Keep Digging Holes in The Desert

That annoying beeping noise ran through my ears.
The sterile smell filled my nostrils.
That only meant one thing.
I was in a hospital which also meant I survived.
I didn't succeed and accomplish my goal of killing myself.
Vic stopped that even though he doesn't care.
I felt someone holding my right hand and something wet drop onto my hand.

"Val, baby, please wake up. I miss you, so much. I need you."

It was Vic.
He was crying.
He cared enough to stay?
Since when?
I tried to open my eyes but it was no use.
They wouldn't budge.
I fell into a deep sleep soon.

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"Val please wake up. I can't live knowing I lost you. I know I never take care of you correctly. I just don't know how to. I'm willing to try for you. For us. But I can't if you're not here. Please wake up." Vic begged.

I tried opening my eyes again.
I tried so fucking hard.
Then suddenly they slowly opened and I saw white.
I quickly squeezed my eyes shut from the brightness.

"Could you close the curtains or shut that damn light off?" I grumbled.

I heard foot steps and a light switch.
I opened my eyes to it being dimmer where I could see.
Vic grabbed my hand as he sat down.
He pressed his lips to my knuckles lightly and then looked at me.

"How do you feel?"
"Like shit."
"I'm sorry. I'm so fucking sorry. This is all my fault. You're here because of me. This all happened because im a fucking dick."

I pulled him to me motioning that I wanted him to crawl in the bed with me.
He got up and pulled up the covers and slid in.
He wrapped his arms around me and I laid my head on his chest.

"How about we forget about it? Its in the past. There's nothing we can do about it."
"Okay. Sounds good to me. But, Val, I want to try. I want to try for us."

I lightly smiled.

"Sounds good."

I looked up at him and he leaned down and pressed his lips to mine.

My heart monitor raced as he kissed me.
He broke the kissed and chuckled.

"Damn heart monitor..." I whispered looking away blushing.

A doctor rushed in but stopped when she realized all was good.
She had black flowing hair to her shoulders and crystal blue eyes.

"I'm so sorry I thought something was wrong."

Vic got out of the bed.

"Everything is great. But how is Valerie doing?" Vic asked her.

The doctor looked down at her chart.

"Well let's check and see."

She walked over and looked at the heart monitor writing some stuff down.
She took her stethescope off her neck and hooked them in her ears and made me sit up so she could listen to my breathing.
She took the plugs out of her ears and wrapped the stethescope around her neck.

"Well her vitals are great and she's breathing fine. But I will be putting you on anti-depressants. You start going to a therapist next week. Every day for a month and then it gradually changes to three times a week for a month and then two times and then once. It just depends how well you're improving."
"Thank you doctor. When can she leave?"
"Right now if she wants. Just sign her out."
"Where at?"
"Front desk."
"Thank you."
"You two have a wonderful day."

She then left and I looked at Vic.

"You want to leave?"
"Yeah."

He gave me a bag with clothes and I walked to the bathroom slowly.
Once I made my way there I took the hospital gown off and grabbed out the bra and panties he put in there.
They were black lacey ones.
Of course he'd pick those...
Then I slipped on my favorite Pierce the Veil shirt he gave me.
And the black leggings.
He obviously wanted to see my ass.
And finally my black vans.
I grabbed my hair and put it up into a bun since it was a mess.
I grabbed the gown and bag walking out putting the gown on the bed.
I turned to a smiling Vic.

"You should wear leggings more often."
"Oh shut up."

I lightly smack his arm.
He kissed my cheek.

"You love me." He said smiling.
"You know I do."

He grabbed my hand and we walked out to the elevator to go down to the first floor.
Once there we went to the front desk to sign out.
Then we walked out and to his car to go home.

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I walk sitting on the bed looking at my scars.
My cuts were so bad they had to stitch them up.
I sighed as a tear slipped out.

"Hey don't cry."

I looked up in time for Vic to wipe the tear away.

"They're just your battle scars."
"I know but it was such a stupid thing to do. What if I died? What if you didn't get me to the hospital in time?"
"Shhhh don't talk like that. I will do everything in my power to protect you even if its against yourself. I love you way too much to just lose you that easily."

I smiled and wrapped my arms around his neck.
He held me to him.
I pulled away from him and cupped his face pressing my lips to his.
He pulled me closer to him so that our bodies were pressed together.
A moaned escaped my mouth and he smiled.
My hands slid down and wrapped around his neck.
He bent down and picked me up so he was holding me from under my thighs.
I wrapped my legs around his waist.
He walked us out of the bathroom into the bedroom without breaking the kiss.
No idea how he did it.
He gently laid me on the bed and hovered over me.
He broke the kiss and kissed down my neck earning a moan from me.

"Mmmm I love it when you do that." He breathed against my skin.

He kissed me again and his hands slid up my shirt and rested against my stomach rubbing circles.
It was soothing.
I then broke the kiss and pulled my shirt off.
He smiled as I tugged on his shirt.
He pulled it off and continued kissing me.
His hand slipped to my back and unhooked my bra.
I pulled my leggings off and unbuckled his belt and he kicked his pants off.
He kissed down my neck to my breasts and down my stomach to the waist band of my panties.
I moaned and tried to control my breathing but it was no use.
He met my lips again as he hooked his hand on the waist band and pulled them down off of my legs.
I pulled his boxers off revealing his length.
Might I say I was very pleased.
After making out he broke the kiss.

"You ready?"
"More than ever."
"You're sure?"
"Jesus Christ Vic fuck me already." I growled.

He just smiled and spread my legs and he took over.
I have never screamed or moaned so much in my fucking life.
Yeah it hurt like hell because clearly I was a virgin but Victor Vincent Fuentes was my first.
I loved it.

He pulled out and kissed me once more before laying next to me and pulling me to him so we were spooning.

"You're so beautiful." He breathed.

He grabbed my arm and kissed my wounds.
I smiled and quietly moaned.
He let go of my arm and held me once again.
I fell asleep in pure bliss.
I had never felt so alive before.