Darling, You'll Be Okay

Don't waist your time on me your already the voice inside my head!" My alarm clock sang making me groan
Fuckig hate school I have nobody , considering Mikey's still acting weird
I got up and put on dark red skinnies with a my chemical romance shirt on and did my hair.
I put my earrings in and grabbed my phone checking the time 7:20I had 25minutes
I walked down the stairs and went to the kitchen which was silent .
Everyone was still sleeping , I grabbed a water and my backpack and walked across the street
I opened the door and went to the kitchen to see vic sipping coffee
" he left didn't he" I said not surprised he didn't wait for me .
" yeah, ill drive you if you want " vic offered putting his cup down
" ill drive my self thanks " I said going to the door
" bye vic I love you!" I said walking out the door and across the street
I took my keys out of my backpack and got in my white car .

I drove to school and got to first period just in time
Once I walked in the door I was tripped . I walked to the back and didn't pay attention
I did that for every class the rest of the day until it was time to leave.
As I walked out the front door i saw a couple kissing by the lockers
I stopped suddenly when I noticed a familiar tattoo .
I got closer and noticed it was mike and a girl named Kylie
My heart stopped and I felt tears streaming
That's why he's been ignoring me
After a second he noticed me
"Fuck" I heard him mutter as he ran towards me
He grabbed my arms
"Jess it's not-"
" save it " I shoved him off me and started to run to my car when I was triped and fell into the lockers
"Ugly bitch" gen shouted causing people to laugh I watched mike run towards me and get down
I slapped him
"Ass hole" I said as I ran again and got in my car
I started to brake down
"Ugly pathetic bitch " I thought
Noone could ever love me
I turned on my car as mike was running towards it And sped off and soon I was on my street.
I parked in vics drive way and ran into the house still crying terribly
I walked Into the living room to tony sitting there watching tv he looked up at me
" hey Jess- wait what happened?!" He got up and hugged me
" he cheated - he fucking cheated i saw him making out with a girl after school" I yelled and got out of his embrace
"Son of a bitch! Vic !! Jaime! Get in here" he yelled
I leaned on the wall and fell down bringing t knees to my chest and sobbed .
" what do you need!" They shouted
" get in here now!" He yelled back terror in his voice
They ran down the stairs
" what's so important "
"Jess! What happened!" Jaime said running to me and bringing me in his arms
"Jess what happened" vic said running to me
" your ass hole brother happened " tony shouted
" what'd he do?" Vic asked getting up
I sobbed harder
" he cheated on her vic! She saw him making out with a girl from school " he said getting upset
I got up
"I'm GAna kill that bitch" vic muttered
" I knew he hated me everyone does!" I yelled getting up
" not true he's just a dick Jess!" Vic said holding my arms
Just then mike bursted through the door
" Jess!" He yelled running towards me I pushed him away
"I hate you" I said through tears
" I'm sorry! It's just"
"It's just what mike!?" I spat back Jaimes arm around me
" I'm sorry fuck Jess I like you just me and Kylie connect better I just want to be friends with you "he said
I cried more
" next time say that instead of cheating on me dick" I shouted running out the door
"Jess come back!" Vic shouted but I was already to my door I ran up to my room and slammed the door.
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TONY'S POV
"YOU Dick!" I shouted shoving mike into the wall
" why the hell did you do that" I yelled he shoved back I gripped his shirt an slammed him to the wall
" I dot know I'm sorry!" He yelled
I punched him the face
" sorrys not enough sorry is not going to fix her ! You know she's suicidal why do it to her!? You trying to fucking kill her?!" I said grabbing his shirt again and punching him
" I know.. I'm a dick I shouldn't have but I don't know it just happened " he said back flinching expecting another punch
Jaime grabbed. And restrained me
" we'll if she attempts suicide again its all your fault " I yelled storming to my room
I fell asleep and woke up 5 hours later
I yanked my phone out and called Jess
no answere
I tried again no answer
I tried once again finally she answered
" Jess!" I shouted
"Tony I'm fine " she said between crying
" I don't believe you" I said back
" tony ill be fine I just want to be alone I love you bye" she hung up
I walked out the door and heard Jaime and vic talking in Jaimes room I walked over to his room and popped in
" tony Jess isn't answering!" Jaime said nervously
" she just did for me she said she'll be ok just needs to be alone , lets trust her" I said still nervous
" I'm not losing her tony!" Vic shouted
" I know vic! We won't shes strong I know it , give her time " I said and sat on Jaime's bed
"Guys just relax she'll call us if she needs us "I said and walked out still scared of what she was going to do. If only she knew how hard I was falling for her
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JESS'S POV
I sat on my bed still sobbing into corey
" thanks Corey I love you"
" I love you too "he said
My mom was gone for 2 weeks so Im skipping school the rest Of the week
" don't do anything stupid " he said getting up and leaving my room
"Corey! I'f I'm gone wen u wake up ill be at the boys" I said
"Ok" he shouted back n I heard his door close
I got up and found my hidden blade I hid underneath my desk I took it out and stuck my arm I brought it across a clear patch .
-Stupid -
One cut
-Pathetic-
Another
-Ugly-
Deeper
-Idiot -
Another
-die-
I brought the blade across carving the word forever across my wrist
I brought it across so many times there was no room
I laid on my floor
I'm hopeless no one could want me
I started to sob and laid on my bed
After what seemed like an hour I got up and cleaned my wrist and my face
I checked my phone with about a million missed calls it was midnight and I wasn't tired
I checked my messages and saw them all from vic and Jaime
Both had similar messages
" we'll be up ,come inside to Our room if you need us , we want to know your okay"
I sighed I really needed them
I got up and threw a hoodie on
I walked across the street and quietly opened the door I walked up the stairs and stood outside Vic's room I opened the door silently and saw him sitting with his head in his hand
Just then he looked up
" thank god" he said bulting up and hugging me
" I thought , I don't know I'm just glad your here" he said hugging me
We sat on his bed
" can I stay here tonight, I don't trust myself at home " i asked
" of course " he said sitting next to me
" Corey also said I could skip a few days of school. Would that be okay if i stayed here for a few days also.?" My voice was cracking
" of course Jess it's fine" he said
" I'm sorry what mike did" he said putting his arm on me
I said nothing
If only he knew
" I'm tired can I go to sleep? Ill sleep on the floor?" I asked getting up
" get in my bed " he said getting up
" you can borrow some cloths , for pajamas get some sleep" he said and closed the door I laid in his warm bed no intentions of getting up at all tomorrow
I closed my eyes and fell into a deep sleep