had to go outside for a fire drill. Que the anxiety. After we finally went back inside i felt like i couldn't think straight. During lunch everyone was talking but me, i was just thinking.
"Hey Gaskarth!" Jack said clapping his hands infront of my face
"What!?" i said
"You okay?" he asked
"Mhmm" i said feeling the anxiety heighten
"You seem weird, are you sure?" Rian asked
"I gotta go" i said and ran to the bathroom, i was in flight or fight mode. Jack followed
I locked myself in a stall and started hyperventilating. I heard Jack knocking on the stall door and i let him in. He started trying to calm me down, i was to freaked out. My anxiety reached so high i ended passing out. I woke up a little while later in the nurses, Jack was sitting a few feet away.
"Look whose up" he said
"What?" i said
"Dude you passed out, the worst panic attack I've ever seen in anyone" he said
"Damnit!" i said
"Good you up Alex, you gave us a major scare" the nurse said
"Sorry" i said
"Its fine, i called your mom. She trying to get out of work early but she might not be able to. So im sending you home and Jacks driving and hes gonna stay with you, you cant be alone" she said
"Okay" i said
We went to my house and i spent the day sleeping on and off. And occasionly puking, the anxiety made me nauseous. If someone who didnt know what happened saw me they'd think it was the flu thats how bad it was. Jack left after my mom came home, she was really worried which made me feel guilty. Later while i was lying on my bed there was a knock and my mom walked in.
"Alex Elyse is here, do you want me to tell her you dont want to talk?" she said
"No im fine she can come in" i said
"Hey" Elyse said walking in
"Hi" i said
"We missed you at school, are you okay?" she asked
"Im fine, just a panic attack. I'll be good as new tomorrow" i said
"Yeah Jack told me, that really sucks. I'd never think you were the panic attack type" she said
"Well i am" i laughed
"Yeah, i used to get them but i don't anymore" she said
"Really?, how'd you get rid of them?" i asked
"Well i was on meds for a while but got off them, i didnt like the way i felt on them. Then i just ended up talking to one of my cousins who gets them and just venting. Talking really helps things" she said
"Oh cool, can i use you to vent?" i asked and she laughed
"Of course, anytime. Give me your phone i'll type my number in" she said and i passed her my cell phone
"I'll totally be texting you, or calling" i laughed
"Yeah thats fine. By the way i brought your homework from math, i brought mine to. Figured we could work on it together" she said pulling two packets that had 3 paged stappled together from her bag
"Oh, thanks. I dont feel like doing that right now though. Wanna go get some ice cream?, i like having ice cream after ive had a bad day" i said and she laughed and smiled
"Of course, ice cream is the best medicine after all" she said and we left
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I felt like Alex's anxiety needed to be shown haha, i dont no :Pim dealing with my crazy anxiety problems and OCD so for some reason ive been listening to therapy alot haha!. My whole mood has just basically inspired this chapter XD. Im so weird
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